Ramble before you binge...

This is partially inspired by the 'Before You Binge' thread... I find typing (very quickly sometimes) therepeautic because it keeps your fingers moving instead of reaching for food.

So I've decided to start a thread where anyone and everyone can simply type on and on and on until you don't think you'll binge anymore. You can go on and on, say ANYTHING you like, even if it sounds absolutely ridiculous. (e.g. in the 'before you binge' thread, I was talking about wanting to binge on CORN KERNELS.) Type for one hour, two hours, type ten posts at a go, swear, curse...anything goes here.

I hope this helps me/everyone else. It's such a struggle.

I totally agree with the typing thing. I play online games @ pogo.com, and there is one game that I sit down and play (time permitting) if I feel the binge coming :word whomp. It's just a silly word game that gives 6 scrambled letters, the object being to form words from the six letters. It's addictive & keeps my hands busy (from eating AND smoking).

I'm bored and I've got the munchies. I'm a bored eater. I think I might be thirsty. My boyfriend hasn't called me back yet.. uuhhh.. I think I'll skip my workout today. Maybe. I ran a crapload yesterday.. uuhhh Mick Jagger's hot.. I think I'll just go have an Orbit Sweet Mint :)

wow this is a great idea

I KNOW I"M GOING DOWN THE SLIPPERY SLOPE. After dinner I had some grapes, sushi, chewed and spitted mooncake(long time since I indulged in this anorexic habit, yikes) and a few raisins. I'm SO DETERMINED NOT TO GIVE IN TODAY.

IT"S ALWAYS THE HARDEST> THE FIRST DAY AFTER DAYS OF BINGEING. Well, at least for me.

Yikes. Help. I will not give in i will not give in I can't. I can't! Someone help me :(

I think I shall practise the piano. I don't want to do my work, yes... but there're really better ways to waste time. I'm depressed because of my poor body image, but I get 10 timesmore depressed when i binge. So... i really feel much better not bingeing.

just ate a q whole bag of tortillas, not even with cheese oR something, plane cold tortillas and few slices of bread and two packs of cookies... I woke up this morning thinking today is a new day... with a good mood afer a horrible night of bingeing and then sudenlly my binge radar turned on. I usually eat well i mean Im no t anorexic.. I eat healthy but I have mid night of mid day or both binges.. I never throw up... never... TOday I threw up and the bad part about this is that I felt happy again. I know this is wrong..

another thing I dont know how to handle my feelings.. if I binge im sad and if im sad i binge.. so when does this cycle stop?! Do you think its time to get professional help , I mean my life is starting to depend and rotate all areound this wheit issue and bingeing issue... or should I stop feeling like the victim and with strength make it on my own.. HELP!!!!!

SUMMER JOY!! at least your determined not to give in today!!! and if you gave up.. dont feel bad about it I mean it hapened but at least you are trying to stop it to change it and you are aware of your problem! you are not alone...

I'm always trying to find things to do so i  can keep away from binging and going into the kitchen.

Summer-joy, you're just like me!  I can relate to what you're going through.  After dinner, I constantly look for something to satisfy me and end up binging.  Grapes, mooncakes also, and I've also done the whole spitting and chewing thing too.

Thanks for the encouragement, everyone- helpless, tof. Add me as friends if you want to talk! I'm amazed by how encouraging/helpful strangers around this site are!

I almost binged this morning. Well, technically I did. A few twisties, a few mouths of cereal, and probablh 3 teaspoons of milo powder. Well, it was a binge already... but probably not by the quantity. So glad I decided to lock myself in my room and come see my own thread. I should use my own thread more.

Why is this so hard!!! I hate it that I think of food ALL THE TIME. :(

I shall not let this get me down. Technically that was a BINGE, but considering it wasn't really a lot, I shall not let it get me down. As long as I survive the rest of today, I'll give myself a pat on the back and count it as binge-free. In fact, it could probably be breakfast (and ultra quick one though!)

Gosh I'm really rambling. But doesn't rambling help? I'm so glad I decided to lock myself up in my room with my computer. I tend to spend a little too much time around here when I'm avoiding sometime.. but seriously, it's a MUCH better way to avoid stuff than turn to food, with all its depresssing consequences.

I was probably just tired. Shall try to sleep....

Opps, sorry for rambling.

*hugs and encouragement to everyone*

Oh, and tof, maybe you should seek help. Do you have a therapist? I see a psychologist/psychiatrist who both specialize in eating disorders. It helpful to a certain extent, with medicines and all. And because they've seen so many patients.. they will understand what you mean by your 'binge radar', lol. Normal people just don't get it sometimes, and I don't blame them.

I wish i had a more normal relationship with food.

Good luck to you!

hi guys!

I just binged on breakfast.  Had a toast with 1/2 a banana and 1 tbsp of peanut butter, but ate two small oranges afterward.  I hate when I do this.  I don't know why is it that with the oranges. 

Last night was even worst.  I had dinner, but was craving something sweet, I tried 3 different pieces of candies and had to spit all of them out.  None was doing it for me, so I head for the lotus paste mooncake and ate 1/2 of the whole thing!  I can't believe I let myself go again, for the 3rd time this month!  I'm so angry at myself.  THis morning being a new day and all I failed again.

I should consider some professional help.  Summer joy I added you as a friend.  Ramble all you want, I'm here to listen.

