|Motivation||Sometimes it's about more than losing weight...||Oct 25 2011
A quick update for cat3108 and all....a milestone reached:
579 days in, I've reached the halfway mark. As of midnight (yesterday), I've lost 105.16 pounds of the 210 (adjusted) I'm going to lose. Currently at 279.84 lbs, headed for 175. Also, 570 days nicotine-free and counting. Have saved over $1,000 by quitting.
And just to see if it does anything worthwhile, I've added an Acai Berry supplement into my diet. I doubt it will have any effect, but since it's all the rage....y'know?
|Motivation||Sometimes it's about more than losing weight...||Oct 12 2011
Well then, let me shine some on you...
One thing I forgot to mention in my most recent flurry of posts was the fact that while I was shopping at Wal-Mart last Friday, I couldn't help but sneak over to the Men's section, where after a little fantasizing and a little consternation, I found myself face to face with the belt rack.
I did a 360 around it, looking high and low, not just looking at the newest and hippest styles that the peeps in your nearby trailer will be wearing this Fall, but looking at the numbers, mostly in the 30's and 40's....much like your local singles bar. After a lap around the rack in each direction, I saw it - the belt. I had one of those reactions that Davy from The Monkees had every time he saw a cute girl...we locked eyes. (Okay, belts don't have eyes, but just go with it...) My eyes started to get thin and beadie, just like The Grinch, as I looked in all directions, crouching my head into my neck...and I figured why the hell not? So I took off the belt with one hand, while holding up my pants with the other...after all, I didn't want to give the security cameras something to focus in on...though they wouldn't have needed to zoom in very far, if you know what I'm saying. Anyway, I put THEE BELT on. Damned if that thing didn't fit....yeah, it was barely buckled and the metal parts of it were screaming for mercy, but dammit, it fit!
So I bought it...even putting it in its own bag, like one of those $3 fish you get at WallyWorld, and put it on the front seat for a bird's eye view on the way home. Why not...it was the first belt I bought in over three years....it was a special occasion...and I swear I heard the belt say "shotgun" on the way to my car.
When I got home, the existing belt came off, and is now semi-retired, living a life of semi-luxury, and the new one went on, where it will now be the container for my ever decreasing girth, until it breaks down, or is put out to stud for a smaller model.
Oh, and did I forget to mention that the new belt is ten-mutherfriggin-inches shorter than the one it replaced? (I hate it when I overlook the small details...)
@rosegus - So, how'd I do?
|Motivation||The Long Road...||Oct 10 2011
Quite the amazing journey with a (hopefully) happy ending...you are to be commended for such a fighting spirit.
You exemplify what I try to preach to those who give up too soon. Digging yourself a hole can take anywhere from a moment (as in your case), to a lifetime (as in the case of many here). But to find your way back to where you were, or more appropriately, want to be, is not a sprint, it is a marathon. It tests every part of your mettle, and makes you question your commitment a million times along the way, and this is one of the big reasons why people don't stick to diets...their expectations are too high and their timelines are too short. They want to see instant results, but as the saying goes, Rome wasn't built in a day. You have to have a battle plan, and mentally prepare yourself for the long haul, whatever battle you're fighting...
Thanks for sharing your story...no doubt you will inspire others here to persevere and overcome...
|Motivation||can't stay away from the chocolate||Oct 09 2011
I know what you mean....am having a brief but tawdry affair with Nutella at present...
|The Lounge||Earthquake anyone?||Aug 23 2011
Felt it here in NY...@ about 1:54pm, felt some light swaying for about 30-45 seconds. According to the USGS, it was the biggest quake to hit VA since 1897.
|Motivation||Sometimes it's about more than losing weight...||Aug 15 2011
In all honesty, it's less about being so candid, and more about putting the thoughts of so many of us (as I perceived them) into words. The first one who can do that gets the lion's share of the credit, but those of us who can act upon them and leverage them into results are the real inspirations...
|Motivation||Need help/advice/reassuring(?)....||Aug 15 2011
First, thanks to everyone who responded...it certainly gives my incredibly bruised ego a needed lift, as you'll discover below...
