I Will Probably Be Here Soon.

I've had an on and off relationship with anorexia for the past 3 years. My last relapse was in early October and I recovered quickly late November. However during that time frame I lost weight quite rapidly and got down to a B.M.I. of 17.4 in a matter of weeks. Well, with stress from college piling on my shoulders, I'm relapsing again, and its too late to stop. I'm sure you all understand that. I've lost about 4 lbs this week. I know, due to past experiences that once my parents notice the weight loss(I'm really not around my house enough for them to notice now because its summer) I'm going to be made to gain, again. The problem last time was that I felt bloated and disgusting all throughout recovery because I gained the weight by shovelling carbs and junkfood and hot chocolate in my body all day everyday just to shut my parents up. I ended up gaining 10 or so lbs within 3 months. So I was wondering, do any of you have any tips on how not to feel gross? I know nuts and dried fruit are good because they pack a lot of calories but don't take up a lot of space, but other than that I'm pretty clueless. I just want to be prepared.

well you have to change your mentality and come to accept recovery as necessary and important for YOU not for your parents, or else you'll keep relapsing.

eat regular bread, peanut butter, trail mix, granola, seeds, full fat dairy, cheese, ww crackers, olive oil on pasta and veggies, granola bars, and even a bit of dark chocolate and ice cream as treats

hope this helps!! i hope you can accept recovery and embrace it because you deserve to be well.

well, firstly i want you to enjoy recovery. Im going through it and even i hate it sometimes im glad to be eating again without any guilt. I agree with chrissy above. I would get bloated when i just ate a large quantity of mood at one time. And when i would do this, i would eat it so fast so i got super bloated. I looked preggers. You said you were shovelling food down ur throat and that gives me the mental pic of binging. So maybe you should just not eat food so fast and space it out over the day. This is the hardest for me bcuz i like binging all my daily caloric intake at once. I know school sux hard and its so stressful but at least something. I dont know, im still in school and im still waiting for the part when everything turns out well. I guess thats after we graduate and have a successful job. But in the meantime, i hope you get healthy again and stay that way. we can never be too busy to eat, that used to be my excuse

i would suggest bananas, nut butters, sprouted grain breads, protein powders (you can mix into anything), i love silken creations tofu you can make awesome parfeits that are light yet pack a mean calorie punch. Fruits too are higher in calories and have alot of nutrients that you need, but are lighter on the stomach so you can eat more.

Have you ever heard of chia seeds? i love them they have so many vitamins, and pack in alot of calories, but its very easy on the stomach to digest.

Chrissy like usual gave great advice. I think for me in recovery I do feel uncomfortable but it is because it is a change and I am not used to it. In the long run though I hope being recovered at a healthy weight will make me feel proud and good. I try to focus on goals I have and what the ed has taken away. There is never an easy time to recover so I encourage you to do it now. I hope you can see within that you need to be healthy and fight through the fear. You can do this

think you guys have said it all, but 10 ibs in 3 months isnt to much, thats less than 1 ib a week most impatient units expect 2 ibs a week