Rock Bottom

It feels redundant to keep repeating the same post. Maybe I am doing this for myself. Who knows.

I have officially hit rock bottom. It's a sick cycle that I need to come to terms with. I have went from 142 back to 150 in a week. I binge ever other day. I have grown to be quite helpless over the past few weeks. I have no motivation to exercise and it seems that food is my only comfort. It's almost like I have two personalities...one is extremely healthy (vegetarian with a huge emphasis on fruits and veggies) the other is as far opposite from that (practically no veggies, some fruit, tons of processed food, cheese, bread, baked goods, etc.)

Someone please tell me that I am not alone and if there is something I can do to FINALLY break this horrible cycle that has been haunting me for years. I am open to pretty much any suggestions. I feel like a slave to food and everything involved with it. It's disgusting. :(

You are so not alone! I am in the exact same boat and finally get it! What are your current stats?
I am 38
Female
155
Highest weight 163
Want to be 140, maybe 135
Are you an emotional eater? What triggers your falling off the wagon?

Sounds to me like something else is out of control in your life and your messing with your eating (binge/diet) as a way of exerting some form of control over something in your life.

Ask yourself is what your currently doing making you happy? Doesn't sound like it is, so it much be time for a change.

Sounds to me like someone needs to do some DANCING and get out and have some fun with other friends to take her mind off of food. Get your body in motion doing stuff, you feel better and more in control of your life. That can become a building block if you wish.

The other thing is think about how you and only you can make your life so much better by taking control and responsibilty. See no one can step up and do this for you. Only you can empower yourself to have the life you want.

Sounds to me like you want a good life at a healthy weight. No one will hand you that. You'll have step up and take it. The rewards will be great. People will like, accept, be nice etc to you if your at the right weight.

Flush the gulit for whatever you did last week or yesterday is irrelavant. What matters in your life is what you do today and tomorrow. If fear is the mind killer, then gulit is the motivation killer. Push it away you don't need it.

Really, if this has went on for years your looking at an addiction. Step up be that strong person you know you are and deal with. Focus on what you want and go after getting it. Sounds to me like being at the weight you want matters to you. Think about that bright future you have being so much brighter because your at the weight you want. Taking care of your weight will also make you stronger and more confident. When you beat this issue, you'll know you can beat any issue that comes up in your life. In fact when you start being the weight and deal with it head one you'll start to feel that way.

Hang in there, go walk, do dance get in motion, think about the good.

I was at 406, I'm at 346 today. I've battled this issue for well over thirty years. I know what I'm talking about. I'm going to get to 225...

Best Wishes

I am a 23 yr old female. My weight as of today is 149. I am 5'9 and usually 145. I want to be about 135. I have a small frame and was that weight a couple of years back...it worked for me.

There is not a doubt in my mind that I am an emotional eater. I will eat when I am stressed (more than likely happens when I am doing school work), sad/depressed, lonely, and bored.

I know all of the things that you are supposed to do when you are feeling this way...but that doesn't stop me from continuing to allow myself to wreak havoc on my body and health. Not to metion what this is doing to me mentally. I am extremely logical in every other aspect of my life, but when it comes to weight I freak.

Hello rw_designer.... glad to see you here!

Have you thought about talking to a counselor? Someone who could help you focus and channel your emotions in some way that doesn't involve food?  You could probably get a referral through either school or your primary care physician. There really is help out there .... just reach out and grab it.

((( hug )))

Hang in there.

=^..^= MOLLY

I use to eat the same way, and binge like crazy.
Now I have a check list.  Three fruits and five veggies, three servings of protein, 1/2 cup of yogurt every day.
When my list is filled, I don't feel too guilty about what else I eat.
After being a binger for years, this seems to help.  I have cut my binging way down. 

Original Post by mollymouser:

Have you thought about talking to a counselor? Someone who could help you focus and channel your emotions in some way that doesn't involve food? You could probably get a referral through either school or your primary care physician. There really is help out there .... just reach out and grab it.

 

Yep, I second this. When you are stuck (and feeling as you are - at rock bottom) asking for help can be a great way to get safely out of that place and on the right track. Take Care.

I'm in the same boat.  i am at my highest 161.  i lost 25 pounds about 6 months ago and put it back on and MORE!!

i have considered speaking to someone about it. well, not just that...all of my issues in general. if i don't sort the things out that are contributing to the emotional eating, i will never ever conquer it.

thanks so much everyone for you feedback. it's very much appreciated. :o)

I feel exactly the same way, except I don't binge eat every other day, the "healthy" me comes out for weeks, sometimes month at a time and than it gets pushed aside by the"eat everything in site" me - which is so powerfull, I can't get rid of it until I gain a lot of weight. I try to fight it but I always lose the battle :(  I already talked to my Dr about it and she just gave me a list of foods to eat and told me to find other ways to deal with life.....  It's not that easy when you have a job, kids , housework etc.....