I couldn't fathom the discrepancy between all the numbers, so in the midst of grocery shopping this past Friday night, I veered over to the hardware section. Specifically, the bathroom scales area. I took two analog scales (digitals aren't out-of-the-box ready, so to speak) and put them side by side, and stepped on each one.
Suffice it to say, my worst fears were realized...they both (within a couple pounds) indicated what the doctors office scales had read. So basically, I've "only" lost 90 pounds. I know, that sounds really conceited, in light of some of your struggles, but I had really hoped that all the hard work and in in some ways, agony, I've put myself through in the last 16 months, there'd be more to show for it. Yes, I should be jumping for joy, having lost almost 100 pounds, but unfortunately, my being, for now at least, is seeing the glass as half-empty.
The last two days, I've been in what feels like a semi-stupor. No, I haven't gone off the deep end and blown the diet, nor have I had the urge to. I suppose if there's a fruit of the labors thus far, it's that I just don't have the heart anymore to pig out. It'll take a few days to kick myself out of this funk, but I'll do it, only because there is no other way anymore.
Having gone back and recalculating all the numbers, I've had to readjust my goals, as I'm actually losing weight at less than half the rate I thought I was, so this is going to take a helluva lot longer than I thought...or want. But I am starting to see that this, in fact, may be another test of my will, to see if I can overcome such a large emotional obstacle...
With all this in mind, here's the reset:
SW (3/24/10): 385
CW (8/13/11): 293.8 (-91.2)
GW (5/13/13): 175
Again, I say thank you to all who have responded. In the midst of drowning in my emotions, it's heartening to see a rope being lowered into the murky waters by so many of you...
|Motivation||Sometimes it's about more than losing weight...||Aug 04 2011
Bump in the road:
|Motivation||Good music||Jul 11 2011
(@nutwood - also, "Bizarre Love Triangle" is good too...)
Like many things, it's all in the eye (or ear) of the beholder. That is, it depends upon what gets you going. Depending upon my frame of mind, here's some stuff I've listened to on my iPod when cycling:
Anthony Robbins - Daily Magic CD, from the "Get the Edge" program
Rocky Balboa: The Best of Rocky
John Tesh - Live at Red Rocks (no, I'm not joking about this one)
Dave Brubeck - For All Time (5 CD box set)
Dave Grusin - Collection
Sade - The Ultimate Collection, 12" Collection, Lovers Live
Tommy Emmanuel - Live One
Tower of Power - 40th Anniversary, Live and in Living Color, Power
Go West - The Best of Go West
Garth Brooks - The Hits
Frank Sinatra - Nothing But the Best
Chicago - A&E Live by Request
Boz Scaggs - Greatest Hits Live
Billy Joel - 12 Gardens
As you can see, I'm a man of many moods...lol.
|Motivation||I've gone from XL to M||Jun 24 2011
Tres cool! Hope you are enjoying your lovely monster...losing weight, but having to spend money for new clothes.
In 15 months, I've gone from 4x+ to 2x-, so I know the sensation quite well. And being headed for M myself, there may be a few tears from this corner before it's all said and done.
In fact, if I put on the same pants I wore when I started my diet, I can now hold them out in front of me like one of those "before and after" weight-loss ads, as I've lost nearly a foot from my waist. On the surface, it's great to see the results with your own eyes, but your emotional side is where it really hits home, and where it means more than you can imagine.
|Motivation||Quitting Smoking & Losing Weight?||Jun 24 2011
I quit nine days into my (two-year) diet. Cold-turkey, no less. And that was after being a pack-a-day smoker for 30 years. Today is 448 days nicotine-free.
I am quite the exception to the rule here for many reasons, one being that you're not supposed to quit smoking while dieting, as you're inclined to gain weight because of your body's natural tendency to put something in your mouth to replace cigarettes. In fact, only 3-5% of those who quit smoking are successful in quitting for more than a year. I have no problem basking under that banner.
