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Motivation Wagon Jumpers October 19-25: Nuturing and Self-sabotage Oct 26 2014
04:53 (UTC)
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I eat a medium banana every single morning for breakfast.

I eat half a large honey crisp apple several nights a week as one of my two "dinner carbs" If they aren't in season, I will switch out and go for Fuji or Gala.

When my wonderful DH has other fruits (usually melons or strawberries), I always steal a bite or two.

Stone fruits and citrus fruits don't work well for me, at all ~ so I avoid them.  And grapes are way too high in sugars for me.

Motivation Wagon Jumpers October 19-25: Nuturing and Self-sabotage Oct 25 2014
04:13 (UTC)
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Original Post by x-lawrence:

Original Post by Mollybygolly:

Some happy Friday developments to share ~



The scale moved ... YAY! FINALLY! (I had to wait for my period to end ~ and what a special joy that was to try to get in some biking while dealing with THAT
Total weight loss: 105.8 pounds!!



Anyway, I'm off to Trader Joes to celebrate with ... you guessed it ... the purchase of MORE VEGGIES!

Molly will you give us a sense of why you started to lose weight and what points were particularly difficult if any along the way?

I was "motivated" to get back on the wagon and start eating better/losing weight when two things collided: my increasing mobility impairment and the fact that my husband was leaving town for work for 3 months. I'd gotten so fat and out of shape that my knees couldn't really handle my weight, my asthma was ridiculously out of control, and I could barely make it from the house to the mailbox ... much less walk around a grocery store. My blood pressure was also sky high and my diabetes was "poorly controlled."

For three months (June, July, August), all I could do was drastically change my eating habits. I wasn't healthy enough to exercise (high blood pressure), so all I could do was flounder into our pool and then "lightly tread water." I made a commitment to myself to eat healthy and stay on track for 90 days ... no eating out, no cheating, no unaccounted for calories. And I did that. And I lost 75 pounds in those 3 months. (In all fairness, it's probably easier to lose a chunk of weight in 3 months if you start as fat as I was than for people with less excess weight.)

Then, in September, I started biking. Slowly. Around the block. Up and down the street. Not every day, but 3-4 days every week. And since then, I've been slowly building up my stamina, strength and endurance. I lost 15 pounds in September (month #4 for me). And now it's October (month #5) ... and I'm looking to match that.  Yes, I know things will be slowing down ... but I'm not done yet ~ not by a long shot. So I will just keep eating healthier and biking my butt off ;)

What's difficult?

Adjusting to the weight loss slowdown ... it feels disappointing sometimes, like I'm not trying hard enough. I beat myself up over eating a few extra slices of turkey, or not biking more often. I second-guess my decision not to reduce my calories further. It's also very depressing to realize that I've lost 105+ pounds and I'm STILL ridiculously fat. Some days, I look in the mirror and see a difference ... other days, I look in the mirror and I don't. It's also difficult, some days, being bombarded with advice from everyone about what I could or should be doing ... and much of the advice is conflicting. Some days, I just want to tell these well-intentioned people to shut up and leave me alone.

It's also difficult realizing that restaurants are not my friend, and very little that's prepared and served out there will easily fit into my healthy eating plan or goals. It's also frustrating that every single holiday seems to center around food, every event, every celebration. It's hard to bring my healthy lunch to work and have coworkers eating things I just can't eat right now. And, frankly, some days I get so sick of veggies and lean protein that I could scream. So I'm learning to process my emotions and frustrations and anxieties through things OTHER than eating. Emotional eating got me here. And I don't want to STAY here.

Motivation Wagon Jumpers October 19-25: Nuturing and Self-sabotage Oct 25 2014
03:56 (UTC)
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x-lawrence ~ I take apple cider vinegar tablets and cinnamon capsules daily. (I also take fish oil, flax seed oil, garlic, vitamin e and cranberry)

Motivation Wagon Jumpers October 19-25: Nuturing and Self-sabotage Oct 25 2014
03:51 (UTC)
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Barry ~ I get between 1700-1800 calories per day ... it varies some because I don't bother to look up the calories in 10 spears of asparagus or a plate full of steamed baby bok choy ;)

I'm on a high fiber, low fat, veggie+lean protein centric diet, because I'm convinced that the food we eat (and the combinations of foods) matter as much as just "calories in and calories out," at least for me... and because that sort of diet works for my lifestyle and health issues. I'm also eating fish at least 3 days a week, sometimes 5 or 6 days a week.... getting in those healthy micronutrients.

