Place to vent on how hard it is for teens to twenties to juggle everything

OK so this is a place for teens to twenties to vent about how hard it can be struggling to juggle all aspects of their lives. Here's my venting:

School: I go to an alternate High School, which is a high school where you go for about four hours a day and work on only one course and at your own pace. If you work at a regular pace you will get the same amount of credits in a semester as you would at a regular high school (four per semester, eight per year). But I have until the end of January 2009 to complete 9 credits (that's just one extra credit, not a big deal but still means I have to work faster and harder).

Gym: I work out every day, if you look into my Journal you'll see my new exercise routine I'm starting on Monday in order to get healthy over the next two months, then I'll take some out of the routine and just maintain my health. I currently work out half an hour to an hour every day, this new routine will have an hour on one day, two hours another day, and for the other five days of the week about 3 to almost 5 hours.

Social Life: My best friend lives in Hull. We used to be together 24/7, seriously. We lived together for a while and were always at each others side. People used to think we were lesbians! Now I barely get to see her anymore. My lack of a job means a lack of bus fare. At least my boyfriend is buying me a bus pass on Friday that I can use all of February. But it's hard seeing my best friend only once a week, or sometimes once every other week.

Love Life: My boyfriend will be 31 on the 8th of this month. i only get to see him on the weekends, usually I go and spend the night because he lives in Hull and I hate taking the bus there and just leaving a few hours later to get the bus home (two or three buses back and forth to/from my parents place in Ottawa).
I actually thought he was 25 and he thought I was 22 when we first started dating. Lol. It was on my 18th birthday in October that he found out my age, and then told me his. We never really asked each other about it, it didn't matter. Plus he looks pretty young.... lol.

Family Time: Virtually non-existent. I love my family but my only family time is actually my 'down-time'. I go outside and have a cigarette with my Dad every once in a while (I smoke more away from home because I'm usually not at home lol), but that's only a few minutes like once or twice a day of small chit chat. Other than that, I see them at the dinner table (If I'm actually home).



Well that's it for me, everyone else, VENT AWAY!

School: Class ranging anywhere from four to six hours a day depending on my schedual.  For each class I try to have two hours of study time.  Meaning I have about 25 hours of studying a week doing homework and understanding class work.

Love Life: Husbands in basic training down in Georgia for the army.  I'm stuck in New York.  I spend a few hours a day everday writing to him no matter what.  Sucks because newlyweds aren't supposed to spend there first few months away from each other like this. :( 

Family Time: They're all home, I'm at school.  The parentals call occasionally and we'll talk but I really should call home and talk to my siblings more. 

Social Life: ha, very small.  A few friends but I'm too busy to hang out most of the time.  Best friends are at other schools so phone calls occasionally. 

Fitness: Gym six days a week, five if I'm too swamped.  I usually eat in my room and don't go out to the cafeterias because I'm too tempted to swing by the bakery and get cheesecake or cookies or sugary cappucchinos.  Gym is one of my top priorities aside from writing to the hubby.

Work: I have a job in the painting department at my school and usually devote three to ten hours a week making a little extra money. 

Thats me in a nutshell pretty much.  I think I'm turning into a reculse.  I can't wait until this semester is over and I get to move with my husband to a new military base and we can start over.

wow! sounds pretty stressful!

Some days I feel like I'm living the dream. You know? Like a aspiring heroine rushing to meet an exciting goal, working hard to get there.

Some days, like today, I feel like I can't breathe. I love what I'm doing, but sometimes it's overwhelming.

So here's my time to vent. Let off some steam so I can return to the routine tomorrow.

School: I'm a homeschooled junior. My mom doesn't teach me, I basically am teaching myself. I get tested every year, and am doing fine. But...most people have no idea just how hard it is to teach yourself Algerbra 1 and Chemistry, those subjects I struggle with. I've been supplied with great resources, but I don't have that teacher to bug about my questions.

It's like being in college...but without the dorm.

Kung Fu: I'm training a half-hour to an hour a day, every day. On Monday's and Friday's I'm training four hours at the studio. I love it. It's my passion.

Gymnastics: More tumbling and acrobatics than "Gymnastics". In order to be where I want to be in Kung Fu, I need to know certain skills. So, every Tuesday for five hours I'm training there. Back handsprings, arials, cartwheels, handstands...etc. I love my coach, and I'm excited to learn. But...jeesh, it's hard! And I'm doing about 30 min to an hour a day of that as well.