When I decided I was going to finally lose the weight that has burdened me in so many ways, I doubled down and quit smoking on Friday, April 1 2010 at 7 pm. I lit my last smoke, enjoyed it like no other, said a silent prayer, and then extinguished it. I then gathered all my ashtrays (even the portable one in my car) and lighters and disposed of them. I went to sleep thinking it would be a white-knuckle weekend, but the next day, I felt no craving whatsoever. And I didn't gain an ounce; I kept on losing weight, which was the validation that my diet would work as I hoped it would.
One of the main reasons that one wants to lose weight is to improve one's health. So to me, continuing to smoke while dieting was like pigging out on fast-food, but trying to balm the conscience by drinking diet soda. Yeah, losing over 200 pounds will allow me to live longer, but continuing to smoke would kill me no matter how much I weighed. So if I was going to take such drastic actions in my life to become healthier, giving up cigarettes must be a cornerstone of such efforts. And it certainly didn't hurt that I was saving money by quitting - even though I live in the state with the highest cigarettes prices in the country (NY), I still saved the $35 per carton, plus the gas money I saved by driving out to the local Indian Reservation. But I see that as a residue, as the desire to save money does not effect the motivation to quit, as is the case with any addiction.
It would be remiss of me to admit that I don't have the occasional yen for a few puffs, but that's as close as I've been in the last 15+ months. The next smoke I plan on having is on March 24th of next year, when I celebrate reaching my weight-loss goal after two years of dieting...that will be a well-deserved Stogie.
As an aside, I admit being able to do this without any gimmicks at all. No drugs, no patches, none of that. I just willed myself to do it by putting my mind to it, as I have with my marathon diet, so it's kind of unfair to proclaim its ease. So if you want to place an asterisk next to this, I can understand, as my mind has allowed me to achieve many things that I thought incomprehensible in the last year or so. But I will tell you that it can be done if your constitution, your willpower, your focus, and your desire is strong enough.
Smoke-free: 448 days
Days on diet: 457
Weight lost on diet: 175.4
"Keeping the dream alive..."
|Motivation||Lost my confidence. They thought I'm a guy.||Jun 20 2011
I think we're somewhat alike. I've been called every euphemism for fat or overweight you can think of throughout my life. And every time I heard myself being called yet another name, I tried to ignore it, but when alone, it hangs over you like a black cloud.
The thing is....on the surface, you'd think such episodes would be the perfect motivation for losing weight, but it's just the opposite. It makes you question your place in life and causes you to wonder if it's always going to be like this.
Treat this situation like love...my mom always said that it comes along when you least expect it. Don't try so hard to anger yourself to action...it only wastes energy and makes you feel worse. Let it come to you...it will happen. You'll have that moment of clarity where you'll "get it", and that'll be your cue to get going. It's vital that you go into this with a positive attitude, and not a despondent one.
Save the taunts and insults for when you're close to the end, when you need that extra push across the finish line. Tell yourself that "I'll show you who's a guy and who's not" (or something to that effect), and use that kind of self-satisfaction to emotionally carom yourself to your victory.
Remember, lose the weight for yourself, not because someone tried to shame you into losing it. The difference in losing for revenge's sake and losing for your own self-worth and self-confidence is larger than you can ever comprehend...
|Motivation||So proud of myself||Jun 20 2011
That's the kind of story I like seeing; the overcoming of what was previously seen as an insurmountable obstacle...
I identify with you. As someone who 18 months ago couldn't walk 50 feet without wheezing, sweating, and turning red, I'm actually entertaining thoughts of trying to complete a one-day 70-mile canal bike tour before the end of summer. Building up to it now...just did a 13-miler last week, and looking to tackle a 24-miler (weather permitting) this week.
Thank you for sharing with us. This is the kind of story to hold up to others who can't get traction in their own situations, and show that yes, it can be done!
(That's kind of what I'm hoping to do by my journey's end - finally publish here the before and after pics for the first time, and show everyone that if I can do it, anyone and everyone else here can as well.)
