Posts by mynameismonkey

Canesten Duo is a flucanozole capsule to take and then also the clotrimazole cream to apply. Just thought it might be useful to have the generic drug name as well as the trade name in case it's called something different in Spain.

Generally, your best bet would be to talk to a pharmacist out there and they will be able to help I'm sure :) 

Original Post by tincognito:

I hope you don't take this the wrong way, because I'm pretty sure I'm going to come off as a creeper, haha. But I've kind of been "following" you since you posted a post called "Dear Bulimia." I was so taken aback by it - it was so candid and honest, and I never read such a moving account of such a terrible disease. I honestly didn't have any idea what to say. Nothing I have been through in my life could possibly compare to anything you have experienced in yours. I felt that anything I said would be meaningless to you.

Every so often I would look you up and see if you posted anything - I guess I was just fascinated that someone in your position could actually be alive. And I thought for sure you had died when you must've gone to inpatient and stopped posting journal entries. It was a weird feeling for me to be overwhelmed with horror that a complete stranger died. And it was weird to feel such saddness that I had never said anything, that you didn't even know that there was someone who was checking in on you, who cared in a tiny way and was hoping to see you make it out.

So I just really wanted you to know I am so encouraged that you posted!! And I am glad that you are alive! And I want to tell you that this guy is totally full of ****! Don't even listen to him. You can't possibly even have any muscle right now to exercise, let the muscle grow first. To boot, we need some fat to support our muscle and insulate our organs! And you are not eating too much! Plenty of healthy people eat that much every day. Honestly, is there any way you can ask never to have to be "counseled" by him again?

You are so much stronger than me, it's almost embarrassing for me to even be posting this. As if I could possibly claim to be qualified to give YOU "advice." There are plenty of things I am not proud of about myself, but to be able to admit them not only to a doctor but to a public forum... I don't know that I could. But one thing I do know is that someone with such strength also possesses the strength to love themselves enough to face this head on and do what is right. So that they have the chance to use that strength for something more than simply living day by day. You certainly don't have to respond to this, I'm afraid nothing I have said is of much consequece, but I felt I had to say something because I am in fact rooting for you. =)

I second ALL of this! ^^^

Yoga has been fantastic for me. If it's ok with your medical team, maybe you would be allowed to try some light hatha-style stretching? There are plenty of videos on youtube and I've really felt a lot better since I startedd. Just so much more 'in balance' and much calmer.

But do check with the doctor or whoever is supervising your recovery first, as you are at a very low weight and even light exercise may be too much for your body to handle.

My ED has ruined my whole uni experience and taken away a lot of my 'youth' so to speak - times when I should be going out, having fun and meeting new people have been lost because either my ED wouldn't let me take part in social occasions because they revolved around eating and drinking, or because I felt too fat to go out, or because not eating made me tired, cold and hungry and depressed.

However, my ED was sparked in start by the fear of going away from home to college, so there wasn't a lot I could do before I went away in order to recover.

What I didn't do is recover 'properly' or get the help I needed from professionals. If I had done, my whole uni experience would have been different. It would have been an experience. Instead, I've just got regrets.

Recover as soon as you can, and work with professionals if you can get access to that kind of help. You only have one shot at life. Give it your all and don't waste time...

Take care x

Honey, I've been through this and as hard as it is to hear, I think you know what you will be told is that you need to see a doctor. Honestly, it's one of the toughest things to summon up the courage to do but it's really the best way of getting yourself out of this mess before it spirals and gets even worse! Things like this are so addictive - that's why you need to see a professional sooner rather than later and catch it before it's too late!

Do the right thing :) Seek help from a medical professional.

Take care x

England! Though I wish I lived in Spain and will hopefully move there after Uni :) I'm very jealous of you! 

Jo 

http://www.balancek.com/index.jsp
 

Seems almost like a Spanish version of CC

I'm back too! Time to lose the 10-14lbs I've gained since my exams in May and my very long, very lazy summer at home (where there were far too many tempting foods)

Good luck I'm sure we can do this :) 

Original Post by tikiremy:

Original Post by mynameismonkey:

Thanks for taking the time to reply again.

My stats are 5'4", weight: 120-121 (Goal is 110-112), age: 20

I'm definitely not eating prepackaged/salty foods. I don't really like them. And I mainly just have fruits as a breakfast and then some at about 3-4pm when I have my mid afternoon munchies really. Other than that I mainly eat vegetables like for lunch and dinner such as soups and salads. On occasion, maybe once every week/couple of weeks I will eat prawns. I don't eat meat but I do eat fish. My main weakness is my love of Diet Pepsi, but I drank it throughout my weight loss so I don't see why that would suddenly make me start to gain weight, and I satisfy my sweet tooth with fruit as I have previously stated.

With regards to exercise, I'm rubbish at strength training so I never have done it...I get bored by it easily and I am not very strong so I get really discouraged. Mainly my exercise is cardio by running. However now that I am home and not at Uni I am doing skipping for ~45mins and might start kickboxing again and playing tennis like I used to before I left home.

My body fat percentage (crudely measured by BIA on my scales at home) has also gone up by about 2% which implies at least some of the weight gain is fat. 

I swear, if it wasn't so frustrating and upsetting, I would probably consider it some kind of alchemy that my body can turn fruit and veg into fat with such ease! lol!

I had an idea this would be approximately your answer. I have a few tips for you:

1. Your goal weight is very close to the lowest weight possible at our height without being underweight. Most people don't reach this weight or maintain this weight naturally. I believe the cutoff is 107 at 5' 4". I know we're all made differently, but if you have to consistently restrict calories to maintain a weight that low, then it's not a natural weight for your body. On the other hand, 120 is healthy and actually is thin, and seems to be where your body has gotten comfortable.

2. I sure hope you're getting your protein and fat from somewhere! I know you haven't listed all the foods you're eating, but the main thing that I'm seeing is fruits/veggies which is great, but if you only eat seafood occasionally, I hope you're getting a fair amount of protein from other sources. One thing I don't see at all is fat in your diet. Fat is essential, so hopefully you're getting enough of that too!

3. If your concern is body fat percentage, strength training is key. While it may not be safe for you to reduce fat, it is better to increase muscle. This makes your measurements smaller because a pound of muscle packs tighter than a pound of fat. Let me know if you want to hear more about strength training. It's great for your health.

4. Even really good body fat calculators have errors greater than 2% sometimes, and you said you used a crude one. This means that 2% could be a false change, and could be based on how hydrated you were one day, etc. It would take 5 weeks of eating 500 calories over limit to gain 5 pounds of fat, so I doubt that happened.

After all, you haven't told us approximately how many calories you used to eat or are eating now, so it's hard to say if you're going over your limit or undereating.

 I've read and considered everyone's replies. Thanks for all the information and advice. I'm definitely focusing on getting more active again!

And tikiremy: Some more info about strength training would be good, please. I have no idea where to start with it all...reps and sets and what exercises all seems a little overwhelming and my brother, who studies physical education, says that girls shouldn't do strength training and my mum agrees with him.

I am including everything i eat in my food log but, even with exercise being more sporadic, I am still running a similar caloric deficit...hence my confusion :-s

But thanks for your reply