Pictures ARE my motivation

Lately i have been going through all my old pictures, Pictures from right before my ed started and pictures from a long time ago.

Pictures from when i was known for how much food i could eat and not gain weight.
Pictures when i was so happy that people would ask me if i ever get in a bad mood.
Pictures when i was known as the small girl "with so much energy" (quoted by my tennis coach in the newspaper)

I have been looking at those pictures and it is TOTALLY MOTIVATING me not to fall back into my ed. It is seriosuly eye opening.

Looking at those pictures of the past couple years and seeing how truly happy i was and seeing how i was never fat. But yet when some of those pictures were taken, especially the ones right before my ed, i thought i was fat.

How stupid.

Whenever im having a day when i just dont feel like eating anymore and i think i have gained enough weight, i look at those pictures and im not joking i IMMEDIATLY wanna go out for ice cream or something:)

i wanna look like what i used to. i would love to.

Thankfully im almost there.

I didnt think i had any pictures of me when i was at my lowest weight, but i was looking through my sisters pictures on the computer today and found 2 pictures.
They are horrible :(  i feel so bad for putting everyone, my grandparents, cousins, aunts, uncles, parents, siblings, friends, coaches, teammates, teachers, everyone, through this. I looked like an alien. I would post it but im honestly embarrased.

I remeber taking one of the pictures this summer and after it was taken i remeber looking at it and thinking, im not that thin, im normal.
I was blind.

I encourage you all to look through your old pictures of when you were honestly your happiest and healthiest. It makes me excited to know that IM GUNNA look like that again! 

Thanks for posting this thread...I know exactly how you feel. I look at pictures of me at my heaviest and I think gosh...you were gorgeous, and then I look at pictures of me at my lowest (where I thought I was gorgeous) and I look like a sunken in train wreck!! It is so weird how ed is soley based around distortions and obsessions....I throw away pictures of me during my ed! I also look at old pictures of me....I too find it liberating and motivating!

Hi - noticed your picture (positivelinny), and after looking in your gallery, I picked the 132# as my favorite.

I'm 5'7" - 134#, and am 65 years old.  I used to weigh as little as 103# - not a pretty sight.

I'm going to shoot for 130#; based on my age, and structure, I think it will be my favorite weight.

I've long since tossed those pictures of me as a 'scare-crow'; happy to have finally reached my weight goal at age 63; then went up 10# more than I wanted at age 64, now back to just 'four more to go'...........

Diane

I just wanted to let you know that I read this post before I left my room a few hours ago and it inspired me a lot and gave me strength. because of your post I went to my schools cafeteria and ate a large, healthy dinner and even allowed myself dessert, without even glancing at the calories. It felt really good. I know it seems small but it was a big deal for me and this post inspired it, so thank you so much. <33

Liosa-

Keep it up! Anytime you find yourself doubting your efforts, revisit this thread and remember what you wrote and how much you meant it!!

Linny-

At 132# you were positively, phenomenally gorgeous.....please stay motivated to continue down your road to health...

That is great that you are inspired 97sbee!! Good for you hun! And sixtyfivealive I think that the weight you are at right now is amazing for you....seriously, that is great that you are finding your comfort level in your skin!! And thanks so much for your words of encouragement about my pictures...it really helps to hear that and if forces me down recovery lane even more!! You have no idea! Doc2bmo, I wanted to thank you so much too...it really is amazing to hear compliments. I think you are gorgeous as well. Your profile pic is great...I am a southern gal too!! Stay strong everyone!