I am 37 years old and I have been married for a little over 3 years.  I have been trying to lose weight for 10 years.  I was always a little chubby...then I got pregnant.  I lost it all after my son was born...then I got older, developed some health issues, and on came the weight.  I have no willpower...as well as no self esteem...so I am a bummer when things are going badly.  I am never super positive but I can sure drag myself down when things go badly.  I want to lose 83 pounds.  I want to feel better, be healthier, look better for myself and my husband, show my kids it is possible to eat good and not go hungry, and just wear nice clothes again without feeling like everyone is looking at me like I am a big fat cow.  I don't want sympathy from everyone...I don't want my mother to criticize me...I just want to be happy and look better!  I know I am never going to wear a bikini...I am never going to wear a size 4...but I can wear clothes that make me feel sexy...and that is the goal!!  I want my husband to find me attractive...so here we go!!!