kindmachine
| Member Since | Jun 7, 2006 |
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| Last Login | Nov 26, 2009 | |
| Location | Champaign IL US | |
| Website | Plain, boring old livejournal. | |
| MSN | kindmachine@hotmail.com | |
| Birthdate | 1985-03-15 | |
About
| Bio |  Well, let's see. Weight has been a problem for as long as I can remember: or, at least as early as kindergarten. I was overweight all through grade and middle school, and obese throughout the remainder of my teens and early twenties. I was treated brutally by the other children. I dropped out of school in seventh grade and never went back. I spent more time in psychiatric hospitals and residentials than out. For so long, there were so many things going on in my head that I didn't realise how big of a problem "fat" had become for me. My body image was(and is) terrifyingly bad. Deeply ingrained self-hate is hard to ignore. Of course there was more to everything than being a mountain of jelly, but it was/is suffocating, so present and so enormous. Bi-polar, anxiety, and OCD may suck, but at least they're not completely covering you, announcing themselves to strangers ahead of you. You don't have to wear personality disorders, or struggle with them and shove them into the largest pants in the mall. So. I decided to do something about it.  I started dieting in early March, 2006, and I'm happier, or, at least more content, than I've ever been. I haven't been this small since grade school, and for the first time in a long time, I feel I'm accomplishing something, doing something worthwhile. My mental state has improved with every shed pound. I'm taking elevators and touching door-knobs and stair-railings and interacting with strangers in public with something like ease.  I am most certainly not the most health-conscious dieter in the world. In all honesty, sound health is not my number one goal. It matters to me, but, not as much as it should. This August, I start college. I am interested in the future, and that's new to me.  On a more pleasant note, I enjoy drawing, reading, playing with my cat, taking walks in parks, creating pixel food, and avoiding television. I fall asleep easily, but I don't mind. Oh, and, thank you for reading this far.  |
| Interests | 31: art, biking, books, car trips, castrati, cats, childish cute things, comic books, disco, edie sedgwick, eroguro, figure skating, history, hk cinema, homosexual fiction, horses, museums, nutella, opera, public transportation, rice cakes, silence, snow, stationary, sweets, synthesizer music, taking pictures, udo kier, walking, water, words and language |
| Groups | 3: Want to Lose More Than 100 lbs, 20 Somethings, Female Calorie Counters (View Details...) |
| Friends | 5: abinakm, cam7506, in_reverie, lollipopfairy, x5452me |
| Friend of | 6: abinakm, cam7506, crazy_doofus, in_reverie, lollipopfairy, x5452me |
| Forum Posts | 2 posts (0 per day) All posts by kindmachine |
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