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Health & Support I'm not hungry physically, but my mind is going crazy telling me to eat?!? help :S Aug 09 2012
18:13 (UTC)
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Yeah I can see what you mean now. Thank you, I will try my best to increase my calories to 2000 as I can see now that I need this amount. Before this conversation I thought I was doing right by eating 1500-1600 calories but obviously not. 

Health & Support I'm not hungry physically, but my mind is going crazy telling me to eat?!? help :S Aug 09 2012
17:59 (UTC)
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I know it is but I don't want to gain anymore weight. I know if I gained more weight I would feel very uncomfortable as I'm very small boned and petite. Plus, I have regular periods so I see no need too. I did exercise whilst gaining weight yes << this I do not regret though as almost all of the weight I have gained has gone on as muscle. It took me around 6 months to gain a stone.

Health & Support I'm not hungry physically, but my mind is going crazy telling me to eat?!? help :S Aug 09 2012
17:49 (UTC)
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Yeah I have had anorexia so have recently gained around a stone in weight. I ate around 2000-2300 calories to gain.

Health & Support I'm not hungry physically, but my mind is going crazy telling me to eat?!? help :S Aug 09 2012
17:31 (UTC)
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Oh right yeah I see what you mean I've just calculated it myself and was surprised to see that I should be taking in 2150 :O. The only thing that concerns me is that I'm maintaining my weight eating 1500-1600 calories so if I increased say by 500 calories, wouldn't that cause me to slowly gain?, or would the initial weight gain just be temporary :S

 

Health & Support I'm not hungry physically, but my mind is going crazy telling me to eat?!? help :S Aug 09 2012
16:07 (UTC)
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I'm 19, 5 foot 2.5 inches, 105 pounds

-I do strength exercises for 50 mins 2x a week 

-20 mins of cardio 2x a week 

-and I do a brisk walk for at least an hour 7 days a week 

Health & Support I'm not hungry physically, but my mind is going crazy telling me to eat?!? help :S Aug 09 2012
13:57 (UTC)
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Original Post by amethystgirl:

You need to eat more.  1500-1600 is a weight loss amount. A healthy active young woman should be able to easily maintain on at least (if not more than) 2000 calories.

I don't think I need to eat more, according to many online calculators I should be having 1550 calories :S

Health & Support I'm not hungry physically, but my mind is going crazy telling me to eat?!? help :S Aug 09 2012
12:50 (UTC)
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Why do you think I should see a doctor? .. I don't think there is any need for me to seek medical help as I am eating now so its not like my body is in any danger. I know my BMI is on the low end of the healthy spectrum but I am happy at the lower end as I am only petite, any more weight and I'd look chubby. If I ate 2000+ calories I would gain which I do not want .. and 2500-3000 would cause me to become very uncomfortable because I would gain a lot of weight eating that amount. What multivitamin would you recommend?    

Health & Support PLEASE help me, my anorexia will not go away!?!? (TW) Jul 18 2012
18:52 (UTC)
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Yeah I know 1800 calories isn't enough but this is what I recovered on because I had no proffesional help and I was petrified of gaining weight. This fear has followed me all the way through my recovery and has never gotten any better. I have eaten an extra 300 calories today and I feel so anxious .. my stomach is churning and I feel like crying :(. I don't think I can do this anymore, seriously?! .. it seems so much easier to just relapse than to get better. 

I WANT to be able to eat a nice amount and enjoy life without all of this ED nonsense but I just can't bring myself to eat more, emotionally it makes me feel sick!!.

Arrrgh, I'm sorry for ranting I just feel so alone and trapped .... :(  

Health & Support Starting Uni in Sept, but still have massive issues with food. Jul 08 2012
20:12 (UTC)
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The course I'm doing requires me to be in uni for 37 1/2 hours a week, so yes I'm sure It'll be super busy!. The course is meant to be very challenging and extremely time consuming so maybe this will help me to focus on other things rather than food, calories, weight, exercise, ect.

This week I'm going to try my hardest to increase my calories a little bit, even if its a handful of nuts or a glass of fruit juice/milk. I want my time at Uni to be happy and enjoyable not consumed by anorexia because that is NOT fun!!  

Health & Support Starting Uni in Sept, but still have massive issues with food. Jul 05 2012
20:08 (UTC)
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peanutbuttercup and mimmz, thank you for your comments but I am not going to not go to Univeristy. I already deferred my place last year to this September because of my Anorexia, I refuse to let this stop me from doing a course that I've wanted to do. I know I'm in a bad place right now and it will be hard to get myself mentally ready in just 2 months time but I've got too there's no two ways about it. If I didn't take up my place this time, then I wouldn't be able to apply for the course again :/ .......................... why should I let Anorexia take this away from me?!?!?

