Posts by purecolor

fungus spores and bacteria float around the air, land on our food, and grow grow grow. depending on the food, i tend to eat stuff even after parts of it has spoiled though. I just scrap/cut off the parts with mould and eat the rest...

crunch, honey almond flax. :D

personally though, my favourite kashi cereal is the cinnamon raisin one they have in the good friends line. Kashi U rocks too! xD

wait.

"but half the time sits all i end up eating basicaly besides my morning fruit shake and fruit with veggie soup at night...."

by that, do you mean that veggie soup at night and a shake in the morning are your only meals, and everything else are snacks...?

Unless what you have at night is a huge bowl of veggie soup with some kind of meat/beans and grain/pasta, and your morning shake is fortified with milk, yogurt, or a milk substitute, you're probably not getting a balanced diet!

If you are eating lots of one thing (in this case grapes), it might be caused by a deficiency in some vitamin/mineral. Aim for more servings of grains, milk, meat/beans/nuts, and it might help to alleviate your cravings for fruit...?

*nod*! i'm the same height as you, and slightly heavier, (112~114lbs), (though unlike you, i'm pretty deficient in the boob department). i've envied all sorts of people. thin people (leg envy), not so thin people (boob and butt envy), and i'm still learning to be comfortable in my own skin.

numbers aren't what determines how you look. it's not like by being 2 lbs lighter, you're magically transplanted into a whole new different and perfect body! you're much more than that number on that scale. and hell, you're much more than what a tiny portion of weight obsessed teens might think about you! being thin doesn't make you a better person, or even a more likeable person.

so be glad, be radiant, be happy! (: and here is one thing i know for a fact. when i'm heavier, it helps me to comfort my friends when they're feeling down. (cause i give bigger, warmer and softer hugs!) there's an upside to everything!

i second holidayheart's suggestion about a food journal. not a calorie counting journal, but a food one... don't write down the calories in your food. don't even think about them. i keep a food journal and it looks something like this

column 1: Food

column 2:Mood before/after eating

column 3: Hunger rating (1~10)

Breakfast (Time: ___)

_ servings/cups/slices of ___ mood: stressed/happy etc. hunger: ___

_ servings/cups/slices of ___ . . .

Snack (Time: ___)

...

HUNGER - SATISFACTION SCALE (HSS)
10: Stuffed to the point of feeling sick
9: Very uncomfortable, tired
8: Uncomfortably full
7: Feel you have eaten just a little bit too much
6: Comfortable, satisfied [stop eating]
5: Just noticing the first signs of hunger [slow down, if eating]
4: Hungry, ready to eat [Eat at this point]
3: Very hungry
2: Extremely hungry, irritable
1: Starving, can't concentrate, dizzy

and so on. When i look back, i pick out the times that i eat till i get uncomfortably full, and spot the trends (reasons why i eat the way i do at those times). when i feel similarly, I try to put myself out of the situation. by taking a walk or something.

and focusing on my hunger helps me realize that there are times that i want to eat, but it's not because i'm not full, but because i'm mentally dissatisfied. (which is a reason why anorexics become bingers so easily? cause deprivation and overindulgence feeds the same mental hunger.)

a few things that i try to do:

- have at least 2 or 3 hours in between my meals

- start to eat only when i notice that i'm hungry

Now, my dietician also started me on adding another section to my food journal. The number of portions i should be aiming for in a day, for my food groups. (for me, it's 3 servings of fruit, 5 servings of veg, 6 servings of grains, 5 (1 oz) meat portions, 3 servings of dairy, and a miscellaneous section. I fill out the table as my day progresses, and i use it to know more about the way i eat in a non-judgmental manner. for instance, i tend to go way over for grains and miscellaneous, but i'm almost always under for meats (unless i binge on nuts/nut butters), milk, and vegetables. So i've been trying to fill up my pantry with meat items (seitan, tofu, etc. (i'm vegetarian), and i might drink a glass of milk instead of turning immediately binge foods when i've got a craving).

