jaminv

| Member Since | Jun 3, 2009 |
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| Last Login | Nov 27, 2009 | |
| Location | US | |
About
| Bio | I am 5'9", and weighed about 140-150 pounds until about 4 years ago. I was underweight for most of my life. I quit smoking about 4 years ago, and didn't want to gain a bunch of fat (I was eating everything in sight), so I started working out. Not really knowing what I was doing, I focused mostly on weight training. I didn't gain a lot of fat, but my weight did skyrocket up to 180 pounds. After about a year, I started drifting in focus from my workout plan. Over the next few years I steadily gained weight until I reached about 210 pounds. One day I woke up and I realized what I was doing to myself. I was depressed (I often am), I wasn't doing anything (activity wise), I wasn't going out and meeting people which was making me lonely, further fueling my depression. Something had to give. I take medication for depression, but that only does so much. I decided that working out would be a good way to counter-act the depression. Working out would also have the added benefit of increased confidence, self-esteem, and body image. About a week into this workout regiment, I realized that the way I was eating was having a counterproductive effect on all the work I was doing. It was then that I decided I was going to eat better, and try to get back to about 180 pounds, a healthy weight. I am still depressed, but to much less of a degree than before. I am no longer in a slump - I am doing something about it. I still don't get out much and meet people, but I am getting better at that. I can feel my confidence rising, and I feel good about the changes in my body. So far, I have lost 13 pounds (I am under 200!), I'm using the next notch up on my belt, and my pants are fitting looser. Also, I don't look fat (or paunchy) in clothes, and the difference in my stomach is easily noticeable. I feel good. Not great, but good. I am still lonely, but hopefully that will change soon. My eating habits have changed significantly. I was a coke-aholic. I would usually drink 2-3 20oz. bottles of Coke at work, and then drink the better part of a 2 liter at home. I shifted to tea (sweetened), but have gradually reduced the amount I drink. Now, I have a single 8oz. glass of tea in the morning. I drink water or milk the rest of the day (mostly water). I eat whole grains and get the fiber I need. I eat more fruits and vegetables and less empty calories. I am having cravings for fast food less and less often. I have also significantly reduced my sodium intake. I don't use table salt, and I choose less foods which are high in sodium. I feel good about the way I eat, and I feel that I can keep it up, even when I get into the maintenance. |
| Interests | 3: bicycling, computers, swimming |
| Groups | 1: Depression (View Details...) |
| Friends | (none listed) |
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| New journal post Well...That was depressing. by jaefuma 23:02 |
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| New journal post December deficits by lr_mnl 22:31 |
