I am a mom of 4 beautiful children 15,11,8, & 5.  1 girl 3 boys.  I am quite experienced as a chauffeur, teacher, nurse, cook and waitress,  a maid,  programs leader and a psychologist.  So yup I do it all.  If you haven't figured it out I am a stay at home mom!!!!

Unfortunately, everything I do is for everyone else and never myself.  I have come to realize I am not as happy as I should be and that I have come to the conclusion that my weight and self esteem is taking a toll on myself, husband and my children. 

So now is my time to re-evaluate myself and change what needs to be changed for myself and put myself first.  So in the long run I can attend kids activities and feel proud and good about myself again. 

UPDATE!!!! 

I  AM NO LONGER A STAY AT HOME MOM, I AM CURRENTLY WORKING IN A ADULT FAMILY HOME, SO I STILL CARE FOR PEOPLE BUT MY JOB IS TO HELP ADULTS SUCCESSFULLY THRIVE ON THEIR OWN BEFORE THEY ENTER THE "REAL WORLD"  SO BASICALLY I DO AT WORK WHAT I DO AT HOME, COOK, CLEAN GROCERY SHOP, GO ON OUTINGS, DR. AND DENTAL APPTS. I REALLY ENJOY THIS LINE OF WORK

HOWEVER I HAVE FAILED AT MY LAST DIET ATTEMPT.  I DID LOSE 20LBS ONLY TO GAIN IT PLUS BACK.  BUT THE WEATHER HAS WARMED UP AND THE SUN IS SHINING TIME TO GET OFF MY ASS AND MOVE MOVE MOVE!!!  I HAVE A FEW FAMILY FUNCTIONS THAT I NEED TO DROP A FEW POUNDS FOR. WISH ME LUCK. 

I HAVE UPDATED MY GOAL TO A MUCH SHORTER ABTAINABLE GOAL THAT ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE I MAY HAVE AN END IN SIGHT.  I REALLY HAVE A LOT MORE TO LOOSE, IF I HAD MY CHOICE I WOULD BE MIRACULOUSLY 100LS LIGHTER BY THE 25 OF SEPTEMBER.  SO UNDER 200 WOULD BE A GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT IN ITSELF.