Posts by h8ylylouise

I thought I should join in here too ;) Ive suffered 5 real bad eating over the last 10 days and it all involves after 7pm snacking on rubbish!!!! One chocolate bar leads to 4 and honey on toast leads to slice after slice! Last night was a whole 500g tub of frozen yoghurt and 2 choc bars ... everyday I say is Day 1 but its just not working ;( Today IS DAY 1 and I have decided to cut as much sugar as possible out of my diet. I dont want to call this a "diet" really, I want to think of it as a healthy eating plan. I am really really struggling as to what I should eat though? So far I have had 50g of porridge made with water and 50g of fresh blueberries and a sprinkiling of cinnamon ... what do I have for the rest of the day? HELP!!!! I cant quit ALL sugar, Im more interested in quitting added extra SILLY sugar! I really would appreciate some food options? I really do love wholemeal toast and dont ideally want to quit that! I like greek yoghurt, fat free cottage cheese, packets of cup of soup, baked beans, pickle, all fruits/salad/veggies, diet salad cream, only eat chicken, I like ryvitas, cheese spreads, diet hot choc ... thats my favourite daily foods ... do you see any problems there? Sorry to go on but would be great for some advice ;) x

Ohhh u guys are just fantastic and have given me some great advice! Youve really got me thinking about all this walking Im doing...maybe its not helping me and doing some strength training etc etc is going to be better and make me look better too! In the past the walking has lost the weight but Ive never truly been happy with my body, never really had good toned legs/arms/tummy ... so maybe I should quit the walking? I have seriously done my knees in for the past week, dont quite no what Ive done but they ache SO bad, never experienced this before and theres no chance of me doing any exercise at all right now ;( not sure whether to rest them or just keep going? dont want to damage them! Well Im off to Spain in 3 weeks, reckon its time I joined the gym and got some advice on what exactly to do to sort my body out! 

Thanks SO much everyone, you've all been so helpful ;)

You only need to read my posts to see I have struggled with this for years and years ;( I go through times when I am in control though! I am currently on Day 10 of healthy eating...the only way I can do it is as follows...

Plan my foods for the day and at what times I eat - 7am/1pm/6pm and a light snack in the eve

Calorie count and have a max of 1500 a day

Exercise everyday, just powerwalking but it makes you feel SO good! 90 mins!

I have a photo of my "skinny times" as my iphone screensaver lol...everytime I see it I remember how good I felt ;)

I have a mint to suck at night that lasts ages and just gives me that sweet kick that I need ;)

I have HUGE salads of lettuce/spinach/tomatoes etc and this really fills me up!

Porridge is also amazing and I sometimes have that for brekki n lunch, made with a pint of water and I add blueberries n cinnamon, only 200 cals a bowl ;)

A binge hasnt triggered yet lol but I have been tempted on the last 3 nights...I just keep thinking to myself how fat and bloated and water retained I will look in the morning and quickly clean my teeth n get into bed...one thing Ive never done is get out of bed to binge, I go off the idea totally once I go to bed!

Im starting to date at the moment too and my binging always ruins it and I cancel out...I no longer want it to rule my life and I intend to carry on these dates lol!

So theres my hints n tips...hope they might help ;)

I used mine the other day and yes...it is amazing!!! I literally epilate everywhere lol! I seem to suddenly hate body hair! The one thing I found was doing it actually makes me feel sick lol...the thought of eating doesnt even interest me when doing it, the pain is awful but well worth it! Its a feel good factor too ;) when I feel "overweight" I notice everything...cellulite, wobbly legs/arms/tummy, hairy legs etc, no tan...the list is endless lol...but when I have epilated I feel so good and its a knock on effect, I start to take more care of my body, beauty treatments etc ;) 

