Posts by kiki_725

I started this survey BUT decided not to do it for a few reasons.

WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THIS???

'is recovery worth it?'

Is recovery worth it??? SERIOUSLY??? YES IT IT! How can you even ask this?? I am actually so mad now that i can hardly think!

Is it worth being healthy, happy, functioning etc etc etc. seriously, that is what you are asking!

Hi,

Well, i guess you already know the answer to how to stop losing weight.... EAT!

I went from 850 cals right up to 2000 in one jump BUT i am at a higher BMI so that may not be best for you. Try eating 200 more each day until you get to 2500.

Your metabolism isnt 'screwed'. Yes ATM is slow, really slow, BUT if you eat 2500 EVERY DAY it will recover!

Read this daily!! HERE I swear it helps! Print it out and take it everywhere! Then when you feel like restricting read it!

When you first start to gain most/ all you gain is water weight. DONT PANIC! this is 100% normal and a sign repair is starting to happen.

taylor9403 - The ice cream oysters are wafer like oyster shells and in the middle is marshmallow goo. One 1/2 of the oyster is dipped into chocolate and then coconut. No ice cream involved TBH! A bit like this LINK but with marshmallow not ice cream :) (So i guess they should be marshmallow oyster shells)

baybeehannahx - I was so excited when i saw them! They were close to the floor in the sweet isle (just in case you live near a sainburys)

thebiggerpicture - JEALOUS!! I WANT TO GROW TOO! i have size 8 feet and i'm only 5ft 5! I'm hoping that its not too late to grow (i'm 22) as i dont want to look like a clown any more!

spiritriser - I am so so so happy for you!! That is awesome to hear! ALL of your eats look amazing today. Normal and amazing! You really are beating this ED! Yay!!

I had a mini (cough.... ok a big) hissy fit today. I have bought 2 packets of these quorn escalopes and put them in the freezer (in MY draw) My sister had already eaten one pack which i could ignore as i had another pack.... Yeah well last night she ate the other pack too! I had been looking forwards to them ALL DAY! I seriously flipped, threw things, cried, shouted etc. MAJOR over reaction i know BUT i am sick of her eating the food I bought for ME to try! I had even bought her 4 packs of other quorn so she wouldnt eat my food!!! Anyway this development meant packing more into snacks after tea :(

B - Porridge (2 packs) (270), Juice (250)

S - Boots meal deal (100) (after hair cut!! WOOP)

L Soup + bread (300), jelly and custard pudding (130)

S - Pop corn (200)

T - Veggies + quorn fillet an cream cheese (350)

S - Yogurt (200), biscuits (orange and chocolate) (200) Yogurt covered raisains, dried apricots and dried blue berries (500)

Total 2500

Up in weight too this week. Not sure how much as i guess some is water weight. Not sure if to up the cals or not. ED is saying i can gain on 2500 so why bother? If i up it and i dont need to i will just balloon (again the ED taking) Advice?

Recovery is like little bunny hops in the snow

Yeah, we all have a bad day once in a while but we must not let that stop us. We will pick ourselves up and carry on :)

I saw this on a mug an it made me smile from ear to ear -

Eat cake and move on (from wittards in anyone wants it )

Also this one (which many of us may already know)

Feel the fear and do it anyway

Keep strong people <3

georgieuk - Thank you for the letting me moan ;) Any time you need a moan i'm your girl! lol.

annaattackk - Thank you for the birthday wishes. We are all awesome :) I like that you dont eat proper meals too - and i like that you seem to eat quite often. I feel like i eat all the time and to see that this is 100% normal has made my morning :)

thatone1 - Again Thank you for the BDay wishes :) My smoothies tend to be shop bought - ATM i have innocent smoothies (they have free fridge magnets and i want the whole collection! Lol) I also buy smaller bottles when out - for example at work where i LOVE the banana one! (i like banana drinks just not bananas... odd!) - currently i am drinking Pineapple, Banana & Coconut smoothie by innocent :) Maybe i should make my own - but then again i'm way too lazy! ;)

oedipamaas - your lunch looks great! So scrummy!! I LOVE hummus!!

