Posts by delilahsdeal

thanks to both of you for your kind responses!

dancerqueen- you are quite the expert! im impressed. it sounds like its been a rought road for you, but that youve come out on top. congratulations. all of the information you have presented makes sense. i do have a question. how does any of this relate to pre-ed weight? or does that not matter? i never had a bmi over 20, but i know im not unique in that and i was also 17. it takes a lot of faith to let go and really go for recovery, a lot of courage. this weird in between isn't fun, but i fear that i wont be able to deal with the discomfort of trying to be more flexible with my eating, or eating more, or gaining weight. i guess i just need to wrap my head around the idea and really commit!

100- large fruit cup

200- banana w/ 1 T pb

300- 1/2 cup cottage cheese with 1/3 cup granola and melon (favorite)

400- 2 slices bread spread w/ justins honey almond butter packet

500- cherry pretzel probar w/ vanilla latte

600- 3/4 cup tjs nutty american trail mix and a glass of milk

Hey Julz-

I don't know if this helps but I have a friend who went through the same thing. With adequate treatment she was able to stop binging and some of the weight she gained fell off. She eats fairly normally now and looks great.

Hang in there and accept the support you are given, you don't deserve to stay in this misery!

i totally relate with the dried fruit. i love trail mix, but i also love granola bars. like 12 more raisins is really going to do anything. for some reason i don't have this problems with fats or proteins, just sugar and carbs. makes for lots of obessing.  

hedgren.

thank you so much for your thorough response. i say i am eating 3000 calories, and i am, but i am also exercising. i live in a big city, and some how manage to walk 6-8 miles a day. i think it helps me justify eating 3000 calories, but is hindering the benefits of doing so. i am scared to stop but i know i need to. should i keep my calories at 3000 and  just decrease the walking? i think 3 miles would be more normal, just considering that is how much id be walking if i didnt take a 2x longer route everywhere. i have had to eat 4000+ inpatient but at this weight its so hard to convince myself to do that.

take care

breakfast- 2 trader joes waffles, 2 T peanut butter, banana

snack- ensure, granny smith apple

lunch- ww bagel w/ 2 slices melted swiss cheese, trader joes potato chips, iced tea

snack- arts original probar

dinner- tuna nicoise salad (out!), a few glasses of wine

snack- banana and graham cracker italian ice!

3000

breakfast- 2 scrambled eggs (made by my dad, w/ butter and milk!), mini banana muffins, strawberries with plain kefir (470)

snack- ensure, banana w/ pb (450)

lunch- fuji and cranberry tuna on ww wrap, red peppers (590)

snack- ensure (250)

dinner- basil pesto and swiss sandwich on whole wheat, slice of vegan carrot cake (710)

snack- (will be) plain yogurt w/ almonds, pink lady apple (350)

2820- may try to add something to snack... just fighting fullness/guilt.

yesterday

breakfast- oatbran flakes, whole milk, strawberries, ensure

lunch- honey almond butter sandwhich on whole wheat, pink lady apple

snack- 1/2 cup trader joes nutty american trail mix, ensure

dinner- salmon avocado roll, spicy tuna roll

dessert- large double chocolate crumbled over haagen dazs strawberry ice cream cup

snack- banana w/ pb

2900

breakfast- full fat vanilla yogurt with granola and strawberries

lunch- pb and banana sandwhich, hard boiled egg

snack- grande soy latte, whole foods blueberry muffin

dinner- falafel wrap with hummus, apple

dessert- brownie, tahitian vanilla gelato

snack- bowl of oatbran flakes mixed with almonds, raisins, vanilla soy milk

2800

breakfast- cottage cheese w/ granola and raisins

snack- ensure

lunch- panera: you pick two, 1/2 classic salad, 1/2 tuna sandwhich, apple

snack- ensure, monkey muffin

dinner- sprouted wheat bagel w/ avocado, swiss and turkey, apple

snack- probar, blueberry yogurt

2500