September 30, 2009 Update: I have been here for a while, jumped in, jumped off...but I have gained all but 30lbs of my weight back. I started my journey before joining CC so it has been a long one for me...I am back this time for good, to get the support and help that I need to lose 46lbs or so...to be healthy...Here is my story and why I am here.....

I woke up one day at 228lbs....I had been involved with someone the night before..he told me has was not sexually attracted to me...I had never had that happen before..but then again I had never been that big....A year later and 28lbs heavier....I decided that I had to do something...I could barely walk, let alone walk 2 flights of stairs everyday at work...I could not keep up with my son...how as a parent could I sit on the sidelines and watch my son play sports but I could not even walk a mile? Off to Kmart I went...I bought myself a Gazelle...that was the best $100 I ever spent..I lost 30lbs over 5 months...I know it was quick but my body did not want that weight.......That was March 2005...it is now 2009 and I am back at 196 depending on the day....I am back on my LIFE MISSION...and I vowed never to go back to the OLD unhappy FAT me...yet here I am still overweight...and gained back 30 of the 70lbs I had lost....

Life took over and I "gave" up the healthy lifestyle that I had been living for almost 4 years..the junk food has come back, the laziness takes over as I rather sit and watch tv than workout...I have pulled out the Gazelle and dusted it off, trying to mentally get back on it

...as for that man from 8 years ago...he is a major part of my life now..we have been a couple for almost 4 yrs....not only because I am a different person, but because he is too....I needed to be healthy and he needed to grow up....It was his honesty with me that "woke me up" to the fact that I was killing myself with food....No I did not change my life for him.....it was for myself first, then my son....but his "words" are always in the back of my mind...I will never be "her" again!!!! 

So here I am back on my journey to be healthy.....