i still have the urge to binge and go crazy on food, but this helps me a good deal. i write down each item right after i eat it (i didn't initially, but my nutritionist suggested i do to help with the binging), and it forces me to think how full i am (rate my hunger)

If i put down a 7, i know that anything else i eat is moving me towards 8. and when i hit an 8, it helps me recognize that this is a binge in progress, and i stop before i hit a 9. It's a big deal for me, because before i started food journaling, i was eating up to a 10 almost every single day. I'm learning to listen more to my hunger now. It's a slow process, but it prevents me from feeling guilty about my binges. Last night, for instance, i had a midnight snack (2 cups of cereal, a slice of bread with honey, a glass of milk and chocolate truffles! It's much less than a real binge, but a calorie-counting me would probably have thought 'omg. this is almost 800 calories. half a day's calories in a SNACK! (and other really negative thoughts) ) but what really made me smile about it this morning, was when i saw that it for what it was. I had dinner at 7. By 12 I was genuinely hungry, i ate, and i ended up feeling full, comfortable and satisfied.) Even if it means that i've gone over my calories, i know that i'm not overeating because: i'm not gorging myself in a self-injurous manner [physically, to the point of feeling really sick, and later mentally when i go on in the self-berating stage and blame myself for losing control].

Hope this helps! (And that all that i've said about my own situation has helped clarify how the whole journaling thing works. (: )

a troll? fashionista01: It sounds pretty harsh if you're 5'6" and 116lbs and want to go on a crazy diet though. >"< I'd think that the girls would have to be around your weight as well to look absolutely gorgeous? (Or maybe I'm just biased cause I have a boob complex >"<)

If I could choose my genes, I'd want to be fair and soft (kinda like kate winslet in titanic). Sadly, I'm semi-dark and fat looks kinda gross on me... (I'm ecto/mesomorph so ideally (based on my bodytype), I'd be lean and toned. I prefer waifishness (if it's not a bony/stick-like sort of waifishness) to muscles though, cause i don't particularly like angularity and high definition...). 

hey! i'd love to be a healthy eating/exercise buddy with you. i used to be bulimic and binge eating disorder, and i was all clear for about 3 years, but i've fallen back into binge eating again... i think because i'm feeling absolutely lost, and in lack of social support right now, cause i'm studying in a foreign place and i'm halfway around the world from my family and close friends.

I've been eating between 4000~7000 calories almost every single day for 2 weeks now, and i've gained about 5~7 pounds since this started. I really would love to have someone hold me accountable! And hey, you've got a headstart cause you're recognizing that you need to pick yourself up right off the bat! (i had to wallow around for two weeks before i finally made an appointment to see a counselor and a dietician.) if you'd like to do a mutual support thing, message me? (:

Sandra:

1. Yeah, i do partake in activities... but it's also part of the problem, i think, because most of my activities are food related (i work in a restaurant, and i'm in a vegetarian society whose sole events are pot lucks and cooking classes)

2. my class load is somewhat overwhelming. and i think that i tend to turn to food whenever i've got work to do. I'll just keep eating and eating and eating, and i don't seem to feel full. just yesterday i ate 16 energy bars and a whole block of chocolate yesterday on top of my meals... and i ate it just cause 'it was there'. and halfway through i was even tempted to go out and buy myself a tub of icecream and a jar of peanut butter/nutella. i never used to be like that back home, and what i've become really scares me...

3. i live halfway across the world, and i won't be able to go back home till january. i miss my family and friends mostly... and i think not having friends to study with here is also why i turn to food...

4. i think the trigger was that i felt fat and disgusting... i think i'm similarly feeling that right now... but i've heard so many things about how throwing up ruins your body that i don't want to do it anymore.

i did bad yesterday, i know. i think i went over 5000 calories... but my cupboard is empty of snacks right now... and that's a good start... right now, i just want to get through today normally.... and i'll probably go to the university hospital to see a healthcare advisor about this... >"< keeping my fingers crossed!