Keep us apprised of your future races and results...will be interesting to see if you move up to longer distances, to bring the metaphor of the "marathon" to life. Good luck...
|Motivation||where are my visual results?||Jun 20 2011
Congratulations on your weight loss to date!
Just because you can see it doesn't mean it's not happening. Unless you're a contortionist, it's virtually impossible to see every surface of your body, so you may very well be losing in an area that you can't see (back, inside the thighs, neck, feet, etc.). With me, I had trouble seeing it at first, until I could start to see the veins in the top of my foot again, and feel a muscle on the inside of my leg that I never knew I had, and the fact that hats (with elastic headbands) that were snug when I began dieting, are so loose now, I can't wear them, as they'll fly off my head with the slightest breeze. A lovely monster...
Let's face it, in our results-driven society, honestly, the first two places we look at when seeking a measuring stick, are the waist and the face. And aren't we overly critical (as well as overly sensitive) about those two areas? Subconsciously, we demand that losing weight, no matter how much or little, should be directly tied to a change in appearance. When we don't think we see a difference, the self not being the most subjective person in the room, we think we have failed, and only bad things can come of such thoughts.
If those around you know that you're actively dieting, you'll have to accept that they'll play nice by complementing you on your appearance or asking if you lost weight...they mean well, even if you don't see it that way.
We're always our own harshest critics when it comes to matters of the self. With all the weight I've lost, I find it hard to see the difference in pictures from 2005 and hose from two weeks ago...and I hate pictures of myself! But I looked hard side-by-side, and saw some of the more subtle changes (neck, the disappearing "raccoon eyes", thinness of the face), despite the fact that my gut still hasn't retracted yet. I choose to revel in the successes, and accept that the gut will eventually shrink, 'cause they say you save the best for last, no?
Celebrate the fact that you're losing the weight from somewhere (right?), and don't let your critical self derail you from that truth.
|Motivation||My bf dislikes my calorie counting and "obsessiveness"||Jun 20 2011
I duuno....sounds like you're being too soft on the b/f - and that coming from a guy like me is saying something.
First red flag is talking about his dislike of your "obsession" with counting calories, but he's happy you look better now. Maybe I'm missing the boat on this one, but it sounds like someone who loves the steak, but doesn't want to know how the cow was slaughtered.
Second is that he claims that you take away his enjoyment of foods when you count as you do. Sounds like something an alpha male would say; someone who is too easily distracted by someone who is more focused and cognizant than he.
Frankly, IMO, I think he should be more supportive. If this is making you happy, he can make accommodations. If he thinks you're going overboard, he can find a way to talk to you about it as to not become confrontational. If you continue counting after that, he'll just have to live with it. This is about you, after all.
Relationships are not always perfect and smooth, and there are the inevitable idiosyncrasies to negotiate between the two of you. If the subject of food, in the big picture of everything else that has allowed you to stay together for five years, is setting him off like you say, he's the one with issues, not you, and needs to get his priorities straight. And you should not change or cede to his outbursts, because this is something that is important to you, affects your future, and gives you a certain amount of positive self-esteem.
Maybe if you can find a way to sit him down and have a heart-to-heart about what this means to you, and maybe meet him halfway by not being so overt (without distracting from your counting), that may pave the way for negotiating your way to a happy medium.
|Motivation||Sometimes it's about more than losing weight...||Jun 18 2011
Thanks for validating what I'm thinking. Although I don't claim to have cornered the market on dieting knowledge, but as someone who has tried and failed so many times, I think the reason we fail is that we try so hard to lose weight by putting way too much effort into eating less or exercising more. We put so much effort and energy into trying to lose without really thinking about why we want to lose weight, or who we're really losing weight for.
Of course, for many out there, it's not difficult to put forth such an effort, but I feel most of us are here because we've failed so often, that we don't know where to turn, or what to do next. So we look for that panacea or elixir that allows us to go in a new direction.
When I was in college getting my marketing degree, I kept hearing this phrase that, at the time, I gave less and less credence to as time went on, simply because I couldn't wrap my head around it:
"Work smarter, not harder..."
