Well, time to update again!  I just read through my past entries.  Pretty crazy.  I am 27 years old now (man, and I was upset about 25?).  I had another baby!  So at least I was successful with that!  A baby girl!  Mackenzie Mulloy Shock.  She is 17 weeks old (just over 4 months).  My son is 3 now!  How time flies!  I am so happy with my family.  Madly in love with my children and my husband.  Now if I could only get a grip on my weight!  I am 167 lbs.  Can't believe I was at 148 once upon a time!  What I would give to be there again!  I felt sad reading that, but also hopeful.  Knowing that I did it once gives me the motivation to do it again.  I joined WW with my sister.  I have lost 6 lbs but it has taken me 6 weeks!  I guess I should be happy with that.  I just can't stand how dreadfully long it is taking!  I love to eat.  I keep asking myself, why are you eating this or why do you want that?  Well, it's because it taste good!  I am depressed about my weight, but I am happy with my life.  I need to find a hobby other than eating.  I have started exercising again.  I have not been perfect with my eating nor my exercising, but I am trying.  I would love to lose 30 lbs by summer.  I really don't think that's too high of a goal.  When I lost 30 lbs, it took me a year to do it.  That's ridiculous.  It should not take a year to lose 30 lbs.  My all time goal is to see 120 lbs some day.  But I really think I would be happy at 130.  We'll see when I get there!  Which will hopefully be sooner than later!  Man, I'm just rambling!  Here goes nothing!    

Well I decided I had better up date this a little!  I am very proud of myself, I have come a long way.  I now way 148 lbs.  I have lost 30 lbs!!  It has taken me over a year, but at least I am getting there.  I just read my profile and am feeling mixed emotions.  I am very excited with how far I have come.  I'm not so depressed when I go shopping now.  I can actually "shop" through my own closet and wear clothes that I haven't been able to wear in so long.  So that's nice!  But my goal is to weigh 120, I was hoping to do that by summer!  Well, here we are!  3 days from June and I am far from 120.  I fell off the wagon several times.  I go through these spurts when I'm so good, eating right and exercising.  Then I just fall apart!  I wish I had been stronger, I wish I had pushed myself to be to my goal when I wanted to be. Which was summer.  I am not giving up, I am going to try my best to reach to my goal.  I am in two weddings this summer and hope to start trying for baby #2 in the fall.  First wedding is August 9th, second wedding is September 12th.  Then the fall is here!  So I'm running out of time!  I realize that I am not going to lose 28 lbs by August 9th, but I am certainly gonna try to lose as much as possible!    

Hi!  I'm Bethany!

I just turned 25 (in Aug.) BLAH! LOL!  Sounds so old!  Anyways, I am 5'2" and now weigh 168!  I joined CC back in March, my weight then was 178.  I am down 10 pounds and extremely thankful for that!  I am so uncomfortable with my weight it is ridiculous.  I am to the point where I just want to stay locked up at home in my oversized scrubs.  I have never been a fan of shopping, but I want to be able to go shopping and actually leave the store with something.  I have been clothes shopping a million times in the last couple of months and every time walked out of the store with NO clothes.  What's the point of buying anything if you hate the way you look wearing it?  Pretty sad, I know, but that's just the way it is for me.  I wasn't always overweight, it probably hit a couple years after high school.  I was like 125 in high school, and naturally thought I was fat.  My friends were all super skinny and still are.  They are very supportive of my weight loss journey!  Since I have put on weight, I have tried just about every diet out there.  I was finally told that I need to start counting calories and learn how to eat right for life.  That way I can lose weight and actually keep it off!   

I have a wonderful husband and a beautiful baby boy at home!  Life is great other than my whole weight issue.  My son turns 1 on September 11th.  I want to lose weight so that I can feel comfortable with myself, so that I can keep up with my son, and so that I am not this big when we decide to work on baby #2!

My goal is to get down to 120 by next summer.  I am thankful to have found CC!