Ive been reading your posts and comments and we are SO alike! The one thing that this binge eating has a great effect on is the chances of me dating men ;( I find a nice guy, have say 4 days to go till I see him, a binge appears and I cancel the date ;( its just pure craziness ;( I am now on day 4 "again lol" of healthy eating/calorie counting/exercising/diet pills to suppress my appetite....I have a date in 3 days time and I pray I dont mess up by then!!!! I need to get into some skinny clothes as I chucked out all my old clothes when I got super skinny...I only have size 6's now!!!! If I didnt binge...Id be "spot on" super healthy and super fit! I long for the day that my binges are gone forever ;) x

Hi Jessie ;) day 5 almost completed and still binge free :))) I had the MRI yesterday and have to wait around 2 weeks for results! I actually decided to weigh myself yesterday and Im now 116...healthy weight to some but for me personally its too much and Im still not comfy in my own body ;( Im feeling better though and being day 5 already makes it easier for me...keep in touch good or bad...Im here to help you and you for me too ;) speak soon...H x

Hi Jessie, so glad you posted on here today! It makes feel a little better to know that its not just me going through this stupid phase! I am the most educated, dedicated and healthy person when it comes to foods, nutrition, diet etc but when a binge attack happens it all goes out the window and nothing/anyone can do or say to help me avoid it! I absolutley hate it when it happens as it ruins all my good hard work! I started healthy eating almost 4 weeks ago now and I was logging all my foods, calories etc and was so dedicated, I was feeling wonderful! I decided not to weigh my self other than on day 1 and I weighed in at 120lbs...this is heavy for me as I like to be around 106lbs to feel comfortable in my clothes and energised etc...I am 5ft 4 and I probably am classed as a healthy weight at 120lbs but i feel SO SO uncomfortable and its really affecting me now! Anyhow...in the last 2 weeks I have binged 4 times ;( last night being the last one and really and truly it was just pathetic! It got to around 9pm and I fancied something to eat that would last me ages and that I would enjoy...I opted for some jelly belly beans at 350 cals a bag ... that then led to things that I didnt even crave or really want ... just the fact that they were chocolate and sweet ... so I finished off biscuits and chocolate almost like I was on a use up mission...it was crazy!!! So my whole daily intake was 2800 cals! Its been getting so bad lately that when I am eating all the rubbish my mind is working overtime and already thinking of the things I really crave that I could eat the next day!!!! Its getting out of control!!! So today ...ONCE AGAIN ... its my day 1!!! I am desperate to lose these 14lbs, I still have not weighed in since that first day but I feel now that I am back where I started...what a waste of time!

Also when I have these binges I suffer so bad! My face feels swollen, my inner thighs gain so much water retention and my arms feel fat too...after 2 days of binge free I kinda return to normal but this is really affecting me in many ways...I have hardly anything to wear that I feel good in, I stop myself from getting involved in a relationship as I get good and bad days with the eating and I even cancel out plans Ive made because I just feel fat! I agree that I do suffer a slight body dismorphia and ok...I am NOT fat to every one else, I just feel so uncomfortable though!

I wish I had a friend just like me that lived nearby, we could get together and go for long walks and help each other out when a binge attack happens! SO... maybe we could post to each other on here and update on our progress? Well...look forward to hearing from you ... Hayley ;) x

Would love to find my twin ;) here goes...

5ft 4, small frame, 120lbs, age 38 and suffers with BED at times ;( just wanna get super toned n slim for the summer ;) Hayley x If you live in Brighton UK or nearby even better ;) x

Hey samsum hows it all going? I never did get round to doing my weigh in last week as I wanted to wait a little longer to get a more true result BUT ... it all kinda went wrong last night ;( I had a day of NO energy and really felt that I needed to eat more...I ate all good healthy nutritious foods right up till 8pm and my calories totalled 2000...I resisted all junk food ALL DAY ... then ... a binge kicked in at 9pm!!!! I demolished endless chocolate that was in the kitchen for the kids and consumed 1500 calories in less than an hour ;(((( so my intake yesterday was 3500!!!! OK...Im not beating myself up about it, Ive logged the calories in my food diary and look at today as a fresh start ....AGAIN!!!! I do feel more energetic, I actually woke up at 7am rather than 5am like every other day ... so lets hope I have learnt my lesson and no more binges! I have been healthy eating for exactly 20 days now and for that to be my first "BAD BINGE", I feel quite impressed really as I have done well to last that long! If I had to say why did I do it??? I guess my body has been deprived of calories and over exercised during last week... I never ever binge for feelin low, fed up, unhappy...its usually because I feel content and comfy in my surroundings but this time I feel it was definately low calories throughout my last 3 weeks and its just crept up on me!