So today's been going good so far. My breakfast was a bowl of Fiber One and fat-free yogurt and a chopped-up plum, with a midmorning snack of a small bowl of papaya and a tuna/hardboiled egg white/celery sandwich on whole wheat bread for lunch. Then I went for a brisk twenty minute walk outside and a moderate walk on the elliptical set on the highest resistance for another twenty minutes...then I had a glass of milk and a large banana. I'm not hungry right now, but hankering for an apple or a nectarine...should I let myself? I'm feeling myself making the excuse that it's okay since I did so well today and worked out and such, but I think I may just be sabotaging myself again. I think that's it. No. I'm not going to eat anything else. I'm going to brush my teeth and let things be until I get truly, honestly, genuinely hungry again. WILLPOWER.

Ibinged lastnight. Binged a little this morning at 6am. It's 10:30am now and I can't believe I'm hungry. I don't want to leave my room because I'm afriad of bingeing. Admittedly, I just feel gross still eating after pouring calories down my throat. I am 1.76m tall, about 60kg, bmi 19.3, perfectly healthy. But I come from Asia and the girls around here are small/petite and I just feel like if I have to be tall (hey I love being tall), I should be tall, slim. Not tall and huge and stick out like a monster walking around. Ahhhhhh. I can't believe 'm still hungry. I can't believe it. :(:(:( And I'm afraid the bingeing will make me huge. Am so upset with myself. Am so worried I'll binge because it's my dad's birthday today, and I really want to be able to be in a good mood and enjoy a birthday dinner with him. And skippyskippy, I want to thank you for your encouragement. All the best to you.

I binged the past 2 days, not horribly but enough that I only made a 50 calorie deficit  both days :(. I have problems with cereal and crackers....theyre just so good! Starch and sugar...But im doing good today, just eating some rasperries and ive eaten about 1150 calories and swam for an hour at practice.

okay. so i feel a binge coming on. I WILL NOT GIVE IN!!!! i am going ice skating tonight with friends, and i don't want to be uncomfortable while i'm there.

i binged yesterday. 4500 calories. close to my biggest. i remember how much my stomach hurt and how guilty i felt. i woke up this morning and my fingers, wrists, face, and everything were puffy from retained water. do i want to suffer those feelings again tonight and tomorrow morning? NO.

i used to never binge. at all. i was content and happy with my intake. and now, all of the sudden, i have been binging at least twice a week. more recently about every other day. i need to stop, think, and listen to my body.

i will take deep breaths, think in the present, relax, and recognize that i am satisfied right now. i have just eaten an early dinner of boca chili mixed with chicken breast, sprinkled with fat free cheese. i drank i glass of water. i am pleasantly full. if i am hungry later, i promise to acknowledge my hunger and eat a healthy protein snack.

if i'm bored, i'll find something to do instead of eat. if i'm sad, i'll talk to someone instead of numbing the feeling with food. if i'm happy, i'll celebrate, and that celebration does not require me to stuff myself with ice cream. Food is not a problem solver. It won't pass time. It is nourishment for my body. Each bite is a gift and should be enjoyed. It's always available, and I don't need to eat it all at once.

i will be confident today.

okay. so i feel a binge coming on. I WILL NOT GIVE IN!!!! i am going ice skating tonight with friends, and i don't want to be uncomfortable while i'm there.

i binged yesterday. 4500 calories. close to my biggest. i remember how much my stomach hurt and how guilty i felt. i woke up this morning and my fingers, wrists, face, and everything were puffy from retained water. do i want to suffer those feelings again tonight and tomorrow morning? NO.

i used to never binge. at all. i was content and happy with my intake. and now, all of the sudden, i have been binging at least twice a week. more recently about every other day. i need to stop, think, and listen to my body.

i will take deep breaths, think in the present, relax, and recognize that i am satisfied right now. i have just eaten an early dinner of boca chili mixed with chicken breast, sprinkled with fat free cheese. i drank i glass of water. i am pleasantly full. if i am hungry later, i promise to acknowledge my hunger and eat a healthy protein snack.

if i'm bored, i'll find something to do instead of eat. if i'm sad, i'll talk to someone instead of numbing the feeling with food. if i'm happy, i'll celebrate, and that celebration does not require me to stuff myself with ice cream. Food is not a problem solver. It won't pass time. It is nourishment for my body. Each bite is a gift and should be enjoyed. It's always available, and I don't need to eat it all at once.

 i will be confident today.

I binged so bad yesterday!!! I was SO full but i continued to eat!!! ugh. I dont know why i do that all the time!!! but i do remember resisting eating at some point last night, so maybe I am improving. I hope so.

good luck everyone! this is kinda a ramble AFTER i binge but yeah...

i wish i saw this thread a couple hours ago.....before i went and put an entire stick of butter in a pan and then threw in pieces of bread, crackers, rice crackers, and cereal...which was right after 6 huge cookies with pb, a ton of spaguetti, tofu, scrambled eggs, handfuls of cheese and ham, a pack of cashews, 2 bananas, and some strawberry yogurt. that must have been over 3000 calories!! and all consumed AFTER dinner too. arg

boy do i feel sick!
but now i know of this thread, ill come here next time i feel a binge coming up! its best to not put myself down, or i get discouraged and binge even more. so im not annoyed at myself as i usually would be. i just wish the nausea wasnt so bad! drinking lotsa water now!