2 years college down, 2 more to go. Starting a Radiation Therapy program this September 2011.

Since I was at my lowest my weight has fluctuated 50 lbs, so one goal is definitely to be able to maintain a decent weight without it being a full-time job.

For a very long time I was gaining weight for no apparent reasons, and not maintaining at calorie levels and exercise amounts that any person my age would be easily losing at. But for that I am grateful, because otherwise there is no way I would have gone to the lengths that I have in terms of improving my fitness as well as thirst for knowledge about nutrition and exercise.

If it was easy, I would have stuck to running a few miles at 6 mph and doing crunches for a flat stomach. I wouldn't have bothered with pull-ups, would have been satisfied with 10 pushups, and have never known the fun of a circuit with burpees, mountain climbers, kettlebells swings, pushups and planks.

I still have a lot of work to do in terms of putting my knowledge to good use (will power, where art though?) and decluttering my workout routines, but all with good time, I hope.

Ultimately I have to change how I think, and that is so. damn. hard.

• How do I tell myself to stop eating at night when it's so much easier to believe that a calorie is a calorie is a calorie at any time of day?
• How do I convince myself that my body doesn't differentiate between food eaten at a normal meal, and food eaten in secrecy, one bite, fork, or handful at a time?
• Or stop hoping for some kind of miracle that will give me back that metabolism that allowed me to eat crepes before bed and french toast in the morning and ice-cream out of boredom yet maintain a weight leaner than now with no physical activity or sport..

Anyway, I just moved to a new city, don't know anyone besides my roommates, so am always up for a good conversation!