I went driving yesterday in my parents HUGE car. I learnt to drive in a fiat 500 (which is really small) and my parents have a rover 600 (which is like a 'normal' sized car but has a big bonnet and boot) and i almost had a nervous breakdown..... It was so stressful i started crying and my dad had to take over (even though he shouldnt as the Drs not yet said he can drive again after his Op.) It didnt help i had to go to the petrol station first.... Ugh. I want my own car (hint hint - Anyone want to give me one as a birthday prezzi? lol)

B - Cookie crisp, yogurt, coconut flakes (500)

S - Hershey kisses cookie and cream (I found these in sainsburys!!!!!! OMG!)(200) Strawberries (100)

L - soup - carrot and coriander + bread (300)

S - pop corn (200) Ice cream oysters (160)

T - innocent sweet chilli veg pot + veggies (350)

S - Yogurt (200) Orange and pecan biscuits (200) yogurt covered raisains + dried blueberries (290)

Total 2500 :)

Thank you. <3 Seriously. Thank you for letting me moan :)

This is the third time i have been going through recovery and everything seems different. I feel like Alice in wonderland or something. I am SO much better informed about EVERYTHING (seriously - NO ONE EVER told me that the weight redistributes before, i'm eating chocolate again, i'm (generally) happy) I honestly feel this time could be the last time. And its all due to people like you. <3

houseelf - I'm know what you mean about eating 2500 and not allowing yourself too go over. I also know how stuoid that is, i'm going to gain either way so why not just eat?!

chrissy1988 - I once read that recovery is like little bunny hops in the snow. I will try to remember that - try to remember that i wont just balloon! I will try to embrace the hunger although i fear that i am eating out of boredom. How do you know the difference?

xx

Again, Welcome.

Its great to hear that you are ready to beat this awful ED. I promise you it can be done and there is always hope :)

I may as well throw this out there... I found that i didnt really know enough about the ED when i was restricting. Yes i knew the obvious (cals, damage etc) BUT i there was so much i didnt know and it is only through this site i have been so much better informed regarding EDs.

Here are a few posts which have helped me so much. I hope they can help you too

1200?

ED is a chameleon :(

Helping me with starvation mode ( so down )

Further hedgren is AMAZING. Seriously when you need motivation just read something (anything) she has said! She knows her stuff!

And also, I do eat as well. I just don't eat as much as I should ( probably about 500 calories a day), but I also exercise too much.

Really? you call that eating? Thats not even enough for a 1 year old! AND you exercise?!?!?

Please stop the exercise. Pleas eat. I am scared for your life.

You looked amazing at your wedding and when you were a teen.

MYTH: Anorexics never eat

FACT: While in some extreme cases, the anorexic does not eat (unless they recover, however, they do not remain anorexic for long as they die), most anorexics actually do eat. They just eat very inadequate amount of calories a day. They may even eat a normal sized lunch in front of everybody to appear normal... but that might be ALL they eat.

I would eat a HUGE meal every night in front of my parents. Inc yogurts and biscuits. I justs ate all of about 150 cals before then...

MYTH: People who develop anorexia have a history of abuse or a dysfunctional family

FACT: Anorexia does not always have a clear cause. Sometimes anorexia just happens. 

At my assessment i was asked if i had ever been abused. They asked what had caused my ED and i explained what i thought had caused it and they asked 'No abuse.....?'  Er... no.... I had an amazing childhood thank you! No abuse!!

FACT: Nope. Many anorexics also suffer from body dysmorphic disorder and literally can not register themselves as skinny or emaciated. 

I honestly thought i could once live off an orange and my tea for the rest of my life! Now i cant imagine not eating as i do! I am so hungry all the time!! :)