Posts by z1z2z3

If you rubbed it a lot and it went away it could have been a blood clot...

Seek a doctor, immediately. That isn't no 'coincidence' if it is truly as severe as you described could be an underlying disease like osteoporosis or severe Vitamin D deficiency.

I was thinking about your situation (I posted in the other thread), and I had an idea that part of the difficulty might be the taking the food in your mouth and chewing movement, psychologically. Thus, I was thinking why not try to drink most of your calories? Whole fat milk or even partly reduced (try for organic). One cup has literally 150 calories. If you're able to drink 6-7 cups a day there's half your calories so you won't have to sit and think and ponder about your foods. On top of that, why not powders? Powders are foods too, they have calories and they're a lot easy for you to just digest and eat if you throw a cup of weight gainer powder in your milk (this is only if you want to take it up to the 3k mark, which is totally applicable for you right now). I'm not sure how much your doctors have talked to you about your diet, but you CAN gain at 1800, it just depends on the foods you're eating. If you're eating a lot of complex carbs (pastas, potatoes, etc.) you'll put on weight fairly quickly, especially if you eat them at night so your body can slowly digest them (also try to eat about 100gs of protein as well so your body can build the muscles thoroughly).

Again, your disorder is caused by being ANXIOUS, so you have to not worry about the timetable and expect results immediately. You overcome it by being PATIENT. Your weight will come and it will evenly distribute. The reason your stomach was big before was because you were consuming a lot of saturated fats and probably not exercising properly. If you eat right and get to a decent weight between 105-115 for your height then I'm sure that will be perfectly easy for you to maintain without worry (135 wasn't normal for you imo, that seems a little on the heavy side for a woman wanted a petite body). Remember, don't worry about consuming too much, your body won't drastically change without you noticing haha, right now the food will distribute itself evenly and once you get up to a healthy weight like aforementioned, who cares because you'll be able to exercise and HEALTHILY control that weight.

Lastly, if the anxiety continues to get the best of you, you ALWAYS have one other option you can do and that is just to take medication!! It's not that bad, there are anti-anxiety meds out there which will HELP you cope with this stuff, these troubling thoughts about eating, and TRUST me they will work! Just ask your doctor, I'm surprised he hasn't prescribed any already..