Just a rant..

I am so angry with myself..I made such accomplishments this year..lost 20 pounds worked with a personal trainer and reshaped my body..I felt great!! Now a year later I am back at square one..I have gained back about 16 pounds..have no desire to exercise and am eating out of control. I always feel like eating with no regard for weight gain..then I feel so self consious when I go out in public..I want to hide under a jacket because I am ashamed of my weight gain..again or even worse I don't even want to go out!  I need to get it under control and find the real reason why I self sabatage!!! Thanks for listening...

You've taken the first step by posting your rant, so we know what your mind thinks.  What do you need from us to make your body want to follow?

I think many, MANY of us (myself included) have experienced what you're going through.  But the important thing to consider is:

What were you doing for the past year that made you gain the weight? Were you binging, or just not watching and letting it creep back on.. Did you leave the gym?  Were you sad and eating comfort food? 

Like you said, it will be key to find the reason behind what you were doing, so that you're much less likely to repeat it!

It's Spring / Summer now, so perfect time to get back on the horse, get outside and turn those 16 lbs into a distant memory!!  :) Good luck ---Dana

I can stay on track all day and when I get stressed I binge eat..most of my calories I consume are at night..then I feel bad when I wake up and it becomes a vicious cycle. I have not been as diligent at the gym..I was going 5-6 days a week and had the support of a personal trainer..as I can longer afford to have a trainer..I lack the motivation to do it on my own..so most days I push it off til later but later never comes. I know in my mind that I need to control my eating and exercising but I just for some reason cannot keep it on an even keel....

I so understand what you're saying.  I don't know if I'm battling some sort of depression or what but I seem to lack the motivation to do anything.  I've done pretty well at working out this past week.  I have enlisted the help of a personal trainer 2 days/week.  My second session is tomorrow. I am doing an awful time with the food/wine.  I work from home and my work is slow.  I'm single, not an active dating life at this time (my BF broke up with me on Sunday) and just not motivated to even socialize.  I find myself laying around the house with the TV on.  I have to force myself to even put make-up on sometimes.  HOW DO I SHAKE THIS LACK OF MOTIVATION?????? I'm a very logical, smart person and KNOW what I should be doing but I still don't do it.  HELP HELP HELP

same here! only i gained up to 20. i'd say jump back on the band wagon as quick as you can! its so much easier for me to gain then loose. i just wish i had jumped back on sooner.

you've done it before, you can do it again. now prove it.

I, too, have had a hard time getting myself back to the gym. I get myself going to the gym consistently and then I miss 1 day...and it is all down hill from there.
What I have found that helps is taking the classes that my gym offers. They have definitely motivated me to get my butt into gear. Working in a group atmosphere is so much fun and is completely energizing...I leave every class soaking wet (full of sweat) and feeling great! Since my gym offers a wide range of classes, I am able to take a different one each day.  Depending on the time of the class, I have found that it forces me to leave work and head straight to the gym (before stopping home). This is a good thing...because once I go home, I never make it to the gym. Right now, I am taking classes 5 days a week, and doing weight training only one day a week. My goal is to narrow down my classes to 3 days a week and up my weight training to 3 days a week. I'm not there yet...but, I feel good that I am at least going to the gym and working out for about an hour a day.

Also, I'm not sure if you are familiar with exercise on demand, but I have also heard many good things about the FREE workouts that they offer on TV. In fact, I know someone who lost 30 pounds by watching what she ate and doing those workouts. What is even great about that... is that you don't need a gym membership and can do it at any time in the comfort of your home! Just another idea. I hope these ideas were helpful! Best of luck! :)  

Well i am glad to hear other people go througth this too.  I am going through the same thing.  I lost 100lbs moved to Kansas City for 6 months for work and basically went on a bender of BBQ and Beer fo teh duration and gain about 40lbs back.  For the past month I have been in denial about it saying it was no big deal....i started to count my calories agian i am struggling just to stay at 2,000, i was able to maintain 1,700 no problem before...

You just need to remember you did if before you can do it agian...for me i joined a workout class (crossfit).  this forces me to the gym 6 times a week and is a fairly social event.  I also started weighing myself daily agian (i know some say this isn't good, but it keeps me focused).  And like the other poster said your rant is the first step in getting back to the game.

It is soooo nice to know I am not alone in this..I love this website for this. You can talk to your friends or your significant other but nobody gets it unless you go through it! Yesterday was a good day ended at 1020 calories for the day ..I know thats low(did not work out) and the damage I did over the weekend I could use a low day like that. I am going to the gym this morning for a group session..my gym stinks in the way of classes but I am going to find something because I do need to be with people and be made accountable or I just dont go..if I only have to answer to myself its not that bad. I love food and wine and I had it under control just like xxtccxx said I had no problems keeping my calories in check and not feeling ravonis but since I stopped counting I am just hungry all the time..strange how that works. I guess somewhere in your mind you let it happen??

Be careful of very low calorie days.  Too few calories during the day really encourages overeating in the evening.  I know that it's a gut reaction to really slash calories after an evening of overindulgence, but going back to a normal amount, rather than a low amount, does much more to keep you steady and really stop the see-sawing.

I had a major backslide too.  I did great 2 years ago.  Went from 230 to 175.  Then life threw me a few curveballs, and I lost my head.  I stopped my healthy habits for nearly a whole year, and gained back 25 pounds.  About 2 months ago, I was at 205, but I finally got my act together and got back on track.  Now I'm at 188, well on my way back to that 175.  We all have backslides.  The thing to do is to learn from them, and get back into a nice, steady, sensible weight loss program.

Any tricks to staying on track with the food and wine?  I think I just need to stop the wine all together!