So here I am.......... Up down, up down, that's how my weight seems to go. My own fault entirely I know. I eat and drink way to much and i don't do any exercise. In my head the way i look is not the reflection in the mirror. I still see me at about 150-140lbs, but having weighed myself this morning the scales are telling me about 200lbs. I tell myself that i'm happy how I am. I have a lovely boyfriend and a brilliant family and that i shouldn't be so hung up on appearance, but i know my health is being affected aswell. So today everything is changing. I just need to believe i can do it this time!! Wish me luck!!