Posts by hoshii

Are you craving peanut butter, or is it the fat content?

Try mixing some cottage cheese in with your peanut butter. It will increase the protein content which will help keep you satisfied.

I don't have any ED recovery advice for you, but gastroparesis is likely when you are trying to refeed. Fortunately, the gastroparesis works itself out once you have gained back to a healthy weight for your body.

Good luck in your recovery. You've taken a huge first step.

Kashi GoLean Crunch (aka crack) with milk and frozen mango chunks.

B: banana, Kashi cereal with milk and frozen mango chunks

S: cottage cheese with strawberry, PB+honey on cinnamon raisin toast with sweet potato pieces

S: pieces of apple, sweet potato, honeydew and cantaloupe

L: Fried egg sandwich with sweet potato pieces

S: PB+honey on cinnamon raisin toast, cottage cheese with strawberry, banana

S: Greek yogurt with honey

D: Quinoa and white rice with steamed carrots and salmon

Very busy day today.

Greek yogurt, banana, cinnamon raisin bagel and coffee

Another banana!

Chicken noodle soup (this cold needs to go away), egg and cheese on an English muffin, chocolate pudding cup

More Greek yogurt with frozen mango chunks

Tequila (sipping)

Will most likely have peanut butter and jam toast with strawberry cottage cheese before bed.

Let the reactive eating happen. It's the only way your body can recover from the inside from all the damage the eating disorder may have (or already) caused.

I was diagnosed with gastroparesis earlier this year, and all I can do is reactive eat. My hunger signals are so out of whack. If I followed by feeling "hungry", I probably would almost never eat.

There is a reason for reactive eating. Your body makes you seek out food because it is trying to tell you that it's hungry.

When you feel like eating, eat. I felt like a crazy woman before my diagnosis (though I don't have an eating disorder) because I couldn't stop thinking about food but I wasn't physically hungry. Once your body isn't being starved, the feelings of wanting to eat all the time will calm down, I promise. The more you ignore it now, the worse it will be and it will lead to binges (happened to me despite no hunger and it left me sick for days and days).

Hope you are doing better.

Let your body rest and recover from the cold. Even when you start to feel better and think you can return to regular exercise, take it easy. Missing a few workouts will not ruin what you have already accomplished, it's about what you do in the long run.

Get some fresh air and maybe a short walk if you are feeling OK. Jumping back into high impact exercise too soon will set you back even more days.

You can't cut grains out completely from your diet. You need the vitamins, especially the B-vitamins that are in grains. Please don't take for granted the fact that you can eat whole grain foods. They are nutritious and delicious. If going natural is a concern for you, I would suggest looking into grains like quinoa, which is not only very tasty, but rich in nutrients. I get terrible GP flares from eating whole grains and have had to switch back to white.

It sounds like your diet is too restrictive. You shouldn't be feeling empty at the end of the day. While eating lots of fruits and veggies is good for you, that shouldn't be all that you are eating. Your body needs protein and healthy fats too. On my good days when I'm not sick to my stomach, I try to get more protein and liquid fats in.

Also, by being too restrictive, you are essentially teaching your body to burn less and less, which will cause your metabolism to slow down drastically. This is a lifestyle, and if you cannot imagine going through the rest of your life eating this way, then you have to make changes. Bingeing and constantly thinking about food is your body's natural reaction to you purposely underfeeding it.

It's scary to increase your intake or eat things that are processed or that have too many carbs. Whatever the reasoning, you have to eat the things your body is craving and give it time to get the hunger signals and metabolism working normally again.

I have days of reactive eating if I have been ill all week with insufficient intake. At first it was very scary, but the reactive eating DOES calm down, I promise. Take good care of yourself!

Sorry you are feeling this way. The holidays revolve so much around food, which is not a bad thing. Can you imagine having to go through life without eating some seriously delicious things? Life is too short to deprive yourself all the time, or feel guilty about it. Easier said than done, I know, and it will take time.

*hugs*

Feel free to message me if you need support or just an open ear to listen.

Lots of Greek yogurt, banana and toast.

Just the fact that I have time for more than one cup of coffee in the morning on the weekends makes everything that much better.