Posts by kiki_725

Hi,

Im not at a low weight now, i am 5ft 6 and currently weigh 59.2kg (my heaviest was 61ish) I was in recovery for anorexia but i am now at a healthy weight :)

I dont know all the answers but from what i have heard you are not 'recovered' unless you have been at target for 3 years, you dont count cals and you are not obsessed with body image and weight.

Also losing weight this early into recover is a BAD idea (It IS still ealry days, recovery is a LONG process. Its not just about getting to target, its much deeper than that). I talk from experience. Your not overweight and therefore you have no need to lose weight. Losing weight now could lead to a slippery slope and you may (i'm not saying you will) end up restricting etc etc etc. Is it possible to go to the gym to tone up? This may make you feel better about your body without losing weight.

Oh hun :(

I didnt know how much you were struggling with the ED. You are still under-eating and you are doing so but a huge amount! You NEED 2500. It doesnt matter how you eat it but you must start eating it! You have so much damage to repair and your body is crying out for cals. You also must stop working out. I did NO exercise when underweight OR gaining and i am NOT fat. Nor is there such a thing as 'skinny fat'. Please talk to your mum, tell her you need more help eating the cals. Talk to the boy. Talk to someone who can keep you on track. TBH you will probably need more than 2500 to gain at a slow and steady pace due to your job.

When you start gaining you know the weight will go to the places you least want it to (stomach) BUT the reason for this is your body is trying to protect your vital organs!!

Regarding exercise - you should stop cold turkey. Thats what would happen in IP and if you stop now you will learn how much you can maintain on. If you keep exercising when trying to reduce the cals to maintain after you have reached a healthy weight you may never feel able to not exercise as you may worry that you only maintain due to the exercise (I do hope what i am trying to say is clear!)

Love you hun <3

Original Post by annaattackk:

Original Post by kiki_725:

First i asked her about the information hedgren provides re bodies natural set weight, metabolism speeding up and maintaining on 2500 with little exercise and she said she had never heard anything like that before :s Now i dont know what to think...

mine said the same thing today and said the 2500-3000 was a load of crap. i kind of agree with her :x but do whatever u think will benefit you. you can fix yourmetabolism by eating any number of calories. doesnt have to be the magic '2500-3000'

 

Ugh, if only i knew what would benefit me.

Does you therapist agree with what Hedgren said about bodies set point and maintenance? I started off fat then became anorexic so for me all i think i can be is fat of skeletal. I have never been 'normal'

I'm also struggling as i just keep gaining. I started biking 40mins per day and its done NOTHING to slow my weight gain! I just dont understand!

I am over my target BMI (target weight was 55-57kg and i'm 5ft 6) currently i weigh 60kg and thats a BMI of 22ish. I'm never hungry and i dont have my periods yet but i have had 'signs' so i think they may return soon.

Original Post by missrising:

I think you should try and trust and work with your dietican. It's hard but i think that's the best thing to do. I think you have dropped yourself now to 2,000 without them agreeing.

I have phoned her to talk to her but she hasnt got back to me yet and i asked the ED unit here if i could talk to their dietitian and (again) i am waiting to hear back.

The last thing i want to do is keep damaging my body but i want some more structured guidance/ advice from them :(

Bump?

projectapril while underweight i believed what Hedgren said and i would have quoted it yo anyone who asked but not i'm at (and almost over) my target its much harder to believed.

Without any concrete evidence i dont feel able to believe others. It has to be my own evidence (as others could be lying) yet i am not able to let myself test her theory.

My other fear is that i was overweight before the ed and i would seriously rather die than be overweight again. I know this sounds extreme but i was so unhappy being fat before i lost weight and i am unhappy with how i look now so if i became overweight again i dont know how i would cope.

I tried talking to my dad about this and he didnt seem to walk to talk about it and i am sure they are fed up with my depressed moods sometimes i just want to vanish.

abbi333 I am finding eating hard full stop. I tried planning my foods but due to not being hungry i can end up at 9pm having only eaten 1000 cals. :/ Its just all going down hill and its not my aim to being skeletal again but i just dont want to be fat. If i could maintain now then i would be happier but i'm still gaining and it is this that is causing my restriction thoughts. Also i am having a hard time with my dietitian because she kept asking me to add meat into my PM but i'm a vegetarian. I kept saying that and she didnt listen. First she told me to add red meat, then chicken and then fish. How can a trust someone who dosent listen to something as simple as that??

I didnt know hedgren had made another journal entry. I will go check it out (TBH i have been away from CC for a while to focus on me and my recovery)

I (now) understand how important getting my periods back is (as a 14 year old deep in the ED i couldnt have cared less). I have been taking calcium tablets for 3+ years now so i hope that has had some positive effect on my bones.

I may pass on the choc chip cookie but will go for a white choc and raspberry ;)