I am a sad puppy right now.  I always said that if i got fat i would not go out anywhere and lock myself in my house.  I can't do that though.  i need to get out of this rut.   It wouldn't be so bad if i could just see results of all the hard work i do.  i joined a gym a year ago, and have been very faithfull about going and i weigh more now than when i started.  something is seriously wrong.......will keep trying though although sometimes i feel like really throwing in the towel