Posts by biorobotics

you're playing around with your life. i'm also around that weight (dropped down over the past few months after getting a bit better for awhile), and i didn't start to feel better until i allowed myself to 'over indulge' regularly and rest. you say you have a lot of energy, but are you really listening to your body? i'm so weak and tired all the time; any 'bursts of energy' i get come from the fear of not being active, and i force myself to do things, and i know this is just putting strain on my poor body. please take care!

these are pretty much the exact thoughts going through my head all the time.
i used to max out at around 1000 calories a day, and that put me in hospital with a feeding tube, multiple times. lately i've been able to get up to 1500 without too much distress, but sometimes it's still hard to justify eating more.
remember that 2000 calories is an average daily intake, so of course you're going to want at least 800 before dinner!
i find it helpful to eat things that i don't know the calories of; it stresses me out a bit, but it stops the constant counting. 

i like everything about this post. 
:) 

not to say that it isn't a struggling, but speaking from experience, you can make that struggle easier or harder, depending on which mindset you choose to take.

i'm not going to post my eats, even though it looks like a lot. i've added up the calories over and over and even allowing for unknowns and over-estimations, i'm still not reaching the minimum requirement for this thread, i apologize.

i did want to say a few things, though...

katja_patches: it doesn't look like lack of variety is a problem; what a fantastic menu! i'm jealous. although i have to ask, under what circumstances did you have a single teaspoon of ice cream? taste test? hardly a snack. :\

i had sunflower seed butter this morning! probably not a full serving, but i'm working on the added fats. :)
and i'm going to make homemade pizza for lunch! 

college29: every body is different, of course. my dietitian recommended 1800 for me to start out on, and this week i gained quite a bit, but we know from experience that i will probably need upwards to 3000 to gain any 'real' or sustainable weight. are you satisfied with the 1800? if so, fine, but if you're still hungry, even if you are gaining on 1800, you're going to want to eat more, and your metabolism will probably speed up.

i don't really understand 'calories = data over night', but your body doesn't divide time into days. if you eat 5000~10000 calories over the course of, say, 16 hours (allowing 8 hours for sleep), some of that will be stored as extra, since your body may have only used 3000 calories during those 16 hours, but it doesn't automatically pile on as fat. calories do not 'turn into fat'. a calorie is a unit of energy, and your body uses that energy for every single process it does, both conscious (activity, movement, exercise) and unconscious (keeping your organs and metabolic processes working properly). what isn't used for that, does get stored, but not automatically as fat.

i hope i'm not just talking out of my butt here... can anyone confirm? 

i would say, experiment! if it took you 4000~5000 to gain, you could easily need ~3000 just to maintain. listen to your hunger and try not to count, maybe?
congradulations! 

-brownies!
-1/4 cup gluten-free flour
-1/2 cup black eyed peas
-1 tsp apple sauce
-1 tbsp cocoa powder
-baking powder/baking soda/salt
-1 tsp vanilla extract
-1/4 cup blueberries

-ice 'cream'!
-1 cup almond milk
-1/2 frozen banana
-1 square raw chocolate
-1 tbsp vanilla extract

-huge portion of take out caribbean food (chickpea potato curry with rice/beans)
-1/4 cup peas

-watermelon (approx. 1 cup)

-pizza!
-1/2 cup gluten-free flour crust
-1/4 cup salsa
-cauliflower 'ricotta'
-1/4 cup soya chunks
-1 slice tempeh bacon
-1 mini dill pickle

-an apple
-1/2 cup butterscotch pudding

the thoughts are my problem right now, too.
i listen to a lot of podcasts, watch movies, tv shows, anything so there's another noise outside of my head to drown out the voice in my head. 
getting everything out in writing helps, even if it's just a stream of random words. once you have a sheet of paper covered in scribbles, tear it up, burn it, toss it away!

take care. 

Original Post by katja_patches:

Does this seem okay? (: Any advice is great, I'm really trying to give recovery my all now, so I'm going to challenging myself more and more and looking here for some more motivation and inspiration. ^-^ <3

oh, wow! everything sounds absolutely amazing! where are you that you can get pistachio and saffron flavoured soy milk?

getting serious, finally; how does this look? suggestions?

-1/2 bunch soba noodles
-large container of chinese take out deep fried tofu and vegetables
-1 tsp sunflower seed butter
-rice paper salad roll from farmer's market (noodles, lettuce, tofu, carrot)

-homemade biscotti:
-1/4 cup gluten free flour
-1 square of chocolate covered marzipan
-1/4 cup raspberries
-1 sour patch kid candy

-large bowl of homemade chili (kidney beans, onion, garlic, tomatoes, mushrooms, green pepper)
-huge date square with almonds from random vegan/gluten-free bakery
-a lot of watermelon

-homemade cherry brownie (~1/7th of the recipe, gluten-free, vegan)
-1/4 cup pudding
-1/4th banana, sliced
-huge chocolate chip cookie from random vegan/gluten-free bakery

it seemed like a lot of food during the day, but looking back, it wasn't that much, i don't think, although those baked goods killed me.