Quitter's Thread

The Quitter's Thread. If your a quitter, write about it, brag, rant, plead, celebrate! Let us support each other. There is strength in that. This is no ones thread. This is everyone's thread. Please feel free to participate. 

Hi. I'll start. 

This is hard. I've quit more than 20 times in the past 6 months. A year ago I got about 5 months clean. I'm 44, I've smoked since I was 11 y.o. and my body will not take it anymore. I stink. Yuk. Its bad. ~ Words Cannot Express. .. ..  . ~ discusting ~just really bad! 

So I will smoke my last cigarette some time this evening. Clean days over the weekend. And I dont get to start again. This on and off again thing is awful. Worse! The smell, the taste, the withdrawal! I don't enjoy smoking anymore. I am really trying to get this lesson done and out the door. 

I know that I can be a non-smoker, eat sensibly, enjoy living in my body, and feel great. I just need to learn how. More to come. . . . 

Deciding to quite is a big first step.  It doesn't matter how many times you tried before it is all about now.  I found the first 3 days the worst.  I even went to bed and slept for 12 hours straight so I could get some peace.  For long term success you may want to start a regular fitness routine.  I found that walking and now running helps keep me clean and motivation to say clean.   Hard to be a runner and smoke.  Good luck and don't give in.  You can do this.

thanks. i run on sundays, rigorous walk on saturdays with a partner, and try to get at least one other good walk in each week. i'm still building that routine in. i have a question about that tho (posted elsewhere) i'm not sure that i can do big walking and the interval running of C25k on consecutive days. maybe i need a rest day? i think the activities might be too similar, but i get my days off in a row, and i wont join a gym (money, my own dorkiness, not enough follow through to trust its money well spent, etc. . . ) so on my days off, i can go outside and exercise, but they all come in a row, at least until the days lengthen a bit more and i have more day light hours to get outside and moving. 

so i've smoked my last evil cancer stick! yuuk! 

im at this point where the addiction is still really active, but smoking the cigarettes make me feel really sick, so my body hates them but my brain is controlled by some delusion about their goodness. ha. there is no goodness. it will be nice to have the feeling of sickness be gone. i know i'll feel a lot better, i just have to know that i dont want to smoke again. and keep knowing that, regardless of what that little dude in my head tries to tell me about it. 

now i am in my insanity! this feeling is the reason i thought a thread might be helpful. 

dang! i just went for a good 25 minute walk, up hill/stairs, work those lungs!

i really hate this part. i need to go find more somethings to do, despite/because of how i feel. i should be an expert at this by now, but really, im not.  

coming up on 68 this April and quit for the 100th time two months ago, funny thing is this time when I get the urge to buy a pack for some crazy reason I can forget about it in 30 seconds or so.

Cant roll back time but the money and time and health I wasted smoking those things.