9-22-08

I'm a happily married 31 year old working mother of two wonderful boys (5 and 10 yrs old).  I've been overweight since the 5th grade.  Like many of you I have tried everything out there, and I've lost weight, but only to gain it back (and then some) each time.  At the end of 2006 I was about to turn 30 and in the worst shape of my life. At my heighest weight ever of 244 lbs (pregnancies included) and I'm only 5'3"! 

I stumbled onto CC in Feb '07.  Though I have learned quite a bit about eating right and exercising, I seem to have the hardest time getting my butt in gear and really doing it!  In my first six months I managed to lose 45 lbs.  Since June of '07 I have bounced back and forth between 200 and 220 lbs. With a very short lived stay at 195 in May of this year(my lowest low in more than 10 years!).  Even that wasn't enough to keep my motivation going.  I really can't put my finger on my "triggers", I can not pinpoint any single event or situation that arises that causes me to just stop.  And that's what happens is I just stop...stop counting, stop exercising, stop journaling, stop coming to CC entirely.   I gain back 10, 15, this last time 20 lbs!  As of today 9-22-08 I'm back up to 221.  Really if you look up "Yo-Yo" in the weightloss dictionary, you will see my picture!

With all of the knowledge and tips that I have gained from this wonderful site and all of my AWSOME cc friends, there is just no excuse!  I know the things I need to do to reach my goal, and I just need to find that dicipline and motivation deep inside me to do it.

I'm getting a jump start on my '09 Goals.

I've decided I'm going back to the basics!  Counting, and exercising.  It's worked before, it will work again!  I am going to use the rest of the year to drop a few pounds before I hit it hard come Jan. 1 2009. I know it's so cleche to start to lose weight at the first of the year but there really is just something about it that gets me motivated!

Goals for '09!

JAN 30th - 217 lbs.  - Reached 217.2 ~1-30-09! (just made it )
FEB 27th - 209 lbs.   - Reached 208.6 ~2-26-09! (with a day to spare!) 
MAR 27th - 199 lbs. - Reached 199.8 ~ 4-3-09 (a week late! March was tough!)
APR 30th - 191 lbs. - Reached sometime in late August! (April....August - Guess I mixed 'em up! LOL!)
MAY 29th - 183 lbs.
JUNE 26th - 175 lbs.

**EDIT 9-16-09***
I obviously really messed up the last couple of months with the above goals! But I am finally back on track and ready to finish this! Here's the revised set of goals!!!

SEPT 25th - 180 lbs. -
OCT 30th - 168 lbs. -
NOV 27th - 163 lbs. -
DEC 31st - 158 lbs. -

My ultimate goal is still undetermined.  My weight in high school was about 155ish, and while I felt at the time I was a moo cow, I look back at pictures now and think I looked pretty damn good! However that was at 18 yrs old too! Also I NEVER worked out back then so that was a squishy 155, I do have lots more muscle now! But I've also got lot's of loose skin from 2 babies and years spent carrying an extra 100 lbs! So I will just have to assess the situation when I get down into my healthy weight range! I'm thinking 140ish, what ever it is I'd like to be there by no later than April of 2010! Maybe a little Spring Break vacation to celebrate the new me??

I can do this!
I can do this!
I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!

Think Moderation not Deprivation!