old vs new gardrobe?

Hy girls! My "last night" story... preparing for going out w friends. I`ve spent almost 3 hours to get on my whole clothing stock, then take off... like nothing fit me...  I`ve gained (im at 46-47 kgs), but never felt in this way, and Ive totally lost control (intensive "being fat" feelings, etc)... I know its ed working in my head, and i know i have to go through...just curious how do you deal with these kind of feelings (body changing)?

i know that feeling but it really is the ed playing tricks with you, youve got tro remember where youve come from. when you have an eating disorder you become so starved and emmaciated it becomes natural and when you do start to gain it initally feel negative. try to stick with it remermber why you are doing this everytime you get those voices in your head fight bk at them in time i know it with get easier and you will feel better about yourself. what helped for me is getting rid of all those skinny clothes throw them out they are nothing but a reminder of that tragic state you were in, think about it i know it aint easy remember you have the power to change this h xx

Ive been through this to spending endless hours trying on oufits attempting to get one that I feel comfortable in.

My advice would be take out all the clothes that are now to small for you and give them to a charity shop. Its only going to trigger you to try them on and by keeping them you`ll still be hanging onto your ed in a way. So fill up your wardrobe with clothes that do fit you now instead. I also find since Ive gained some weight and am still struggling to accept it that tighter fitting clothes make me paranoid and make those ed thoughts creep in quickly, so for the moment Im sticking to more looser fitting clothes. Hope some of that helps, its very difficult to deal with these changes but you must remember the changes are for the better and over time you`ll get used to them.

Thank you tessa for support...really helping me sharing this kind of struggles to you who really understand what im feeling...more often feel "clear" from this distorted mentality (weight-,food obsession), I have to remember, (thanks "gaining") those precious moments Ive spent with my friends without even thinking about nutritional facts, calories, etc... just having fun, coming back to life...thats it what we have all to remember in our occasionally nadir...

 

Thanks for you too betty, the charity shop seems to be a great idea! Taking out my "bones-fit" clothes in addition my distorted stray identity... yeah, i really have to take this step! 

What I did when I was gaining is buy clothes that were the size of me healthy and I tossed the rest. Well gave em away but I don't have them in my sight because I know that seeing them and trying them on wouldn't be good for me mentally. So I spent a butt load of money on clothes that were actually too big at the time because it motivated me to get well. It also made me realize that when I could fit into my new clothes I would still be thin...I didn't have to go through the process of trying on clothes and seeing what WOULD fit at stores even because I had my ideal size already. Maybe not the best way of going about it but it helped me stay on track.

So throw out your clothes. Wear things like flouncy skirts and things that can be adjusted..wide leg pants and trousers that are stylish but don't make you feel fat ( even though your fat feelings are unwarranted anyway) but I know how it is to feel huge when you're far from it.

thank you for this. I am donating my tiny stuff to Goodwill and a teen program. I need to get my real figure back and buy a couple of new clothes to grow into-how unnatural  when many people are trying to wear a smaller size.

Thank you girls, im really trying to use my old clothes in the best way i can... as for now, i like my comfy strechy leggings, boyfriend jeans:)... i dont have those fat feelings wearing them...

Zopta, nice to see you, how r u doin?hope you feel better! kisses

I did kind of what chrissy was talking about. Except it was just one skirt I bought in the size I wnated to be at, and after 5 months it fits(in my display pic :]). But yeah, get rid of all your small clothes! Leggings, skirts, tunics are all good choices that can work with you as you gain :)