Posts by claudb89

I've always felt odd and awkward around babies. I think they are cute, but after 1 minute, I'm not interested. Now, I love hanging around kids that are 3 and up. They are interesting and funny.

I know this sounds strange, but when I'm playing or talking to a child, I feel like they know what's going on in my brain. Like they can sense if I'm happy or sad or if I'm nervous or comfortable. Those big eyes look into mine, and I always hope they see good in there. Kids are just emotionally in tune...that is until they become teens and their emotions go bonkers.

I love puppies and kitties. I've still cried over a kittie that was sick and died. Those things are just so adorable and sweet.

Original Post by scaredtopost:

Original Post by whichwayup: You may not fully see this and acknowledge this to yourself, but this is what permeates through your post.

that was the point of actually posting, to try and help sort out everything. thank you to every who has replied, it means a lot to not feel alone and crazy.

i hadnt seen it as him trying to change me rather than the other way around. i am interested in therapy, he's expressed he wouldn't go before, but i'd go by myself. i always wonder what i'd even have to say, what would i be there for, where to start, what my problem that actually got me there was. like a big ball of yarn but i just dont know where the end of the string is.

i'd accept him any way that he is, case in point i already do with him acting like this, whether he deserves it or not.

he knew what i looked like before and now, and all the reasons why. he has so much jealousy towards the people i've been with before him, that they got what he didnt. everyone else got so much better, but the husband gets the leftovers, nothing good about my body saved for him, nothing special. i do believe some of that is valid feelings, and some is a little excessive.

he knew before he married me, he made a commitment, he shouldn't bail on it for a shallow stupid reason like that. its hard to look at everything he's done and think he didnt know what he was doing, or to take such huge moves in life, and then just want to give up and walk away because he 'made a mistake'.

 it's one thing to put up with someone else's faults. it's another to let his faults drag you down, thereby making you down.

concerning what you wrote up there. i think you need some serious perspective and "me time." your relationship doesn't sound stable, healthy, supportive, or romantic.

i feel...grateful that there is one less monster in the world. i feel grateful that the good guys defeated a bad guy, even though that bad guy had a whole team behind him.

...is that it?

this isn't sarcasm, but how should i feel about his death? i can't take pleasure, happiness, or contentment in a monster's death.

should i feel sad? should i feel remorse? i mean, really, someone provide me with the adjective.

i do feel very very proud of those SEALs. that's incredibly brave.

that terrible and scary. i'd feel the same. actually, i've had a similar problem. i've also always been a worrier, and in general, i can became extremely anxious. i've gotten better at identifying when i'm going a bit crazy, but when i was a kid it was worse.

i was around 10 when it was the worst i could remember. i had extreme ear pain, dizziness, numbness on the right side of my body, headaches, eye pain. during this time, i was going through a really rough bit of physical abuse. i was kinda at the point where i was learning it wasn't normal, and i was learning how to cope.

i also thought i was going to die or that i was getting cancer. at times i thought i was going to die because of all the symptoms and at times i thought i was going to die because of father. i was crying a lot too. and i was just...a mess for a little 10 year old. i didn't really see a therapist, but i did get put on some anti-anxiety meds. i didn't even know that was what they were for, but it helped make me feel more serene, and i didn't think i was going to die. win for me!

anyways, just thought i'd share that you aren't alone. i hope things get better for you, in this case a bit of meds might get you some short term relief and a better chance at healing.

same here! it's incredibly annoying. i can eat healthy or unhealthy food, but i still feel this gnawing feeling. at times, i'm ravenous.

i either work out extra that week (add on extra walking and another 10 minutes of running) or just say, whateva. and i get myself some pizza and chocolate.

Original Post by emilysmi:

I grew up raising animals for food (rabbits and pigs) and have different views of animals. IE if its broken you shoot it you don't spend 3k at the vet to fix it (unless its a stud, that's different). This is still how I feel. I love my dog, but she is a dog. It seems we just may hold different views on that subject..

 I was raised on a farm too. I understand. Everyone is different, honestly, your husband came and picked up your dog. You finished your walk knowing your dog was in more than safe and capable hands.

As much as I wish I could say I'd take my dog to the vet, I didn't even go to the hospital when I had heat stroke at 12. Probably not the smartest, but hey, I made it out alive. If anything changes with your pet, take the dog to the vet. If not, I guess just go on with life.

No offense, but it sounds like you keep holding on to your preteen weight. Five years ago is a long time. If you were 13 when you started your restrictions, and are now 18, there is quiet a difference. Your body is supposed to morph and change, rearranging fat and muscle distribution all the time.

Even for me, I noticed subtle changes in my body every year. Heck, this past year at 20-21, I grew an inch! How surprising was that!

I know you aren't healthy at 101. You are counting calories, not just eating. My friend who is also rather slender at 5'4 and 118-122 doesn't count calories, but isn't much of a food eater. If you were naturally 100-101 pounds at 5'4, you'd be eating around 2,000 calories a day, not gaining steadily on your 1,400. It just shows it's not your metabolism that is screwed. It's your body fighting you.

If you want slowly increase, until you are getting the right amount for a young person. What do you do for exercise?

I find it laughable.

You are so young, and that post is difficult to read. You have a life ahead of you, and you are so concerned about food and weight and all the rather unimportant things. I understand, I was your age too, and very similar. It's just all so...wrong.

That meal plan is rather unsatisfactory. First off, breakfast. Eat what you want, but focus as with your entire food plan, on health! Eggs, oatmeal, yoghurt, frittatas, whatever, but please focus on health.

The lemon water is not needed unless you find it refreshing. If you want dressing on your salads, I recommend something like balasamic vinegar or a mix of oil and vinegar. Some lemon juice perhaps too. There should be nothing about either or. You are a teenager for crying out loud!

Don't eat:
-Sugar (products containing it: chocolate, peanut butter, cookies, etc), rice, pasta, potatoes, dairy, yam, sweet potato, grapes, banana, canned fruit.

That is equally ridiculous. Please please please eat something pleasant and nice. Peanut butter, as you've probably seen around here, is an excellent food. Canned fruit isn't as good as fresh, but if it's all you have, eat that. Rice, pasta, potatoes, and all the other things, ARE FINE. Add vegetables or some hard cheese, and it's all a lovely meal.

You ate apples because your body wants fast carbs. It's craving food because you are a teen, actually because you are a human. And the random thing is humans need food. A rather solid amount. 320, 1,200 isn't a solid amount.

Your mom doesn't understand. Your dad doesn't either. Our parents aren't perfect and our parents aren't always right. As you grow older, remember that. Be honest with yourself and remind yourself your opinions of yourself should not be dictated by what your parents lack or fail to do.

Go on jogs a couple of times a week. Ride bikes. Truly consider health, and calories secondary. You will regret it if you don't.

Added: Your doctor is lacking brain cells. It astounds me how utterly unsound his advice is. Argh.