Indian name: Runs with Hippies

I'm 33 years old, 5'6" and I've been fat just about my whole life.  I lost weight in college and got down to 152 lbs. but gained it back when I moved home with the parents and lost my access to a gym and gained access to tons of junk food. 

I was back up to 235 a couple years ago when I started having health problems.  I lost weight really rapidly and got down to 180 lbs.  I knew when I started feeling better the weight would come back on, and it did.  Now I'm at 208, but the illness was actually a blessing.  I loved the feeling of being able to shop for clothes at the mall and refused to let myself slide all the way back to 235.  I've been working out 3-4 days a week for a year and that's helped keep me from ballooning back up, but the fact that I can eat food now and not get sick makes it waaay too tempting to binge. 

Now I'm determined to make a whole life change.  I want to be skinny again (and yes, 150 is skinny to me!) but I'm willing to take my time and really change my lifestyle and my thinking in order to make it a permanent change.

I HAVE:

• A big Dutch butt
• An old, broke down house that I am unnaturally fond of
• A Big Sexy cat and a Lazybutt cat
• An office supply fetish
• A wooden spoon collection
• Allergies to just about everything
• A paralyzing fear of committment
• A green thumb

I WANT:

• To be able to run without feeling like I'm going to die
• A raise
• To speak fluent Russian
• Self-control
• My house to be fixed up - preferably for free...by a studly single guy...who's into girls who have big Dutch butts
• To own my own business (bakery, or maybe fixing up old houses)
• Freedom from fear

I MISS:

• Bloom County
• Pizza
• Footy pajamas
• The platinum blond days of my childhood (as opposed to the duck-doo blond days of adulthood)
• Summer vacation
• Red meat
• Holden Beach, NC