well... i love life when im able to let all my "little worries" go and live it! i love love love the outdoors.... i dont know what it is but its amazing let me tell ya! Camping in the open air is the best. the rain, the snow, the sun... i love it all. but i have to admit i feel at home all bundled up in a blanket around a campfire. I love to experience everything i can and i try everything at least once. I love meeting down to earth people that have passion in their life, thats the most attractive quality in a person. Random people are the most fun to be around, teaching things about yourself that you would have never known. i love getting my hands dirty and working hard to accomplish a goal. im often reminded of just how big this world really is...explore it...live it. Love your life because its Gods gift to you... share it with someone.

Okay, so here i am. just getting started. i am 20 years old 150 lbs 5'6". when i was younger i was  a healthy 128 lbs.  I went through some hard times and ended up wighing 100lbs. i dropped the weight very quickly. i stopped eating completly. my body has been through alot. Anorexia, bulemia, and depression. Ever since that dramatic weight loss, my metablolism has never been the same. i feel as though if i eat a drop of fat it just clings to me. i never eat out, i am a very healthy person.  I think though that being onlione like this will help me. See on paper what i put into my body. i exercise alot. i have played competitive sports alll my life and continue to work out at least 2 hours a day. I made a pact with myself to walk to school and everywhere else i go even though the hig where i live is only 25-30 degrees and there is snow on the ground. I have a very addictive personality and i go crazy about food. i know the amount of calories in everything i eat and my brain cant seem to stop. it controls my life. i want that to go away and the only way i think it will is if i have the friends behind me and the support. im not trying to get to 128lbs again. now i would love to be a healthy 135lbs. my body tends to pack on the muscle so i think that is a good goal. thank you for everyones support.