could this be my recovery?

Tomorrow I have an appointment with a counselor who specializes in EDs. I have been dealing with bulimia for about three years now. (well i guess that I am just guessing it is bulimia as I have never actually been diagnosed) It has taken me about 4 or 5 months to work up the nerve to 1) admit that I could use the help and 2) actually make the call! I am feeling completly freaked out but also really relieved that this could be the beginning of a whole new life for me. So cool.

I don't really know what type of response I am looking for....I guess I am just really happy to share the news with others who will understand what I am going through.  :)  And if anyone has any advice on what to expect tomorrow that would be really nice.  

hey im so glad you have decided to see someone to help you with this . im so sorry for your struggle , if you are ready which i hope you are your journey has begun . it will be hard and you will have days where you slip back but if you fight those fears and are determined to live a happy healthy life you can do it , and you ve come to the right place for support to do it. i think seeing a councelor will definitely help you im seeing someone and its only since ive been seeing her that ive managed to progress. try not worry about it she is here to help you. be honest and open she wont judge you she will beable to help you with all the things you are struggling with . write a list if there is things you want to ask her . im really proud of you for making that step it is the hardest one , i really hope it goes well keep us posted and message me anytime if you need any support h xx

thank you so much, tessa1223. your support really means a lot. i know that i will make it through this...i just have to DO IT! thank you so much for your advice.

I believe you can to , good luck , we are behind you h x

I've been through both anorexia and bulimia (recovered from both) and had counselling for both.

During my first appointments with a therapist, it was mostly about the therapist getting to know you - what your family is like, what your friendship circle is like, if you're working or studying, if you have depression or anxiety, and how long you have been dealing with an eating disorder.

Then after that we would talk about why I thought I had developed bulimia, what use it served me (because, horrible as it is, it wouldn't be in our lives if we didn't think it was doing something for us) and what I struggled with the most. We would come up with plans to deal with certain problems... One of my problems was undereating during the day and then coming home starving at night and having bulimic episodes. So we would work on getting me to eat more during the day, and work out what I would do to calm and relax myself more when I got home so I wasn't as anxious and tense.

We also talked a lot about other things in my life that were bothering me at the time - family, relationship kinda stuff.

I think there's a wide variety of therapists out there, and some have very different approaches, but that was my experience of therapy. I'd also point out that if your new therapist doesn't seem to fit your own philosophy, there will be plenty of therapists out there who will - don't be afraid to "shop around"!

Good luck with your appointment xx.

I always recommend this site for people with bulimia, but it did really help me at the time ----> http://www.bulimiahelp.org/

Thanks so much for the advice, Meryl. I will definetly check out that website. My appointment is today and as the day goes on I am getting more and more freaked out. I know I can do this, but I am really nervous. I keep questioning if it is really what I need. But, if I am being honest with myself I know that it is. I think that I am just trying to talk myself out of going. But I am going.

Thank you both for your support.