I grew up in a home where "treats" of ice cream and cookies happened every day, you cleaned your plate if you wanted to leave the table, and quite often something came out of a box. I didn't learn portion control till about three years ago. Basically... food was love... in all the worst ways. I was an emotional eater. I snacked on whatever I wanted, and it usually had at least 5 ingredients I couldn't pronounce. I barely cooked for myself until about 4 years ago. But now, I realize that food is love. Preparing healthy food for yourself is caring and loving yourself... emphasis on the healthy. Because of that realization, I did drop a good deal of weight.

Right now I am sitting between 250 and 240, depending on the day of the week and the proximity of my period. About two years ago, I started out at 320. Lost almost 100lbs, then gained back 20 over the first year of my new completely sedentary office job. I am generally ashamed that I let myself pack on the pounds, but I realize I need to just get over the self loathing party and do what is right for my body.

My goal is 165-170 given. I also want to put on about 15lbs of lean muscle. So, I am trying a cyclical ketosis diet. Simply put, low carb 6 days a week, and carb it out on day 7. It works, so I can get enough protein to build muscle, with out busting over my calorie count. The only frustrating thing is that CC keeps telling me I am "Too Low" on carbs, and "too high" on protein. Since that's what I am going for... I guess that perfect day achievement is out of reach ;P

Would love to hear from anyone who is out there to offer support, pointers, or be a friend.

Cheers all

Dee_lightful