Posts by aureliawaters

There are loads of threads on this if you search in the forums.

Dust yourself off, say "I'm alright, I'm still alive, I forgive myself" and continue eating as if nothing happened.

If you need to gain anyway, why restrict and prolong this anxious isolated existance?

I also reccommend getting support from a specialist or gp.

You kick ass maya!

I'm going to eat lunch in the food court, not hiding in the store room at work.

Call a friend, I do not wish to remain a hermit!

Eat my meals without pattern, eg all the peas, then corn, then starch etc.

Unfortunatly I am of the oppinion that one never "fully recovers" from an eating disorder. Not to upset anyone! But I feellike you will have it for life, you may be able to control it better and function more,but it won't ever be completely gone.

So to me looking for a recovery blog seems a bit self-defeating really, they will have their daily struggles aswill you. We just do our best day to day, we all have our own individual journeys. We can't predict or mould ourselves based onothers. I say focuson yourself and what you really enjoy,rather than dwelling on and continually reinforcing the ED/recovered ED identity. 

lists! i am sooo organized! i go through my house every few months and if i havn't used it or worn it in x-amount of time or if its too old or i have more than one it goes! usually to some charity organisation. i slso have storage boxes and containers, labled. if i do sometthing, i clean up straight after and put everything back. i guess they are just habit now.

but list making is paramount for me, i love ticking thhings i have accomplished off...mmmmm feels good

OMG I do this too! It is  sooo embarassing, My nose is constantly red and peeling from squeezing and picking at pores! Aughh, but I can not seem to stop myself.

I also go a bit tweezer crazy,m I can spend hours plucking my legs and bikini area, everywhere. Literally hours!

I wonder whats up with this?

great thread!

i threw out most of my clothes and  bought alot of second hand clothes in what will be my healthy new body size. That way I'm not growing OUT of anything infact I'm growing INTO myself. If that makes sense, Say "poo" to silly little pants and throwthem away! Bahhumbug! It's not like you'd ever want to wear them again. No I have togain so I don't look rediculous!

I also have some art on my walls by gustav klimt my fav painter, he does beautiful nudes with soft curves, reminding me how beautiful the feminine form is, sensual and nurutring.

in neat little pill form :)

loved this post, great insight driven.

awsome thread!

Thak you for that insight Meryl and for taking the time to not only write so much, but to share so much of your journey.You have all given me alot to think about.

I get frustrated when everyone says I can choose to get well. It feels like I can't. I keep failing. Am I acctually choosing to stay sick?

PPersonally I think it differs for everyone. I have always been very muscular and slim (mesomorph) and when I gain the weight I look pretty much the same only alot brighter and healthier. I have some depth and substance to me. Strength. Not floppy flabby fat- but life! Nourishment!

Don't be scared, you won't know what will happen to your body until you try.