I have struggled with my weight for all my life.  Hello my name is Suzzi 1961 or Sue and today I made my all important first step.  That’s right I made up my mind to loose weight.   I realised that loosing weight is an individual thing and no one can do it for me, so after watching the Biggest Looser on television I felt that it was time….

I am 44 years old and weigh 117.3kg, my frame is large, but height average. I am 5"4 and the BMI is (Don't gasp 44). Yes it’s shocking. At this very moment I am classified as an obese person. I am very ashamed that I got to this stage but circumstances just took over.  There is no one to blame for my obesity except myself.  I take the blame for allowing my body to change and allowing my mind to whither and die.  The depression that I felt had stripped me of my pride and carried me through to this overweight and sad woman.  I am a pleaser of people.  I get great satisfaction in watching other people in my life be spoilt and cared for.  I took the role on without a thought to what the stress of everyday life is doing to me.   

I think of my life as a jigsaw – a million pieces all sprawled out on the table and when all the pieces fit I will become the person I want to be.   If one or two pieces are lost; then I would never see the complete image.   My lost pieces are depression and food.  They link quite nicely together.  My picture is almost complete, I know if I look hard and work hard that these two pieces can be found.

The death of my father six years ago, and the diagnosis of a brain tumour of my 16 year old son, played a very important part with depression.  I love to eat the more depressed I became the more I turned to the packet of chips or to the sausage rolls.  When dad died my depression was at its high and when my son was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumour I escaped into the food world.  But seeing my son struggling with the chemo certainly opened up my mind.  I was so proud of him.  He showed me the way.  Here is a 16 year old young man, who has had a horrible blow added to his life and he took it on the chin.  His illness did not stop him in-fact it gave him strength, wisdom and a much cherished sense of humour.  I became to think if he can beat his illness so can I. 

It is with his love and strength that I dedicate my weight loss journey too.  One day I hope to stand at the table in-front of the jigsaw and cherish every single piece.  I have decided that it’s time to loose weight for me.  However a helping hand will always be valuable.  Thank You my darling Adam for the helping hand.

Just wanted to add that this web sight and no other offered me the other helping hand.  I thank all my new cyber buddies who have listened and replied to all my problems.  Without you guys I wouldn't have lost 26kg. 

SUZZI1961 GOAL: 

• Weight as at 3rd November 2005  --->  117.3kg  (258.06Lbs) 
• Target Weight by end of 2006 ---> 60kg (132Lbs)

SUZZI1961 6 MONTHS LATER: 

• Weight loss todate May 29 2006 --->26.2Kg (57.64Lbs)
• Still to loose ---> 31.1Kg (68.42Lbs)