And when I say high fiber, I mean HIGH fiber. My standard breakfast has 38g of fiber. Then my standard lunch has 10 different veggies, and my standard dinner has another 6-8 veggies. I eat a lot of different veggies to ensure I'm getting as much nutrition as I possibly can. I also rotate my proteins for variety and nutrition: salmon, tilapia, tuna, low fat cottage cheese, egg whites, lean sirloin, lean turkey, lean chicken, lean ham.

What I ate today:

BREAKFAST: Original Fiber One with unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze, banana blended with ice in a protein shake ~ YUM!! (38g fiber!)

LUNCH: Turkey and eggplant hummus on corn cakes, cooked spinach, mustard greens, collard greens and turnip greens; and a salad: cucumber, radishes, carrots, tomatoes, kidney beans and garbanzo beans

DINNER: Chicken sausage with lentils, steamed baby bok choy, and a salad: mushrooms, hearts of palm, red pepper and tomatoes.

SNACK: hardboiled egg whites, salmon, 2 tomato wraps (25 calories each)

*   *   *

I biked 9.5 miles this morning, and then another 4.3 miles tonight.

Motivation Wagon Jumpers October 19-25: Nuturing and Self-sabotage Oct 24 2014
16:30 (UTC)
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Some happy Friday developments to share ~

As some of you know, I'm diabetic and I take insulin. We decided that it was time to adjust downward my 40 units of long-acting insulin that I take for overnight (to combat what's called "The Dawn Effect").  We decided to reduce my insulin since my morning blood sugars were significantly lower for me than they had been. Any how, we halved the dosage down to 20 units overnight and see how my blood sugars were in the morning. (If I don't take enough insulin, I wake up with high blood sugar ... not scary high, anymore ... but definitely a sign that I've cut too much.) Anyway, switched from 40 units down to 20 units and my blood sugars this morning (first day) were ..... 105! Woot! Woot! Smack-dab in the middle of the 80-126 range! YAY!!! We will do this for a few days ... maybe a week ... and check my numbers ... and then call this a permanent decrease! WOOOT! WOOT!

The scale moved ... YAY! FINALLY! (I had to wait for my period to end ~ and what a special joy that was to try to get in some biking while dealing with THAT
Total weight loss: 105.8 pounds!!


I think my biking is definitely keeping my weight loss going, though (of course) it's slowing down. November 1 is the 5-month anniversary of when I started this healthy eating/weight loss quest and that's just a week from tomorrow! SQUEE! I lost 15 pounds in September, and I'd love to match that in October, with biking (since I have no desire to reduce my calories)! We'll just have to wait-and-see what my body decides to do, right?

Anyway, I'm off to Trader Joes to celebrate with ... you guessed it ... the purchase of MORE VEGGIES!

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 24 2014
16:27 (UTC)
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Some happy Friday developments to share ~

As you know, I'm diabetic and I take insulin. We decided that it was time to adjust downward my 40 units of long-acting insulin that I take for overnight (to combat what's called "The Dawn Effect").  We decided to reduce my insulin since my morning blood sugars were significantly lower for me than they had been. Any how, we halved the dosage down to 20 units overnight and see how my blood sugars were in the morning. (If I don't take enough insulin, I wake up with high blood sugar ... not scary high, anymore ... but definitely a sign that I've cut too much.) Anyway, switched from 40 units down to 20 units and my blood sugars this morning (first day) were ..... 105! Woot! Woot! Smack-dab in the middle of the 80-126 range! YAY!!! We will do this for a few days ... maybe a week ... and check my numbers ... and then call this a permanent decrease! WOOOT! WOOT!

The scale moved ... YAY! FINALLY! (I had to wait for my period to end ~ and what a special joy that was to try to get in some biking while dealing with THAT
Total weight loss: 105.8 pounds!!