Who knew it would take dieting to figure out that the saying makes perfect sense?
If you go into any kind of a battle blindly, with all your weapons and all your soldiers at once, yes, you may eventually win, but you're likely to pay an incredible cost in so doing. But if you prepare, and develop a strategy, and condition yourself to believe that you can win, and be prepared for any contingency that arises, your chances for victory increase exponentially, costing far fewer resources, and doing so in less time, and with less effort.
If you've ever read books like "The Art of War", or "Who Moved My Cheese?", you'll understand ideas such as the power of thought, the concept of preparation, and the willingness to open yourself to change. If you haven't yet do so, try reading either book, or even both. I guarantee most of you will pick up something, no matter how small or insignificant, that will be a fulcrum to jump start your efforts.
I'm not suggesting you become immersed in ideas like NLP (neuro-linguistic programming) or become a Tony Roberts disciple, but if you approach something from a different angle or point of view, your aspect may change just enough to make a difference. Even a concept like seeing a glass as half full instead of half empty can be enough to trigger a change from being a pessimist to becoming an optimist.
|Motivation||Time to take care of unfinished buisness!!!||Jun 16 2011
Good for you. You had that moment of clarity, as I once did, and that became your catalyst. The important thing was that, despite your setbacks, you never lost sight of your goal. How easy would it have been to sit back and say, "well I proved I did it...my job is done"?
The only caution I would point out is to not put all your eggs in one basket, regarding allowing your MMA successes and failures (and associated issues - i.e. financial) to completely dictate your weight loss future. Make sure your eating habits lend themselves to weight loss and/or healthy eating, so you have a "fall back" of sorts, should adversity strike again...
Thanks for sharing your story, and keep us informed as to how things are going. Stories like yours are especially (but not exclusively) meaningful and affective to those who seek the motivation to start somewhere, somehow.
|Motivation||Losing It||Jun 16 2011
I agree with Tina (I usually do!) - losing weight and keeping it off is not simply turning a switch off once you've reached your goal weight. I've conceived and planned my diet so that I'm not just dieting, I'm changing how I eat and how I think about food, ingraining that new behavior, seeing success breeding more success, and now I'm at the point where food is not a major (or for that matter, a minor) focus of my day. I've been doing this for so long (15 months and counting) that there's no "effort" anymore; it's natural to eat less and eat smarter. And that kind of behavior is what I want to carry through long after I reach my goal weight.
Give yourself a lot of credit for catching this early and having the strength to ask for help, before things get completely out of control. Maybe that 115 pound weight loss taught you to exercise that "safety switch" when you see the pendulum swing in the wrong direction. Something to be proud of, and a good jumping off point for righting the course...
|Motivation||share your top 5 struggles with weight loss||Jun 16 2011
Good topic...off the top of my head...
1. Variety in my diet. Trying to balance minimizing calories, maximizing nutrients and vitamins, and doing it within a budget is trying on the patience at times. Ain't it a fact that diet/lean/light food generally costs more than regular/fattening/rich food?
2. Weather uncooperative. Ever since I got my mountain bike last month, I want to ride it every day. But unfortunately, the weather isn't listening to my demands. Seems like every day around here, there's like a 40% chance of rain, and that keeps me from riding as much as I want.
3. My dark side. The evil side of me wants the weight to be gone ASAP and not put myself through the hell that the last nine months of dieting will bring. Rome wasn't built in a day, and neither was my (formerly) Jabba-the-Hut=like body.
Life doesn't suck too much when you can't come up with five...
|Motivation||I feel so healthy everyday now!||Jun 16 2011
Congratulations are indeed in order! Remember that success breeds success. The desire to lose weight is like a flame that burns inside of us that no tsunami can ever extinguish...don't fret over the lower rate of weight loss - your body is so shocked with delight at your efforts that it doesn't know what to do!
Seriously, if weight loss was one long downhill ramp, it would be pretty difficult to travel down. That's why God gave us stairs...so we have a landing spot where we can regroup before the next step...