Need to update this, everyone elses is much shorter!

I'm back, again. I do stupid stuff, I say stupid stuff. I don't care Ya'll just have to put up with me until I lose weight, so a while then....

I want to be slender damnit! I'm trying hard to make the changes slowly this time but dayum it's hard.

My biggest challnge is actually trying to come to terms witht he fact that losing weight isn't going to change me in any way. I'll just be thinner. My fantasy that being thin will suddenly make me organised and more purposeful and suddenly all my other flaws wil be fixed...its ridiculous I know as tho fatness is an easy thing to blame.