I think my biking is definitely keeping my weight loss going, though (of course) it's slowing down. November 1 is the 5-month anniversary of when I started this healthy eating/weight loss quest and that's just a week from tomorrow! SQUEE! I lost 15 pounds in September, and I'd love to match that in October, with biking (since I have no desire to reduce my calories)! We'll just have to wait-and-see what my body decides to do, right?

Anyway, I'm off to Trader Joes to celebrate with ... you guessed it ... the purchase of MORE VEGGIES!

Motivation Wagon Jumpers October 19-25: Nuturing and Self-sabotage Oct 20 2014
16:36 (UTC)
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After Nov 5, I'm game ... unbelievably busy at work until then (big fundraising event at the beginning of November!) :)

Motivation Wagon Jumpers October 19-25: Nuturing and Self-sabotage Oct 19 2014
21:33 (UTC)
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1. Do you sabotage yourself and your goals? If so, how? 

In the past, I didn't really self-sabotage, I just get burnt out on crash dieting, refuse to eat any more vegetables and to count calories, and STOPPED dieting. Which meant I returned to overeating and eating the wrong stuff, and I regained all the weight and then some. I seem to have an "all or nothing" approach to healthy eating ... I'm either REALLY doing it (completely), or I'm absolutely NOT doing it. But when I'm REALLY doing it ... I'm pretty anal-retentive, competitive, and self-motivated. I've been now eating healthy for the last 20 weeks (as of yesterday) without one "cheat" ... not one thing that I didn't plan for and intend to eat. (I do plan several meals per week of extra calories and more flexibility now that I passed the 90-day mark) So .... I need to figure out how to avoid burnout and just STOPPING.

2. How could you modify your behavior to nurture yourself instead?

This time, I'm not doing the extreme approaches to weight loss I've done in the past. I'm trying not to freak over how many carrots I ate. I'm allowing myself 1800 calories per day. I'm trying not to be controlled by what the scale is (or isn't doing). I'm giving myself more grace.

3. What topic or question would you like to see in upcoming weeks?

I wouldn't mind a discussion on fiber, getting the proper balance of fat-protein-carbs, and anything and everything having to do with veggies. Also, tips and techniques for making reasonable choices in restaurants.

(For anyone who cares, I passed the 100-pounds-lost milestone this week and I'm now at 102 pounds lost)

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 19 2014
21:24 (UTC)
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"You're shopping for clothes again?" asked my wonderful DH last night as I was ... you guessed it ... shopping online for clothes again. As you might have surmised, snarky fat women who have lost 102 pounds no longer can wear most of the clothes that we USED to wear, necessitating the need to acquire new clothes in smaller sizes. Granted, I DID have clothes in my closet and drawers covering an amazing range of shapes and sizes and some items work fine even when loose and "comfy," ya know? (Especially when I'm doing something glamorous like weeding the flower beds or scooping litterboxes or riding my bike around the neighborhood.) But while I did just go online and pick up bike shorts in three colors (black, blue and purple) in smaller sizes, since I'm biking a lot these days and I at least want my pants/shorts to fit properly. AND my underwear, thank you very much. And ~ as depressing as it sounds ~ I think I've lost weight in my already small boobs, making me more flat-chested than ever. Seriously? Why take what little padding I had up there when there's still MORE than enough available fat lower down, trust me. <snort>

Yesterday was the 20-week mark, and I've lost 102 pounds. Woot! Woot! I did have one internet friend mention that if I'd take my weight loss "seriously" like they do on the Biggest Loser TV show, and if I'd commit to working out 6 hours a day and I'd slash my calories down to 1200 or less, I'd be "a lot further along right now, which would be a LOT more impressive."  I resisted the urge to tell her exactly what I thought of her crappy advice and just did a happy "Block and Delete" on Facebook. Nope, I have no plans to work out 6 hours a day. I'm not training for the Olympics, I'm learning a new lifestyle. Before I lost enough weight to be allowed to exercise, I treaded water in the swimming pool ~ which was all I was allowed to do. So I did that. Now, I ride my bike. Sometimes. Not every day. And not the same amount when I do. Some days I ride twice, some days I don't. And it's not a fancy bike. It doesn't have speeds. It's suitable for me ... a snarky fat chick with two bad knees, severe asthma, and a willingness to pedal. I like my happy purple-and-lime green beach cruiser. And I biked 9.3 miles on it this morning. Which ~ believe me ~ is WORK when you're as fat and out of shape as I am! And who snuck all these hills and speed bumps into my supposedly flat neighborhood?