Work: Welcome to Wendy's! Fifteen hours a week so I can afford my gym fees, my studio's fees, and my gymnastic coach's fees. Along with my cat, who eats like a horse =)

Volunteering: Saturdays I'm at my local hospital, pushing injured folk around in wheel chairs. I do that for three hours.

Social Life: My friends are my classmates, my co-workers, my coaches, friends of the family, and one girl I volunteer with. I spend odd hours with them, and enjoy every minute of it. Just to get away from the routine.

Love Life: Yeah, I'm waiting for him to get the guts to ask me out. I've scared away so many guys, I've lost count. Somehow, nobody likes a girl that does the asking. So yeah, he's gotta step up and speak for himself. And when he does, he's got a wild ride ahead of him.

Family: I catch them a lot during the mornings and on Saturday and Sunday. I love them, especially my older brother. He and I, we're peachy.

So yeah, I'm busy. I love it, but sometimes it's just too much. I'm expected to pay all my expenses (except Food and Rent). For a teenager at minimum wage, that's a steep request. It's preparing me to budget my money, but it's hard!

Thanks for listening. I'll be reading everyone else's rants, because it's good to have someone listening to you.

seems like you're doing quite well at juggling your activities. the both of you sound quite busy! man and i thought i had a lot on my plate, it sounds like you guys have two plates full!

School: I'm a college freshman, bio major, taking 16 (hard) credits this semester. I swear, every weekday I have to run across campus several times, then run back to my dorm and attempt to do all of my homework in what time I have. I know there's people who have much harder schedules than I do, but I can't help feeling like there's not enough time for me to physically do everything I need to do to be prepared for all the stupid tests and quizes I get.

Gym: I am trying to make this a priority, to at least go several times each week, but when I'm done with classes, I'm so run down that all I want to do is lay down in my bed and do homework. I'm lucky, my school requires so many credits of an activity class, so on Mondays and Wednesday, I am doing something.

Social Life: Should be better this semester. For the first half of last semester, I only had one friend that I would hang out with, then I joined and organisation and made a bunch of friends that I get to see every week.

Family Life: My family is back home, a few states away. Although they'll get on my nerves every once in a while, I really do love them, and this semester I get to see them a couple of times before summer vacation.

Love Life: Sucks. Absolutely sucks. I've never had a boyfriend, never gone on a date, never even been asked out. I know a bunch of guys that I would be happy to date, but I've never met a guy who would be happy to date me. I've never been pretty, and being overweight doesn't help, so I could never attract any guy.

Life will be so much easier in the summer.

"I know a bunch of guys that I would be happy to date, but I've never met a guy who would be happy to date me. I've never been pretty, and being overweight doesn't help, so I could never attract any guy." -Kaptain9

You're just not meeting the right guys. There's going to be a guy that'll drop dead because of you. You just haven't met him yet.

"seems like you're doing quite well at juggling your activities. the both of you sound quite busy! man and i thought i had a lot on my plate, it sounds like you guys have two plates full!" -c_m_shark 

There's always someone busier than you are. It doesn't matter who you are. I have a friend who wants to become a doctor, and I rarely see her because she's just so busy. She's evey busier than I am.

So, yeah, everyone's busy. There's just degrees of business

Hurray for Hull and

People generally view our generation as being the ones with nothing better to do, so much time on our hands etc, but we have less time than they do! Yeah, most of us don't have kids and a full time job- we have full time school and a part time job that doesn't pay half of what we need to get through school!

School: I'm in full time university, thankfully with no classes on fridays. Generally though. I catch the bus at 7:30, am in class by 8:30, get an hour and a half worth of break, and am out either 2:30, 5:30, or 8:00. Sounds good until my work schedule is thrown in ;) I think the worst of Uni is that I don't want to be there. I am at the school that I am, because it is in town, and my parents will pay so long as I stay in town. Needless to say, I hate my program, hate the city, and hate the school. The programs I actually am interested in give me very few options of universities- most out of country. I'm attempting to figure out what I can do to save up the money it will take to get myself to a school I actually want to go to.

Work: This is stressful... Sometimes I get enough shifts for a decent pay (though no sleep) and sometimes I hardly get any! I always work the days that I finish class at 2:30, and usually don't have time to go home between, so my day ends up being 8:30-9:30, then I work weekends. Frankly, I wish I could take a second job for money- my paycheck hardly covers the clothes I need to buy at work (retail hurray) and my boss is quite persistent about those. Last week I bought a jacket at $200 and a skirt at $80 because I had to buy something and a piece to the other cheaper suit I had put aside had gone missing. It also doesn't help that I am such a shopping personality.

