Post weekend hesitation...

Hi all, hope everyone had a good weekend!

I am writing this post as I have this cycle I keep going through which hits me hard on a Monday morning and as it is Monday morning I am going through the same thinking pattern I do every week...

Each Monday I seem to get a bit anxious, start to think about restricting, starting to think I need to exercise etc... I think it used to be related to the fact that my weekends tended to be where I ate more food and had 'bad' foods when i was around family or friends whereas during the week I had control over my food so was able to restrict etc.

I find it strange I still get these thoughts as I am now much more flexible and getting more comfortable with eating normally during the week so there now isn't a great deal of difference between what I eat on the weekend and during the week and I have cut down my exercise drastically so that shouldn't be a factor either.

But anyway... here I am at Monday morning and I am having these thoughts.... I went grocery shopping yesterday and got LSA mix and trail mix and added both these to my porridge this morning with honey and then when I worked out how many calories this would be I freaked!!! Now I want to restrict today and I am supposed to be meeting my boyfriend for lunch and I don't want to as I want to eat a tiny lunch....

Sorry - but help???

That's the thing with entrenched bad habits.  They will always be there waiting to provide a comfortable fall-back when we're not paying full attention.  You have the advantage, however.  You recognise what's happening and you have a fairly good rationale as to why.  You describe it as 'strange'.. and that's a good way to treat it.  An anomaly.  A peculiarity.  A situation  ;not worth taking seriously.

Ask yourself what you would reply if someone else had posted this thread.  And then keep that rational answer top of mind.  What we want to do and what we have to do are not necessarily the same thing.

Meet your boyfriend for lunch ... Have fun.

Thanks gi-jane - I did calm down by lunchtime and would have gone out with my boyfriend but something came up at his work and we couldn't meet anyway! Despite that, I didn't restrict and went and got a mixed sushi pack and a juice for lunch.

I think I was just having a minor 'ed moment' and I took a few minutes to think about it, wrote on this forum and in my journal and that allowed me to see my thoughts for what they were - irrational..

I appreciate your logical words though - they have reinforced my own thoughts to keep me on track!

Hi. First good job for not giving in to the ed. I think the only way to get past this cycle is to stop it and not give in to the ed thoughts. So when you get the urge to restrict make a plan to not and the longer you don't give in the easier it will get. It sounds like it helps you to eat around people which is not always possible so for me to learn to be accountable and take care of myself just like if others were there. I know everyone has times where it is harder then others as do I so I try to preplan and stick to it. Keep up the hard work

Good job not restricting!! :)
I read this and I was like, wow, I feel the exact same thing! I too would never eat by myself, during the week, but on weekends at sleepovers with my friends and family parties, I'd eat a lot, than feel bad about it and eat next to nothing again. The cycle went on and on! And I too now eat the same everyday, somedays I have more, and the next day sometimes I do restrict  a little.. :(
I just never realized untill I read this, so thanks I guess!

But just know your not alone, I'm here with you!