Posts by dyar

I am so sorry you feel that way, I was going through a similar thing only two months ago. I felt like I failed myself because of gaining, but the truth is I failed my ED. I didn't fail myself because now I have my regular periods (well only for 2 months now) and I am stronger and healthier and I look better. And it's a good thing. Think about why you wanted to lose weight in a first place? If you're anything like me it was because of other people. And why did you gain? You gained for yourself. For your health, and happiness. I think you should appreciate what you did and what you are doing for your own good.

About that girl, there will always be people that don't understand. And that don't really care. So you shouldn't care either. When you were at lower weight people were talking that you look sick. Final conclusion? They will always talk. If it's not about your weight then it will be about your haircut, new shoes, something you said. Honey, you can't please everyone. The most important person in your life is YOU so your opinion maters the most. You know what they say "Those who matter don't mind, those who mind don't matter."

And about your mother... I have no idea what to say about that without offence. I don't know her, so I have no rights to judge her. But I can judge her comments on *losing weight* because you've got *chubby* AFTER AN ED?!?!? I don't know. I'm sorry. Ignore that. Maybe she just wants you to be happy. That's what my parents think when they say "You are eating again? You will gain too much." What a trigger... and then I explode and start being nervous and yell around room until they explain me why they were saying that. I was unhappy when I had few more pounds. And I was so desperate to lose them. They were unhappy for me, and they just don't want me to go through that again. Through tears and pain and starvation and everything. Try talking to your mother more. Everyday, for long time, try to understand her, and let her understand you.

Please be happy.

There are SO much more important things in life then few pounds and what will some shallow school mates think about your weight. You are beautiful in so many ways and don't EVER let ANYONE make you doubt that. (sorry about my crappy English)

Good luck. :) 

There's not much more things that I can say, that everybody else haven't already said, but in my opinion it comes together. I mean, you must face some facts so you can start gaining, you need to fight your fears, start eating, enjoy food. And the way your brain works is better, your mental recovery is in progress while you are focused on physical. Also, when you are focused on mental recovery, you can't be recovering in your head without eating enough. If you stop having fear of eating what you want and when you are hungry, your body will want more food to recover and since you are focused on mental recovery, you will satisfy its needs and get better in physical way. I don't know if all this sounds right, but I hope you know what I mean.

So after all, I think you should be focused on both, because one leads to another. It's a hard, long journey, but I believe that you can do it. Good luck. :)

I know, and, it's 18.6 (I use metric calculators, so my measurements in this post are a bit inaccurate) but I know it's not enough.

And still there is no such thing that could convince me to keep pushing. Water weight? It's still weight. Getting back my period? I don't want to have children yet... there's plenty of time. Not being underweight? Right now I'm officially at healthy weight. Skin, nails, hair? They never changed. Still healthy skin, strong nails, and big wavy shiny hair. Messing up my metabolism? I could maintain on 2000 it's not so bad.

I know I should gain, but right now I just don't see why.

Thanks for reply.

Congratulations!!! :) I'm very happy for you and thank you for bringing us some good news. It's encouraging. And hurray for fats!

So happy for you. :) And give me back all those hours of calculating and analyzing and worrying! Right now I'd grab them and play piano, talk to my friends, dance, eat cakes, run around from happiness, hug people! :D

Ok, so now I have emotional happy surge after chocolate and that black coffee with cinnamon. :D And that's not so bad either! 

mariecarm Thank you for changing my life! :D

Original Post by whatiwant:

Hahaha wow, I got the extreme energy surges bad :S And I get really silly and joke alot.. Theyve lessened off a bit now but I notice if Ive accidently gone too long without a snack and I eat I get loads of energy! Its cool to know Im not the only one :)

That too!!! People are starting to consider me as a crazy person! I'm just saying so stupid things and laugh all the time. But it's fun, so I'm not complaining. x) And yes, it's really good to know that there is someone out there jumping around with no reason too. :D

Well I don't know about wrists. I see that people measuring theirs to see which body frame they have, but I'm not so sure. I mean, my wrists are tiny and my middle finger reaches half of my thumb when I wrap my fingers around it. But I have big extent of the ribs and usually have troubles with finding an appropriate bra.

Oh, here are so many people you can relate to. I think that's why I spend so much time on these forums, it feels good to be surrounded by people who are so supportive and share your struggles.

And about that voice, you are the only person that can send it away, consider that as your duty.

Yes, sure, I agree, but I didn't get the impression that she's bullied. If a friend of mine had few drinks and told me something like "lighten up" or "don't be such a buzz-kill" I wouldn't consider that as forcing me to drink or anything. I'm sure if she seriously talks to them, and explains how she feels and that she is bothered by that, they will stop making such comments. (if of course they are real friends) On the other hand, if she IS bullied I'm sure she needs new friends, but I'm not sure she is. (sorry about writing in third person)