Reassurance PLEASE. How bad did I ruin my whole day?

Ok so today I had a rugby match as well as a morning walk (about 5k) with my mom. And in the spirit of celebrating mom's weekend along with eating enough for my game i am very afraid I completely ruined my day..(and as a recovering bulimic) I just get very anxious about how many calories I actually consumed. Soooo...could someone just tell me to snap out of this anxiety spiral. I would greatly appreciate it. Sometimes I just need to be reassured to be able to relax about how much food I ate.

I had two pieces of light bread and eggbeaters and an apple for breakfast, then a tofu hotdog and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with carrots for lunch, then a luna bar, then a taco salad thing and an apple along with chips and salsa after the game, then a large grilled  chicken asian salad along with one of my mom's breaded halibut filets, and then a scoop of ice cream from baskin robbins. There may be a couple other small things in there but I'm not sure.

Yesterday I had a similar day by being pressured to have pizza for dinner with my family which I think put me over my daily limit as well.

Overall I think I'm around 2500 calories..which kinda freaks me out but i just need to remind myself that that is ok for having played a rugby game today and being 20 and being 5'4".

gosh I hate this anxiety I have about food. --- So if someone could just calm my irrational fears that I have binged out of control I would greatly appreciate it.

being 20, 5'4 and a rugby player, i would assume that your maintenance calorie intake is around 2200 anyway, so even if you did get up to 2500 that's not vey much over your maintenance level, so no real damage has been done...with the walking added in i'm sure you did just fine. besides, from the sound of it you didn't really eat many "bad" foods today anyhow. I also doubt that your intake reached 2500 calories, unless you ate the entire taco salad and had the most caloric ice cream. regardless, you did great and you deserve to enjoy good food. you are young and active and you're being waaay to hard on yourself. how much do you weigh?? are you overweight? your intake today would hardly count as a binge so rest assured that tomorrow will be better and you will stay well within your range, because it's a new day and you can make that choice. 200-300 calories over maintenance is nothing and you're doing great!!

Oh thanks so much. Sometimes I just need to hear someone else say those things.

Like I know in the back of my head that a high calorie intake day is not going to make me instantly gain weight but sometimes I just cant seem to break that anxiety. and its not like I'm trying to really lose weight I just don't want to gain any back. Its good just to be like "slap out of it"! (in the most Cher from Moonstruck accent possible).

I guess its just something I'm still working about getting over as this anxiety is what drove my bulimia in the first place. But I am getting there.

thanks for your support

You absolutely DID NOT ruin your day, your week or your life.

As you pointed out, you needed fuel for your game and for your age.  2500 is really only maintenance for a young and active woman. 

Be happy.

Agree with madamq and  flownaway, you defo didn't ruin your day. All your choices were really healthy. And you did do a 5k walk in the morning plus played a whole game of rudge...probs burnt about 500 calories minimum.

Sounds like you are OK with the increased actvity and you know its not your norm to eat 2500 calories every day. A "Cheat Day" never hurts and especially if you've offset the additional calories beforehand.

You did okay! Take a deep breath. Try to make better choices tomorrow!

Remember you are loved no matter your size. and you are human. We make lots of mistakes. We fall down but we get back up becasue we know it is better to walk than crawl. You can get do it too.

Sounds like you need to have someone help you get pass the pressures of other people eating and the stress of all that. It is hard. Make sure you are not listening to enablers and people who unwittingly or sometimes on purpose sabotague (sp?) your efforts. I am my own saboteur that is why I have just joined this group.

Once when I was younger (I am about to hit 60) and dieting I gave in to a huge chocolate craving and ate a whole tub of chocolate frosting in two sittings. I felt so guilty, defeated and depressed. I confessed to my husband and his response was, "I love you no matter what. Tomorrow will be better." He was right.

Just to piggyback on what everyone else has said, you seem to be active enough to be able to metabolize anything you think you went over on.  Don't sweat it.  I think you are fine.

If it's only one day of eating and you dont know just how many calories it was, dont get upset! Remember, no one could 'ruin' thier weight with just one day of unmonitored eating. Besides, eating isnt supposed to torture you, it's just supposed to be what it is; a sensible way to get energy after you burn it. hope this helps.