Posts by carrrieberrrie

bump :/

haha yes i know..if she responds at all i will be so greatful! but she has already given so much knowledgeable and great info that i am trying to read over and over so i can try and feel better. so far no luck but im not giving up. it was just so out of the blue. i have been eating SO good! and then this happens! it's just such a downer. ya know? i'm not gonna restrict today but idk i just feel defeated. 

well. i had probably 4,000+ calories today. i am devastated. i don't even know what to do. 

yeah that is what i was trying today..and instead i am a million times more hungry than i usually am! did you find that once you and your body started getting used to your routine you slowly became less hungry at night?

EDIT: scratch that, Beth! for a moment i forgot that you are still in the gaining part of recovery! which means i hope you are still hungry at night and eating PLENTY! :P

yeah the thing is my appetite is not something i can rely on yet. on most days i could easily not even eat until 4 or 5 pm. without feeling hunger, but then once i eat i get really hungry out of the blue. i have gained above my optimum weight..well at least i think i have...i am the biggest i have ever been..and i used to be a very healthy person..so i think i'm there. i guess since im larger than i have ever been i am sort of freaking out that i am still so hungry on 2500 cals usually. ugh

Original Post by beth22_x:

i know your on maintance, and if your still so hungry you obviously need it, you should immediately drop your cals when moving onto maintance, your body still needs to finish repairing, and if your so hungry, it obviously is still needing to do this, have you reached a 21 bmi?

beth, did you mean that i should'NT immediately drop my cals..?

and my cals werent the same everyday while gaining..sometimes it was definitely 3000-3500 but some days i would reach more like 2700. i just always stayed above 2500. i am a short girl (5'3) so i am figuring i will not be able to maintain on too high of calories...hence the goal of around 2500 from now on.

im in the maintenance stage so i should be on about 2500 cals a day..and i am still so hungry! i could eat another 1000 right now easily..and its not even dinner time yet! i always eat more at night so i know i will want to eat again after dinner. :/

Great, great post, Beth! It can be so difficult to see those who have come so far stop at a BMI of 18.5 rather than whatever their healthy weight may be! i went from a BMI to 17.2-ish to a BMI of 22 currently. I think i am done gaining but if not then it is just something i'll have to accept! hey, its worth being healthy, happy and actually having a LIFE! My life has already changed so much for the better and i would not change it for anything now! 

thank you so much for your response! i appreciate it immensely! 

do you have any idea if the calories i eat have to reliably be 2500+ every single day or is it just an average of 2500 cals..like 2000 one day 3000 another?

Oh Beth! i just saw this..i have not been on in a few days. PLEASE remember that you truly are an inspiration for everyone on this thread. the fact that you are still trying and fighting shows exactly that..that is part of why you are such a great role model on here! just keep doing exactly what you are doing..FIGHTING! you can do this. i know you can. we are all behind you and i am always here to message if you need anything! you have come way too far to fall back into old awful ED ways. you know that you have more energy now and are happy and on your way to a HEALTHY life! that is so much more important than anything ED "tells" you is going to happen. ED lies and you know the truth! so keep telling yourself that this is the number one best decision you have ever made..to get healthy. it may be the hardest but its worth it! and we are all here for you. stay strong and keep your head up!