So...if anyone is reading this...advice please ;) today I aim to consume 1500 calories and just healthy foods, do you think Ive really messed up my 3 week weight loss? Is this going to really slow down further weight loss? What effect has 1500 calories in 1 hour of pure chocolate done to me? I really need someone to help me out here and try hard to prevent this hapenning again ;(

Oh well ... new day ;) wipe the slate clean ... just had my healthy porridge and heading off to work ... hope I get some replies ;) H x

Hi samsum ;) Ive been in your position "many" a time and when it happens you cant see you ever gettin out of the vicious circle! I have suffered with BED since my teens and in all honesty dont think I will ever get over it completley ;( BUT I am getting better and the BED moments I get are not as much as they used to be ;) I a currently on a new healthy eating regime as the binge moments were starting to creep in again and becoming like every 3rd day...it was getting me down and I think you just get to that point where you think "enough is enough!!!" The first day of binge free is always the worst...you just wanna be a month down the line and thought of just one day seems rubbish! BUT...time does whizz fast and for me now...I am on my "11th" day ;))) this is how I have done it this time round....

Make sure I have a diet containing proteins/good carbs/veggies/fruit/plenty of water or sugar free squash to drink

Breakfast/Lunch/Dinner

A snack in between each meal and just before bed

NO JUNK FOOD AT ALL!!!! 

Get rid of ALL trigger foods (difficult for me as I have children!)

DONT weigh yourself daily - Im gonna do once every 2 weeks

Stop looking and obsessing about your body in the mirror, just get up, get dressed and get going! Wear comfy clothes that fit nice rather than squeezin into your old size 6 when your now an 8 lol! You will only feel huge and uncomfortable!

Set your calorie intake and STICK to it!!! I weigh everything and stick to my daily allowance ;)

All I can say is I feel SO much better, more in control and actually really REALLY look forward to my healthy meals and snacks ;)

The foods in my diet are;

Porridge made with water, Eggs-omlette,grilled chicken,brown rice,grilled veggies,salad,light dressing,soups,greek yoghurt,fat free cottage cheese,cinnamon,fruits,diet hot choc,ryvitas,extra lite philadelphia...I love all these foods and enjoy them so much, my body feels energised every day and I feel clean and healthy inside rather than a dirty old rubbish bin full of junk!

I also try to walk atleast 1-2hr a day but its difficult with the weather and work!

SO...give these things a try ;) if I can do it then so can you...keep in touch and let me know how it goes...even if I/we lose 1lb a week its better than gaining it! I will update you on my weight loss when I weigh in on tuesday ;) good luck with starting your "binge free" you know you can do it ;)

Speak soon ... Hayley x

keg1990 that post was just the best! I have suffered with BED since my teens, you only have to read through my old posts since joining to get a little history on me! I havent been on here for a while but since suffering once again with my old habits I came back! Im on my 5th day today of being binge free, Ive adapted a healthy nutritious diet and regular eating/calorie counting and exercise to get back to a body that Im happy with...so far so good and no urges to binge...I do find as the days go by its easier and the less temptation to give in. Ive hidden the scales and decided to weigh in once a month and also got rid of any trigger foods in the house (well as much as possible as the kids do want a treat now and then!) I purely do not eat any junk food at all, I am an all or nothing girl...one sweet/chocolate and I CANNOT stop! I dont actually think I will EVER rid my eating disorder but believe me I do try so hard! If I do get the urge to binge at some point (I know its gonna happen down the line!) Im deffo going to do this "sit down and envision" ... thanks so much for sharing that ;) Im going to print it up and keep it for that dreaded day! I will keep you posted on my binge free success ;)