Working Out: Thankfully I can fit going to the gym 3 times a week with ease due to gaps in my schedule on a couple days, and getting to school earlier or staying later if I feel like it. the hardest thing for me is the fact that I am regularly going on less than 6 hours of sleep, so I often find it difficult to push myself into the gym ;) Best motivation though- the sauna. Anyone who sleeps in the coffee shop- you are missing out. 30 min nap in the sauna feels more like a long night's sleep!

Love Life: Non-existent. I do have a realization that I need to get out there though if I hope to seduce a rich man which seems to be my only hope in life nowadays.

Social Life: Ever diminishing. I see friends in classes and chat on msn during boring classes. I actually went out for coffee once this weekend- I've only done that twice since Christmas.

Family Life: I hardly see them, I'd like to see them less. I'm a very independent personality, and the more independent I get, the more parenty they become and I swear... my mom is becoming an annoying old woman like the ones on tv. Picture Bunnie in Sex and the City- take away all the family heritage, add some small town naivety. It's driving me mad. I hate emotion, talking things out etc- and that is like... what she stands for. Its like watching the news... Her: "Oh, isn't that such an awful thing what happened to that man?" Me: "Huh? Oh, ok. Shhh I want to watch this" I dont **** care, I can't hear the news when your talking.

 

Original Post by kaptain9:

Love Life: Sucks. Absolutely sucks. I've never had a boyfriend, never gone on a date, never even been asked out. I know a bunch of guys that I would be happy to date, but I've never met a guy who would be happy to date me. I've never been pretty, and being overweight doesn't help, so I could never attract any guy.

 Hey, I'm 18 and also in my freshman year here and I've only gone on one date- I never returned his calls after he tried to get a little too far on the second date. That was over the summer. I've been asked out a good few times, but never buy guys that I'm interested in. I've decided (after giving up on what I thought was a potential) that I will just get out there and give my number if a guy catches my eye rather than waiting for him. I think all girls should step out and try this!

Really though, you will find a guy out there, probably a good many to have fun with before settling on the best of 'em. From what I know, from guy friends especially- guys like curves. The high testosterone looking guys especially. I am personally on the smaller side and I am often told that I am too skinny by the manly man friends, yet my less manly friends often tell me I have a great body. You'll find a guy out there though who will think you are so sexy, and remember- the more you see your own beauty, the more guys will. Guys know when a girl is comfortable with herself and feels sexy and they like that better than an insecure perfect figure. (Cosmo.com advice once again backed up by guy friends)

School: ugggh 3rd year of my undergrad degree. overloading this semester. My class list includes: Data and file structures, Systems Programming, Programming languages, Numerical Analysis, Digital Signal processing and another math course. An assignment a week in each, and midterms start tomorrow.Term projects will be assigned in the next few weeks. But, I've so far kept pretty well on top of things (except numerical) and so stress has been much less than in previous years.

Gym: I go for a 2-2.5 hour session 3 times a week. I bring a textbook and multi-task on some of the machines.

Social: whats that? I go out occasionally. I went curling this weekend which was fantastic, but now I am so far behind in my studies. I don't go out much...

Work: I TA 2 intro computer science courses, and mark one of them. It takes about 9 hours of my week that I simply don't have. but its like 70$ a week that I desperately need. So I do it, and hate every minute of it. *sigh*

School: I'm in my 3rd year of college. It is very challenging at times. Other times its easy and enjoyable. I can't wait to finish so I can start making more money and live on my own.

Gym: I work out at least 1 hour everyday. I walk over a mile, which really vents a lot of stress. By listening to music it really relaxes me and when I get home I get a shower, eat, and then chill or hang out.

Social Life: I wish. It is really non-existent. I have no friends where I live. Most of them are away in school as well. So that leaves me with my family and bf all the time.

Love Life: I wish it could be better. Right now it is very stressful and I'm trying to shcedule a trip for the both of us to chill alone. I'm so in love tho it aint funny. I want to spend the rest of my life with my bf. Its been 3 years and we are trying to conceive currently and asap.

Family: My mother is very protextive of me and asks me alot of question which irratates me and my bf. He is 5 years older than I so he is ready to move out with me. But if I move out that means that I have to start paying bills and get a better job and possibly quit college or go night school, and right now I'm not up for doing that.

School: Art school. For those of you that don't know what THAT entails, each class is three to six hours long. One class. For six hours. Each teacher thinks that they are the only class you have, thus you spend at least 300 bucks on supplies for each class- if not more. I'm also expected to spend AT LEAST 20 hours on each class, outside of class.

