Posts by gabbyxox

5'7.5"

CW: 118 lbs

I am almost at 120, which is my goal for the moment... I am not sure what to do when I get there, though. Goal is to get my period back, so we'll see how much I need I guess. :/ Great job everyone!

5'7"

LW: 94 lbs

CW: 114 lbs

GW: 120 to start with... (goal: period!)

I understand your anxiety kate! We're pretty much the same right now. :) Just keep the desire to be healthy prominent! I wouldn't worry about stopping gaining yet, I think our bodies will adjust when we get to that point. Stay strong! :D

Also, congrats nutriciousdelicous and everyone else :) keep up the good work!

Orlaith, you make a good point about listening to what your doctor prescribes, but I am less willing to go along with it because I feel she just prescribed it to appease me, and did not really feel that anything is wrong. She did not care if I took it or not. This makes me think she is underestimating the issue? I am not sure. I am wary of doctors sometimes...

Spinach_spy, thank you for responding. I wish you luck in getting your period back! Since you are at a healthy weight, perhaps it's stress or other reasons. Have you gone to the doctor, though?

katkelly, thanks so much! I really hope you're right. :) You are the same as me - I hate taking medications as well, even if I don't feel great (I generally don't get sick though). I hate the idea of it, though obviously sometimes it's necessary. I just don't like taking it unless it's needed. Thanks for the advice and encouragement, I really appreciate it =)!

Thank you SO much for that. Especially hearing the fact that the damage from being underweight is reversible is such a weight off my shoulders.

Since I don't  think I am anorexic, I may not need to gain a ton of weight, BUT I will if necessary.

When going about this, when I get in the BMI of 20s, how long should I wait before deeming it appropriate to gain more weight? I.E. let's say I am at a BMI of 20, waiting for a period, and how long would I wait to gain a few more pounds?

Thank you!! I feel a lot better!

Good point! Well I am certainly willing to eat back the calories, of course!

Ahh, that makes sense. That is a tricky decision then... because if I take the medication to shed the lining, I won't know when my real period is back. However, if it takes me a while to gain the weight/get enough fat/fat intake, I will have those cells in there for a while! I am not sure what I should do then? :/

Thanks so much for replying. :)

Congrats!!! I am missing mine, so I understand your happiness at getting it back. Yay!!

"For a girl so adamantly opposed to the media's portrayal of women and ideal body image, I'm sure sucked into their game."

Ahh, this so accurately describes me. :( I am also VERY against the idea of women out there, but I find it so hard to be self confident when I weigh more... I struggle with self-confidence to begin with! bah!

I wish I could magically give you the confidence. I think you have what you need to attain it though! I was thinking maybe "fake it til you make it" might work here. Maybe not, but at least teaching yourself to think positive thoughts and be self-confident would help, right?

Anyway, just remember you're completely healthy and look great; I know it's hard to be confident. I wish you the best...stay strong!!

We're so similar! It's funny. I think it's impressive you stopped to consider the most important thing, being healthy, rather than just dropping weight when you don't need to. I think you sound very healthy & in a good place, and your weight is great! I agree that you should go and buy new jeans. You  have the right attitude and are doing great. (: 

It's going to be hard on my body image, as I am already really self-conscious as it is, but I will try as hard as I can.

Thanks so much for the support.

Thank you so much for the information hedgren. I can't decide whether I fit on the eating disorder spectrum. I mean, when I knew I had gain weight because I was such a low weight, I loved it! And I don't desire to be a low weight because I want to be healthy. I do kind of not like eating very high calorie foods, though. I think my problem has always been not wanting to be average and being thin isn't... : / However, I will not sacrifice my health for it and I think this saves me. I go through battles in my head this way, but healthy always wins.

Anyways, I am was 120 lbs at the doctor's [OBGYN] and am 5'7" ish. She didn't suggest gaining more weight, and the hormones I got tested were FSH, Prolactin and LTH I think.

I am afraid for my bones/fertility but can't rationalize gaining more weight if I don't know it will help. If I knew for sure it would, I would not mind one bit!

 I can mention all of this to her, or get a second opinion like you said. Thank you!!

Edit: based on what you said, I can agree that by not eating enough a few years ago, that probably generated eating anxieties. I do feel I am way more knowledgeable now though. :)