Posts by jellybubbles

Louisevineeta: You have most definitely not actually gained two pounds its just that throughout the day you have eaten food and drunk liquids that stay in your body and make you heavier. Its like getting one the scales and weighing x then drinking a glass of water getting back on and saying  omg i gained weight. then you go to the bathroom and get back on surprise surprise you've lost... Your metabolism is probably just fine. try not o weigh yourself too frequently once or twice a week is fine. not at all is better or only with your dr or parents.

Nambs: Obviously its better if you just eat lots all the time but I know personaly thats much easier said than done. I have done exactly what you do to varying degrees for a long time now. When i first started recovering (3years ago:( ) I would have to eat at home but then would eat nothing at school all day, so i wouldnt be getting very many calories in over the week but would have to eat tonnes on weekends when i was at home. It did not affect my metabolism at all, when i actually decided to gain weight i had to eat well over 4000 a day, so there is absolutely no need to worry your metabolism is king to be slow, in my experience the human body is very adaptable but then everyone is different. I think its best to just eat as much as you can make yourself all the time so if that means going crazy and eating lots sometimes then do that because you won't always feel so motivated so you should make the most of it when you do feel good. as you recover you will have more good days then bad. As to the body image issues I know exactly how you feel i managed to gain weight for about 6months but i felt so fat and awful that i ended up cutting back and losing most of it although i didn't get anywhere near as bad as my original low weight. I wish now i had just kept the weight on because its so much easier to maintain than to gain. I think what you need to accept and what i am just beginning to is that no one wants to make you fat or to hurt you your parents only have your best interests in mind and while we can't see that we need to just stop thinking accept we are not thinking straight and roboticallly do what were told. you won't get better until you decide its what you want to do, no one else can recover for us but try and take they're help while they are still offering because eventually everyone gets sick and tired or banging their head against the brick wall that is you ED and they give up and then its very very difficult to get your life back.trust me you can make this a short 6 month thing that everyone forgets about in a couple of years or you can choose to turn it into something that defines the rest of your life, and try and see that that is a choice you make. To have anorexia proves you are capable of doing something when you put your mind to it no matter how uncomfortable it is, so put all that inner strength to good use and use it to beat this thing completely! I hope this helps sorry its a bit long.

mmm.. I know what you mean when i finish a meal i am like soooo much hungrier than when i started. Their doesn't seem to be a way to make myself feel full. Even if i feel sick from eating so much i am still hungry its really weird. I also wake up starved in the midde of the night and can't sleep because i am sooo hungry! I don't really have an answer sorry, But if anyone else could help it would be appreciated.

My GP ( who knew nothing about ed's) told me to go get chinese takeaway! and my aunty told me to just eat fruit and vergetables! I told her that was what got me this way in the first place! Once my teacher actually got my mum in trouble when she told her she had made me eat cheesecake at midnight to get my calories up because i wasfitting in my sleep! she said i should have a nice healthy salad instead!

I felt the same thing because when ever people ask me how things are going and how much i am eating they are always like o you really should try to get more "good calories" but the truth is you just can't get enough in only eating healthy foods. As long as you are eating some nutrious foods and then bulking up the meals with things like chocolate and desserts your doing great! I always try to have at least one nutrious food per meal. and then i add things like ice creams that still have dairy and protein and calcium but are high cal. Don't feel bad eating dessert comes with recovery! just enjoy it.

I would say that you are safe when it comes to refeeding syndrome, This only occurs after severe restriction when you suddenly increase calories by a substantial amount, say going from 200-1000 a day to 2500. The symptoms you describe sound more like symptoms of anorexia, especially the hair falling out and cold hands. You may be finding it hard to gain weight because you are not eating enough for what your body needs to reapair itself after the trauma its been through. I have found that i need between 4000-4500 to gain weight. I also found that in the begging i was constantly hungry even when eating, Its just your bodies way of telling you that you should keep on eating and not continue to starve yourself. You may want to check that you are actually eating as much as you say you are, I found writing down everything i ate with exact calorie amount was a good way to keep track. Most recovering ed's over estimate how much they eat. Keepon trying!