Hello there everyone!!!!!

Where shall i start???

My ultimate goal weight is 150. i have been up and down a few times over the last 10 years and i want a change. A change in my health and how i feel about myself. i want to feel sexy and get out and DOOO things that require high activities like hiking, bicycling, maybe kayaking or even going to the fair and be able to fit in the rides. i want to be active and stay active. i want to be able to say "WOW, Im so hot and sexy." i want others to see the shine in my eyes that comes with my confidence of looking and feeling good. i want the best lifestyle i could possibly have. i want to live a long long life of whatever comes my way.

      This is me...weighing 255 on June 7th 2010.
I have begun a journey. One that will take me to my limits and beyond. I am determined to concur this load that has festered upon me. A slooooooow creeping monster that has taken over my body like a parasite. i feel gross and blah. i know it is there and it will not go away. over ten years it has devoured me mentally and physically. i have known how much it has taken over me but i was to ignorant and ignored it.
      so now is a new beginning. a new me and a new way of thinking. this is not a diet, it is a lifestyle. i have gotten the courage to stand up to myself and say enuff is enuff. i took the deeper side of me and brought it the surface to let it all go. i know this will become the toughest battle i will ever face. i know it will not be easy. no matter how long it takes me or how far ill go to get there i know it will be victorious!!!