Gym: I don't go to a gym but I do yoga and love it. I'm also trying to start running again but, what with the time restraints, it's a bit difficult.

Social Life: What's that?

Family: They're up in Northern NJ and also always busy. I really miss my mom.

Work: I work two jobs, on on Wednesday/Thursday and the other Friday to Sunday. I'm exhausted. 

School: I go twice a week. I'm in college in my third year and need to pass this science i am taking(chem) and take another one during the summer for my requirements. I also need to get all As and Bs this semester or im in trouble! Mondays I stay late for chemistry lab and Wednesdays i get to leave early. It's hard to maintain my diet in school cause around there all there is, is fast food, unhealthy crap and if they do have something healthy it's sooo expensive! So today i took my own little healthy snacks in ziplock bags and ate them thru out the day but since they weren't actual meals now at night is when i get hungry which is retarded cause im trying to lose weight!

Gym: I try to workout everyday. So far I have been for the last 5 days except today cause i got my monthy visitor so i have major cramps! Also i got home real late from school so can't work out. When i do i run on the threadmill, jog for 50 cal, walk fast for the other 50 and end up burning 500 cal which is 1 hr. I also do atleast 300 situps a day, but am trying to push it to 1,000 a day, just by breaking it up to doing 100 several times during the day. This was what Britney spears did when she was fit. I also do leg squats and some work outs for my 'love handles'. I also lift like 5 lb weights to try to gain some muscle in order to lose weight.

Social Life: All my friends are away at college. It's just really me and my boyfriend here, which is my best friend also. When my friends are here visiting we hang out or i go visit them at school and party the nights away!:)

Love Life: Me and my bf have been together for 2 yrs. He is my best friend and sooo understanding! I love him very much cause he does everything to try to make me happy. If i am mad or sad he makes me feel better always or makes me laugh. We went to the same HS but didn't like each other then, well he says he had a crush on me but i don't know about that, i remember him being very immature. Anyway we ended up going to the same college and i knew he liked me cause he told me but i had just gotten out of a relationship with my ex so i wasn't too interested. After the 1st semester he won me, he just didn't give up and we've been together since.

Family Time: Me and my mom fight a lot. It is mostly her picking fights cause she's just so uptight and gets mad a lot. I am more laid back like my dad so i think she hates that. I don't worry about things too much, she does. She sweats the small stuff. I love my older brother and am very proud of him. He went from being a rebellious drugged up teenager to being a police officer, committed to his live in gf and their 4 month old daughter, which i loooove! She is sooo cute! They also went to the same HS as i did and is basically like me and my bf's story. They weren't interested in each other in HS but now a couple yrs later they met up randomly and are. I think they should get married but i dunno. He bought her a promise ring, but i think it's really like an engagement ring, i think they are just waiting a bit ;) She is a teacher btw and i like her a lot! Much more than i did his last gf, she was a total biatc*. lol Ok im going to stop rambling on now. I tend to do that sometimes. This was fun :)

work: 42.5 hour week- so full time employement as the European Marketing Services Coordinator for a global wheelchair manufacturer. It's an extremely stressful position- but at the same time it's allows me to use my creativity and artistic talents.

school: University Grad Student courses- usually two seminars per semester - which works out at 4 hours class and 6 hours homework... as well as papers...

theatre: not much acting lately, but writing a new play and doing a lot of  preparations for future projects (directing and producing) I guess I work on that an hour a day or so...

physio therapy: twice a week for half an hour... which means I have to rush from work... but their is a good grocery store right next to the center and I usually combine therapy with my weekly shopping  and go to the store on my way home

sport: 5.30am morning power walk (about 45-60min)... then home, shower, breakfast and work. 4 times a week- 30min Pilates workout infront of the TV... and twice a week I go for a swim (about 30min-45min)

family: I swing by for a quick tea on my way to work in the mornings (parents live around the corner from me) - and my sister comes by my flat to do homework a lot (she's in her final year at college before starting med school)

lovelife: been very quiet lately- but new boyfriend in sight... am quite smitten with this guy actually... don't want to jinx it though... and if it does happen I'll have to find time to fit that in aswell

friends: so many people I don't spend enough time with. And since I've been spending quite a lot of time with "hopefully new boyfriend"... they've been neglected even more... But I write a lot of emails and "Facebook" is a great way to stay connected. Totally love the "wall" function. A few very close friends I see regularly and go for coffee or movies or dinner once a week with...

miscelaneous: cleaning, washing, ironing, cooking, bill paying, reading (in train on way to work), shoe shining (I have to walk over a clay path to get to work everyday... I'm forever cleaning my shoes) and all the other stuff that piles up around us...

