poetry

just thought i share something ive been doing through recovery and that is ive found it helpful to write. may seem a bit silly but i find it really helps me , just thought it might help others

Anorexia you have to go, cant you see you bring me nothing but woe, 14 years ive had enough, my lifes such a battle its just so tough,its gonna be hard to say goodbye, but i know its gonna be well worth while, i want a life, iwant to live, and ive come to the conclusion youve nothing to give, im doing it now im doing it for me, and eventually im gonna be free, there will be more to my life, it wont just be food, it will be whatever takes my mood, id like to travel, travel the world, what everyones got im beginning to yearn, i will get a career,learn something new, so please sit back and take a pew,i dont value your opinion i think you are way out of line, so now its finally come to the time, to find who i am, just be me, and it just wont matter cause ill finally be free,

hxxx

keep writing, helen:-) keep writing here, keep writing in a journal, keep writing:-) you're good, it sounds good, but moreover it must be so freeing.

I wrote a LOT of poetry when life was really, really rough. It's a great outlet.

What you said about traveling... I know you're in the UK but look at a program like this:

www.gowithcea.com (I think that's the website)

For studying abroad.....

and then if you study abroad sometimes you learn where people are hiring for ENGLISH teachers. You don't have to be qualified except to know English. You could go to Germany, Spain, France, Mexico, Japan, Singapore, China, Thailand.... I have a friend who "decided" to go teach English in Thailand and that's just what she did! Then she "decided" to go learn scuba in Hawaii and has lived there ever since.

You can do all of it!

I studied in Barcelona and was planning on teaching English in Costa Rica.... but I got pregnant:-) I'm glad that happened, and I honeymooned in Costa Rica anyway, y tambien me recuerdo el espanol (aunque no se como se usa los acentos aqui!).

You can do anything!!! why not... sign up for something like that, go to IP, have even more reason to get better?

thanks so much bethany i will check that out . your right i need to set myself goals h x

a lot of times I wonder if you wish I'd shut up with my responses, lol:-) I write to you about what I'd do in your situation. It's odd, when you don't have kids and haven't had kids, you don't realize how free you are. I love my kids but my options are limited because I'm their care provider most of the time - ok, who am I kiddings? Moms do the real work, so ALL of the time!! - so I can think of all the things that you can do because I can't do all of them!

I have upped my calories and am not even hospitalizable with my bmi in my area, so inpatient has been a nonissue for me since I started upping my calories. But girl, you are on the brink. get better this time:-)

Oh Helen that poem was just beautiful, Im going to print it off. It has so many things in it that you really should be using as your motivation to get better. Traveling, career, learning new things, these are all achievable if you could just get better! You have so much potential in you, Id hate to see it all go to waste because of this f*ing illness, it is robbing you of a life that you deserve to live.

So tomorrow when you are with your consultant just take all those things into consideration, just remember to do whats best for you and not what your ed is telling you.

dont be daft , i love getting your responses your so full of life , youve such alot going for you. i actually envy you, id so love children , they are very lucky to have a mum like you, i just wish my post and responses werent so daft . it must seem like i dont listen i do but this illness often side tracks me . im nervous about the future but people like you are making me realise i need to pull my socks up  fast , nobodys going to give me a life on a plate h xxx

laura i just want to hug you but i cant thanks for listening and helping me realise what i need to do h x

God, I love this little community. Without you guys I would feel so completely alone, and I KNOW I wouldn't have the courage to eat as much as I do.

I wish I could meet you guys for real somehow.

And Helen- (well this goes for all of us, INCLUDING ME) you know what you need to do. You give out such amazing advice, so I know that you know what you need to do. The hard part is doing it.

Beat this thing once and for all love!<3

I was wondering if you might find this site interesting? Your poetry is very moving. http://allpoetry.com/