I have always been annoyed by acquaintences who start selling some "fabulous product" from home ... and who want me to come over for a party to learn all about it.... especially when I don't seem to get any calls or emails or social invitations from them UNTIL they're selling whatever they are selling. Currently, I'm ESPECIALLY annoyed by people I know who want to sell me "weight loss products."  Seriously? I've lost 102 pounds in 4.5 months ... don't you think whatever I'm doing might actually be .... ummmm... working? Apparently not, since I've had 3 different people try to sell me the same protein shakes this week. For the record, I actually LIKE the designed-for-diabetics protein shake mix that I am happily buying from the nice people at Amazon.com.  The brand is Extend ... and I like the vanilla and the strawberry ones. Just 110 calories, 15g protein, 5g fiber, 1g sugar. I have mine with a medium banana, a Diet Mountain Dew, and 12 ice cubes. And then I have a side of original Fiber One and unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze. It works for me.... why would I want to change it just because someone else thinks their pricey shakes are "better."  (I will usually respond with "better how? How do you know what's in my current protein shake to say yours is better?")

You know what was nice this week?
I got a nice compliment from the lady who cuts my hair.  I got a nice compliment from a lady in my neighborhood. And I got a friendly wave this morning from some incredibly buff male cyclists wearing full cycling apparel and flying by on bikes that weigh less than my left shoe. One even yelled "Good for you! Keep pedaling!" I thought that was pretty cool. And I realized that my asthma is much better, too. In fact, I haven't had to use my fast-acting inhaler since AUGUST. I don't think I've gone 50+ days without using it in 15+ years. Woooo HOOO!

I may not be the Biggest Loser, but I feel like the Biggest Winner ;)

Motivation One Day at a time Oct 16 2014
04:05 (UTC)
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Good for you!

What did you see on your walk today that made you smile?

Motivation Wagon Jumpers: Oct 12-18:Dream Goal Oct 16 2014
04:03 (UTC)
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I know I'm new here ... but I wanted to share. After 4.5 months of healthy eating, I weighed in this morning and I've lost 100 pounds.

Onward ...

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 15 2014
14:56 (UTC)
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I've lost 100 pounds!
I've lost 100 pounds!
I've lost 100 pounds!


(We now return to your regularly scheduled programming)

 

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 13 2014
15:50 (UTC)
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For those of you keeping track of these sorts of little things, it's Monday Morning and I'm now at .... 99.4 pounds lost! Woot! Woot!

I hope to chase down that elusive 100-pounds-lost mark later this week or maybe early next week.

(grin)

Motivation Wagon Jumpers: Oct 12-18:Dream Goal Oct 13 2014
15:47 (UTC)
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Imagine you have reached your ultimate Calorie Count Goals.You are fit, healthy, and at your goal weight. If you have reached this goal, congratulations!

 A) How would your life change? What does your daily life at goal weight/fit/healthy look like in your imagination?

B) Once you reach your Wagon Jumpers goal, what will be the first three things you will do?

1. No more insulin shots! No more insulin shots! No more insulin shots! Oh, and I can fly on an airplane (and fit better in the seat) and travel! Woo hooo! Did I mention no more insulin shots?