Geeze now that I look at this- I kind of wonder how I manage it all- no wonder I'm knackered all the time!!! I need a holiday

 

 

School- I am a sophomore at a University. I go to school every day and I take online math which sucks because I suck at math. I pay my own tuition, I didn't take out any student loans. I'm a PR major Business/Spanish minor.

Work-I currently work at Johnny Carino's. I just stopped working as a cocktail waitress because it was too stressful(but the money was better). I live in a run-down apartment with no kitchen and one bathroom, and a broken window. And yesterday my crappy snowtires sent me into the fence behind my apartment. Tuition is due, rent is due, and business is slow.

Workout- I workout after I get out of work at Carino's. I take my stuff with me and usually work out until 10:30 -when the gym closes. Even though I still have to do my homework and get up around 8 am.

Lovelife- here is where my life gets hard. Very hard. I fell in love with my best friends ex. Problem was she wasn't over him. Me and him waited a couple months and decided to try things. Needless to say I'm best friendless living with a girl found out of a newspaper. I live an hour away from my boyfriend and we're in a constant battle over whether or not I should stay here (for school) or move there (for him). I want to stay but I want to go, I'm torn. It's too hard for me to go back and forth all the time with everything I have going on. I also want to go to Spain to study abroad. I've been working my butt off and now he says I can't go. It's him or Spain. But I want to marry him. Our one year is coming up and I know we're going to stay together for a LONG time. He just bought me a ring, and he wants to live together. Part of me thinks I deserve better. Part of me thinks we're too young (20&21) but part of me is all go. Who knows where I'll be next year.

Wow, see, isn't it nice to get that off your chest?

 I think we all need a holiday

School: I'm in my last semester of grad school. Sucks up most of my time.

Gym: I work out for about an hour a day 6 days a week. Since I have very little time, I need to get up at 5 am so I can eat and be at the gym by 7 am (opening time)

Work: I work part time at school. Takes up a little less than 20 hours a week that I really don't have to spare.

Social Life: I don't have one. I couldn't afford one even if I had time.

Love Life: Never really had one.

Family Time: No family in the area.

Oh MAN I remember a few months ago when I had school, work, a kid, house cleaning, my workout, my fiance, my family (who never stops calling me, even if I'm right upstairs from them now!), and my social life 'cause we were the designated drivers for our little clique of club-goers.

I paid my dues.  I'm sittin' back, livin' life on easy street now.  Job hunting and wedding planning are much more welcome tasks than any of that other nonsense.

School: I go to Allegheny College, a small liberal arts school in PA.  If you look on CampusDirt.com, we are the #1 school for hardest classes and heaviest workload (or at least we were, last time I checked).  I'm a senior, and we also have extensive senior projects.  Since I'm a double-major, I have to do two!  I finished my History one last semester (52 pages total), and I'm currently working on one for Creative Writing (required length, 45-60 pages).  Add all the work for my other classes on top of that, PLUS I'm a tutor for adult learners at the READ program. 

Work: I work 10 hours a week at my security office work-study job, and I'm looking for a second one, too, since I'm broke.

Gym: I'm trying to go 5-6 times a week, and I normally spend about an hour and a half to two hours there.  I schedule everything else around my gym time so I never miss it.

Social Life: Hanging out with my housemates always seems to interrupt my homework time, and then when I sit down to do something and I'm seriously motivated, someone calls me to watch a movie, go to dinner, or go to the bar!  

Love Life: Non-existent right now, thank God.  This summer, I got out of what I now know was an abusive relationship.  Then, I was with a guy who I really, really liked, and he turned out to be a huge jerk who basically stamped on my heart.  Then, there was a creeper stalker-guy who wouldn't leave me alone, but I think I finally shook him off.  Or so I hope.  Now, I'm holding off on boys until after graduation in May, unless of course someone unexpectedly comes by.

Family Time: Every other few weekends when I go home to visit.  I haven't been enjoying it, though, because my sister does nothing but fight with me when I go home.  She thinks I'm arrogant because I only eat healthy food and I worry a lot about my grades.  Oh well.