Health & Support Starting Uni in Sept, but still have massive issues with food. Jul 04 2012
18:18 (UTC)
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anyone :(

Health & Support Body dysmorphia, *TW* Jun 26 2012
07:55 (UTC)
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I can relate to this!! ... I actually miss my skinny body and feel quite big now!. I suppose we've just got to realise that being a healthier weight has its perks; feeling healthy, healthy skin/hair/nails, having periods ect. Whereas being super skinny, is ALL negatives!, we might think that we look good but in reality people will think we look shockingly emaciated and very unhealthy. It is obvious that our need to hold on to our anorexic body is ED thoughts. It is sad that some of us can't accept comments expressing how well we look, when we have fought long and hard to get to where we are now.  

 

Health & Support Am I kidding myself or am I actually relapsing! Jun 22 2012
16:30 (UTC)
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Mrswilsonscat- thank you for that comment its really made me think. I think your right about my brain being starved because I feel so down and miserable, anything and everything is getting to me!. I mean I'm sitting upstairs in my room right now because me and my brother have just had a huge argument ... come to think of it, it was my fault. I just couldn't help but to take it out on him. I can tell that the way I am eating is affecting my mood because when I was eating more calories I was happy most of the time and now I feel anything but content.  

I'm feeling SO hungry so I know I'm not feeding my body what it needs. I just don't know how to get out of this downward spiral I've managed to get myself into, I feel as though I'm trapped now. Arrrgh I don't know what to do?!?, I want to be better but I don't know if I want it enough, I feel like I've got no fighting power left in me. Looking in the mirror, I feel like a bit of weight gone would do me good, but is this just ED thoughts ... I really don't know anymore :S

 

Health & Support Am I kidding myself or am I actually relapsing! Jun 22 2012
08:19 (UTC)
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berger_amanda, thank you for your comment. I think it is a matter of fact that I am relapsing and each day I'm getting worse. Yesterday I only ate around 1000 calories and when I got out of bed this morning I started to go light headed and everything became black for a quick second ... this is what used to happen at my worst with anorexia. I just feel as though I'm trapped again in the anorexic mindset and its going to be really difficult to pick myself back up again. I want to be strong enough to fight this relapse but for some reason it seems easier to give in. I've never fully got over this illness, I never ate enough to recover and I've never fully accepted that I can never be skinny again ... hmmm I dunno I know a part of me wants to get better, but I guess an even bigger part of me has just given up hope :(

Health & Support Am I kidding myself or am I actually relapsing! Jun 21 2012
19:23 (UTC)
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No one at all :(

Fitness Will two weeks of not exercising make a huge difference? :/ Apr 17 2012
16:01 (UTC)
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Thanks for replying. I feel so lazy for not exercising but when I stand up my head starts spinning and I go really light headed so I know it wouldn't be wise for me to exercise, plus I'm eating barely 1000 calories because I have no appetite. Do you think I could maybe go on a walk? .. I just feel so guilty because I'm lying around all day :/ 

Health & Support Need some opinions please!! :) Apr 12 2012
19:28 (UTC)
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Thanks both of you for you comments!

I think I'm going to gain some more weight even if I have gained because I don't think a few inches would hurt right?, sometimes I think I look kinda child like and I'd like to have some more womanly curves. I get told all the time that I'm skinny so I think that's a sign that I'm more on the skinny side and could afford to gain more.  

I feel strange saying this though and like its wrong ????? :/

Health & Support Could I be getting addicted to exercise? Mar 23 2012
19:43 (UTC)
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It sounds like you exercise quite a lot for someone who has just recovered from anorexia. It is good that you have recognised this though before it could become even worse of an addiction. I agree with cupcake45 on her suggestions. If you feel like you don't want to do exercise then don't! and make sure your eating enough too. On your other thread people advised you to eat more so I think you should make sure you remember this advice and follow it. 

You are such an inspiration on here and I think you have done a tremendous job on your recovery. Good luck Hayley x

Maintaining I can't seem to maintain my weight, arrrrgh help! Mar 21 2012
09:06 (UTC)
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Thanks for your comments. Its kinda hard to realise that a BMI of 19.2 is still on the low end of healthy because I feel content with where my body is now. I'm very petite so I feel a BMI over where I'm at now would look bulky on me :S. Also, if I ate 2500 I don't think that would solve my problems because its obvious that I would gain a lot of weight on this amount which I wouldn't be able to deal with mentally.

I am doing okay I would say :) I'm eating 1600 calories a day and I think its working, my clothes all fit me the same so I feel that I'm maintaining on this amount. I have maybe stepped up my exercise a little too :)

Maintaining I can't seem to maintain my weight, arrrrgh help! Mar 16 2012
09:18 (UTC)
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Why is it too low for a recovering anorexic? :S

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