2. Shopping for new clothes, of course! Then starts the joy of maintaining .... more calorie counting, and more biking!

:D

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 11 2014
19:32 (UTC)
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We biked 8.8 miles this morning ~ that's my longest ride (in one sitting!) I'm pooped! I never cease to be amazed at the idiot drivers who nearly run me over when I'm crossing IN THE CROSSWALK, at a light, with the pedestrian light permitting me to cross. I'm rather hard to miss on my purple and lime green bike, wearing purple bike shorts, a purple tank top, wearing purple and orange shoes and then wearing a lime green visor and a big reflective green belt around my basket! (Heck, I'm half surprised the fashion police didn't pull me over to offer me a starring role on "What NOT to Wear!") Plus I was repeatedly TING-ting-tinging my bell with one hand and literally waving my right hand over my head to attract attention. SHEESH. At least the nice lady driving BEHIND the idiot saw me, and smiled as she shook her head at the doofus. But, seriously, I had to SLAM on my breaks 2/3s across a busy intersection because he just pulled out in front of me to make a right turn on a red light (which is legal ONLY if the Crosswalk is empty) Arrrrrggggh.

Anyway, that encounter (near the start of my ride) pretty muched morphed into me ranting on my ride to my entertained wonderful DH about drivers, idiots in general, dieting, the weather, global warming, the repulsiveness of radicchio, and my various fat-bodied, nearly-50-years-old assorted and sundry aches and pains.  Fortunately, there weren't a lot of people around to hear my rants. Finally, I just kept repeating that I had a sore butt from biking, and I decided to ask my wonderful DH how to say that in Spanish. (Heck, why not learn a foreign language while ranting, right?)  So ... he taught me to say "Mi trasero me duele." So I proceeded to say it repeatedly, and then decided to sing it to the tune of "The sun'll come out tomorrow" (from the musical, Annie.) So, I just kept huffing and puffing and pedaling and singing this loudly ~ right up until the time I realize that we'd stopped for a water break right next to a group of (apparently) Spanish-speaking guys trimming trees who all started laughing and grabbing their butts for me. It was sort of an embarrasing, but highly entertaining, bonding experience. <snort>

My wonderful DH came into the family room this morning and reported that the "scale was in a good mood this morning" (she can be pretty persnickety, some days) and wanted to make sure I took the opportunity to step on her. But I already had ... lost a wee bit more! Woot! Woot! AND she didn't make me get on and off her 14 times to get the same weight TWICE. (That's my rule ... I need the same weight twice. Not twice in a row, or I'd spend days on the scale, LOL.) Anyway, my current weight loss at 19 weeks of dieting is .... (drumroll, please) ... 97.4 pounds! Yep, I am slowly but surely sneaking up on that nifty "100 pounds lost" mark ... which I hope to hit in the next week or two. It's hard to say with my body ... when I'm watching the scales and trying to hit some self-imposed goal or milestone, my scale and my body conspire together to screw things up and slow things down. That's OK, I've bought more chard and I'm NOT afraid to use it, bwahahahahahaha!

If you're driving, please watch out for cyclists and pedestrians. And share some Spanish with a friend: "Mi trasero me duele."

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 11 2014
19:32 (UTC)
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Actually, I really LIKE the Laughing Cow little wedges, and recommend it for dieters who want some pretty decent cheese. It's great added to a sammy, or spread on something suitable, or even eaten (slowly, savoring it) as is. I've got some in the fridge for when I just need some cheese.

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 11 2014
16:26 (UTC)
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::: grins ::: 

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 10 2014
15:35 (UTC)
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. . o O (In the Cheese War, are the Swiss still neutral?) ;)

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 09 2014
21:19 (UTC)
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I admit it. Sometimes, I buy what's euphemistically called "diet food" (but which often could be more properly called "mysterious chemical-laden allegedly low calorie foodlike substance.") Let me just say that I've been a diabetic for 20+ years, so I am not freaked out about artificial sweeteners and I don't avoid them like many non-diabetics do. That being said, I do monitor how much artificial sweetener I eat and at least try to switch them up so that I'm not overindulging in just one. Heh heh .... "overindulging" ~ does sprinkling some fake sugar on my bowl of cardboard hamster food (that would be original Fiber One) every morning COUNT as "overindulging?" After all, that's pretty much the only artificial sweetener I intentionally add to my food. Anyway, before anyone feels the overwhelming compulsion to lecture me on the alleged dangers of artificial sweeteners, let me just say: don't. I've heard it, and I'm eating some anyway. And for those who want to urge me to use agave or Stevia, them me just point out that both of those give me hives. Big red welts. So, onward to my rant about "diet food!"