School: I take 2 online classes that way I can keep my free gym membership and get my Business Degree.  There not so bad because the time limits.  You can work ahead or not depending on how much time you have.  Gym: I go to the Gym at my school about three times a week, it's free so I figure I might as well use up what I'm paying for.  I try to exercise twice a day so the rest of the time I'm doing it at home.  I've been successful in finding a way to fit it in everyday but somedays it's just so stressful. Work: Is my Life.  I have three jobs currently.  I do taxes for H&R block part time so that keeps me busy Jan-April 15th.  Then I have my regular job which is at Make A Wish Foundation which I love! It is the most amazing thing to do, you really effect the lives of everyone and it keeps you busy.  If theres a donation week you work anywhere from 4am-12p or 5p-11p, sometimes both shifts are worked by one person. Then I have my third job which isn't so hard but it's keeping everything in order.  I am an Avon representantive. Social Life: What social life? I have my best friend that lives in the down town area which is not so close to me and we get together about once a week.  We're always on the phone with each other, it's like we don't run out of things to say to each other.  I'm not much into going out and clubbing or joining any groups.  So my close friends are the thing I have as far as a social life. Love Life: My fiance is a wonderful person.  I see him all the time since we live together haha.  He is very supportive of my diet.  He's honestly happy with me either way, he's the type of person that cares about what's in the inside.  We started dating when I was much bigger.  The craziest thing is we met at a crowded restaurant.  We were both waiting to get our parties names called and I don't know what I was looking at but I looked up and he was starting at me and smiling.  When I saw him for the first time I was like are you kidding me I couldn't get with him.  He came up and asked for my number... it was crazy.Family Time: I have a large family.  We are all pretty close and can relate to each other.  The only thing they can't see is that I really need to lose weight, they can't understand why blah blah blah.  I don't understand how they couldn't see this.   My family gets together about every two weeks on Sunday to have a family dinner.

School: Well, I'm a homeschooled 7th grader, so it's kinda hard to say. I will say this though; this thread was supposed to be about our busy lives, but mine is just the oppisote. I get up early and end up finishing my schoolwork by about 9:00 or 10:00am. I start around 7:00 or so. After that, my day is pretty much just blah. I spend most of my time writing, drawing, or tampering with my mom's video camera; filming, as usual. Latley, it's been too cold to go outside, so I'm pretty much confined to my house, unless we happen to be going out somewhere that day. You see, my brother is also homeschooled, but he doesn't wake up until about 8:30am every morning, and his schooling takes FOREVER. He's a little...um...slow, for a 4th grader, and my mom has to teach him and go over everything with him; they usually don't finish until about 3:30pm, bless his heart. *sigh* Welcome to my strange, bizzare, and somewhat absurd life... I'm just getting started.

Work: I was always one of those "do it myself" kind of kids. Sadly, that never wore off. I have pretty much convinced myself that I could work if the law would let me. Ah well, only two more years I suppose. It must sound pretty wierd; me wanting to work, but honestly, it's always sounded fun to me, especially since I really have nothing better to do. I'd really like to open my own bakery (I forgot to mention how much I LOVE to bake), or work as a barista (at Starbucks, of course).

Gym: I've been trying to convince my dad to let us join our local fitness place, or the YMCA, but I've yet to be successful. As of now, I'm lucky if I get a half-hour walk in - it's too cold outside, and there's not much room to "exersize" in my house. In the summer though, my grandma has a pool, so I'll probobly be swimming daily.

Social Life: Not much of one, actually. I have maybe a couple friends I can talk to when I really need them, but we're not super-close or anything. Quite sad, really, when I think about it. I'm hoping to go to public school next year though, hopefully to make some new friends... meet some new people. That'd be nice for a change. 

Love Life: I don't have one, and I think I'm happy about that. I had a boyfriend last year in public school that I loved, but apparently, people don't always feel the same way about you that you feel about them. I've surely learned my lesson about that. I still talk to the guy though, and we're actually (thank goodness), still good friends. If I do go back to public school next year I'll look forward to seeing him again; but this time I'll know we're "just friends" now.

Family Time: I'm nearly a stranger to my family. Well, my true interests and personality are anyway. I see them a lot, obviously, being homeschooled and all; but there's a big difference between seeing some one a lot, and actually knowing them. I wish I could be more out-spoken with them, I just feel like anything I say will end up getting me in trouble. My mom knows about some things now (I have learned that I can't keep ANYTHING from her) but even still, she doesn't understand. Half of the time, she thinks I'm a freak. It's very frustrating; I wish she could just accept that I like what I like, without questioning me on every little note.

It doesn't exactly help that I don't have anyone to talk to about it either. Maybe I'm just a failure, but oh well; I've got nothing to lose.