I'm 18 years old.  I love to learn. im going to be a freshmen in college. i love to dance. i work at a health club (hahahaha). i play badminton and tennis. i love music. i want to continue in college in pre-med.

I've recently lost 20 lbs about a year ago, however, it was achieved through extreme dieting and working out in an unhealthy manner and im not too proud of that.  then i just kept on losing weight. to this day i struggle with the scale and even though i am skinny, to me the scale is almighty. my lowest weight was at 5'7 105lbs highest was about 138lbs. i looked disgusting at 105, i felt weak, and it was bad. i've gained 7 lbs back now, and im still struggling. im focusing more on clean eating and working out everyday, but still everytime i see the scale go up, im tempted to bring my eating to a halt. i got really well in the summer, i was eating about 1800-2000 calories a day, but ever since school started and the stress, im back down to eating 1400 calories a day and working out constantly. im trying to get better, and acutally i want to gain muscle. but im afarid the moment i stop doing cardio to lift weights i will gain fat, not muscle. it's stupid i know... but i can't bring myself to do it. even though i want to compete in figure competitions one day.

keep up all the good work loves. message me.

xoxo,
meg