Posts by taylorskye

You all are really too kind -- thank you! The support on here is amazing...I take short hiatuses for periods of times, but I end up coming back because I need some extra support/a little boost!

I realize I'm not far from a "healthy" BMI, but I guess that's one of the reasons I'm hesitating so much to keep going...because I'm "nearly" there. Blahhhh.

Congrats on your success! I can definitely relateto a lot of your struggles, but here's my two cents on things (if you want another story/experience to compare to!):

I sometimes wake up in the morning NOT hungry. So I think, "Hm, if normal people aren't hungry, they probably don't eat, so why should I?". Clearly I'm out of my mind. I'm recovering from an ED, so obviously I MUST eat, regardless of whether I'm hungry or not. Because that sliver of knowledge doesn't always work, my therapist shared a story with me that really, really has helped...She wants me to think of my body as a wood-burning stove. In the morning, a stove that was "fed" the night before most likely just has some coals left over and is really looking for fuel...So, we need to feed the woodstove, right?! If we give it enough wood, it can carry itself over until later...maybe our version of snack, or some people's version of lunch (really, some people do better getting the cals in with 5-6 smaller meals, while other just do 3...it has to be what works for you, kinda). You have to continually feed the stove over the course of the day, so that it's able to burn/give off heat. Come night time, maybe we add a few extra pieces of wood so that the stove can burn throughout the night (this really helps me when I'm trying to justify why I don't have to eat a large dinner: uh, hello, my body still has to function/repair throughout the night!).

Anyways, did this make sense? Sorry for the ramble! Basically, to sum things up, this story (which she printed out for me, in longer form!) helps me to view food as fuel for my body, not simply as calories.

Just make sure you're getting enough energy, and keep up the good work!

And PS- Don't take that silly advice regarding night eating and such mentioned earlier. I have eaten 600-700 calorie dinners before, followed by about 600 cals worth of ice cream like 20 minutes later, all around 7ishpm. I willthen have a weigh-in the next day and....bam! I haven't gained a thing. So, eating a lot at night results in automatic weight-gain? Of course not, that's just silly.

thanks SO MUCH for the extra little (or big, rather!!) pushes you've given me -- i had a weigh in this morning and I think, from the way my doctor spoke, I have dropped in weight by a [significant] amount; the only reason I say that is because usually if I fluctuate up and down my doctor and nurse are fine with it, but this time they were scratching their heads wondering what has happened.

at this point i'm fully prepared (as much as I can be) to increase back up to where I was again, but i'm fearful that this past week of screwed up food is going to make me raidly gain when i increase back up again. shfgiawhslahdks. blah.

oh annabel :( you're so strong! i must admit: i, too, pee A TON, and i know i'm not diabetic. my friends used to make fun of me, saying that if i have to pee this much now, just wait until i'm pregnant!

hang in there; i know waiting in limbo is almost worse than actually finding out that you are in fact diabetic, but until you're actually diagnosed, hold on to the hope that it may not be that! you're strong. look how far you've come with the ED!! you can do this!

I'm still in recovery, because unfortunately after discharging from IP about two months ago I had a slight relapse. Like everyone else on here has said, it's hard to give an exact number/a definite time frame, because, again, it varies from person to person.

I'm 5'6" and I went into IP weighing roughly 90ish pounds. I was bumped from my measley 600ish calories a day to ~2300 at first, and then about ~3000 two or so weeks later, ~3500 give or take on the occassional day where the dietician picked higher-cal meals for me (yes, I lost control of being able to have SOME say in the food I ate, because my ED just held too much power over me and what I "chose" to eat). Did I gain weight? Yes. In fact, in about 7 weeks I gained 20ish pounds. But guess what? Hardly anyone noticed a difference. Most people just said I looked like I had LIFE back in my face; AKA I didn't look like a walking zombie anymore, much like mspletz said lol. So, will you probably gain some weight right off if you choose to take the path of recovery (which you really should; it's SO tasty, just ask anyone on here!)? Yes. But will it be noticeable? Probably not for a good deal of time.

Of course, at some point it will be noticeable (which will be a GOOD thing), but for now, I hope this maybe eased some of your fears? But if you're holding out for the day when you're going to be 100% gung-ho about recovery, don't. Because you never will be. You just have to take the plunge and hold on to the fact that, in the end, it will SO be worth it (that's what I have to do!).