Not long ago, I was in the grocery store staring wistfully at the cheese. I love cheese. In fact, I am more than capable of ingesting an entire 1,000+ calorie wedge of brie in one sitting. By itself, though I understand the conventional wisdom is to actually eat it with crackers. I love cheese so much that I once named an entire litter of foster kittens after cheese! (Chedder, Brie, Colby and Jack!) Right now, between my desire to keep my fats to 15 percent of my daily calories (for medical reasons) and my desire to avoid pesky lactose intolerance symptoms, my cheese intake has been largely limited to lowfat Lactaid cottage cheese of which I eat two one-half cup servings per week, along with smoked salmon, as part of my yummy dinners. So ... I spotted the plastic wrapped rubbery Kraft fat free singles in the "sharp cheddar" flavor (just 25 calories each) and thought, "HEY! I can fit that into my daily calorie budget!"  So I bought the package, noting that the fat free version was fully TWICE the price of the regular version. (I've never tried the regular version ... why would anyone not counting fats and calories want to buy weirdly rubbery plastic wrapped fake cheese slices?) Anyway, I assume that the price is the store's way to try to protect unsuspecting consumers from making unwise culinary choices. Or they're trying to profit from cheese-deprived desperate fat chicks ~ I am not sure.

Normal cheese doesn't stick to its plastic wrapper (if it even HAS a plastic wrapper.) This cheese does. It can also stick to your teeth ... something I usually only encounter when eating something wonderful and caramel.  Normal cheese actually melts when you expose it to a heat source. This cheese either remains unmelted, or it starts bubbling and bursting into flame in the microwave or toaster oven. Seriously, I haven't figured out yet how to properly melt it.... it's either hot/rubbery and unmelted, or inferno. When I mentioned this quandary to my wonderful DH, he just grinned and said "You're trying to figure out how to properly melt the equivalent of a beach ball in the microwave?" <snort>  OK, that was a semi-helpful perspective.

I haven't decided why I keep trying to figure out how best to eat my plastic-y fake 25-calorie cheeselike slices. Mainly, I suppose, because they're paid for (and I can be thrifty up to a point ~ you'll recall that I finally admitted defeat and refused to finish my radicchio) and because I'm stubborn. What can I say? If I can't have the REALITY of cheese, I am at least attempting to joyfully embrace the CONCEPT of cheese. Anyway, I finally finished the last two slices today (quartered, and added with some turkey atop some organic non-GMO corn thin cakes.) Disclaimer: I don't know why I felt compelled to tell you that they were organic and non-GMO ... probably because when I recently mentioned to some Paleo people that I was eating something that contained corn, they started shrieking about the evils of corn! My goal in life is to have fewer people start randomly shrieking at me.  YES, I eat corn. I eat my organic, non-GMO imported-from-Belgium thin corn cakes AND I eat organic corn on the cob purchased from either Whole Foods or Trader Joes or my local independent grocer. I like corn. I do well with corn (blood sugar wise). I'm not giving up my corn.

For the record, I promise to NEVER put fake cheese on my corn ~ that should make you all feel better.

Motivation Molly's Diet Rants Oct 08 2014
16:54 (UTC)
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That sounds like a tasty salad! For dressing, I've been using some (sugar free) asian salad vinegar, some Ponzu sauce (sort of a mixture of soy sauce and lemon juice) and then I sprinkle some ground sun dried tomatoes over all my veggies ~ quite zippy and tangy ... and that really fits my savory loving flavor profile.

Since I have salads twice a day (lunch and dinner) most days, I switch off which veggies I eat when!

Lunch salad: Cucumber, radishes, tomatoes, carrots, kidney beans, garbanzo beans.  (I also eat cooked greens at lunch ~ separately ~ for more veggies)

Dinner salad: Romaine, red/yellow/orange pepper, hearts of palm, a few marinated mushrooms. (I also eat corn on the cob and usually one other cooked veggie ~ separately ~ for more veggies at dinner!)

Other salad veggies I like (but just eat less often): pea pods, jicama, avocado, edamame ... there may be others I'd pick off a salad bar, but that I just don't eat on salads at home: red onion, etc.

Salads really are a great way to get in your veggies! :)

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