SAD news :(

I had my 9 week ultrasound today.  The tech saw the sac but we couldn't see the baby.  I started to feel something was wrong.  She then did a vaginal and the baby was there but NO heartbeat.  She looked at me and said the baby is not viable.  It stopped developing at about a week ago.  I am still in shock b/c I have still been sick up to this point. 

The next thing I know I am scheduling a D & E for tomorrow!  I have to be at the hospital at 1:10.  They will give me pitcocin to bring on contractions and open the cervix then "clean" everything out.  Every week after this procedure, they will be drawing my blood to make sure the hcg comes down to the normal range. 

Can I mention how freakin weird this feels?  I feel pregnant but know now that my baby is literally dead.  I haven't bleed a single spot. 

I'll update everyone when I get home...not looking forward to going under.

Lindsay

I'm so sorry. I get chills every time I hear a story like yours. I'm not sure what to say other than I'm sorry this had to happen to you or anyone else. We get so attached to our babies so quickly that it hurts no matter what their age is.

I knew the moment I saw the title of your topic what you were going to post and my stomach just sank.

I wish you the best of luck and the strength to make it through the next several days/weeks/months. My thoughts are with you.

(((HUGGS)))  you are in my prayers.

Sorry to hear that.  I know this can't be easy for you.  You have been lucky to not feel sick or go through the typical miscarriage symptoms.  Just keep your head up and remember everything happens for a reason.

 You can always try again, LOL after all that is the fun part. LOL

I am so sorry. I would double-check before going through with the procedure because I am such a worrier- I'd want to make sure the doctor was 100% correct. Again, I am so sorry. You are in my prayers.

I am sorry for your loss. I went through a couple miscarriages and a blighted ovum...where everything develops like a pregnacy, but no baby. All were so hard to deal with, especially after the hormones drop. Be prepared for some tough sad days ahead...but know that you will get through this...and the babies you have in your future are the ones you are meant to have and love. I firmly believe this...as had any of those pregnacies worked, I would not have the girls I have today.  Again..I am soooo sorry and you are in my thoughts.

I am so sorry for you.  That is exactly what happened to me.  It's completely shocking.  It was very hard.  I am sorry that you have to go through that too.  Keep your chin up.  It will be hard for a while, but you will get through it.

I am so sorry. My husband and I lost our first baby at 14 weeks. It was a very sad thing, but I know God and nature have their reasons. Even after all this years, I remember a baby I never got to know.

Yours may have not been "viable" but that was your son or daughter, too. Know that I am thinking of you and your family at this time of loss, and that you are in my prayers.

J-mom

I'm sorry for your loss.  Our daughter had two miscarriages a few years ago and felt devastated.  As a Gramma I too hurt for her and my future grandchild.  I believe that when a baby is taken  from us early, that their Spirit goes to Heaven.  Sooo I decided to name my grand babies.  One I call Little Joe, and the other Heidi.  I believe someday when I too am gone from this world, those two precious children will meet me on the other side and their names will be Joe and Heidi. I suggest naming your baby and maybe even writing a little letter to it telling of your love and how you plan to meet face to face someday. 

So sorry for you. I'm young and so I've never experienced parenting or anything like this, but my mom had several misscarriages before she had me and told me how difficult it was, but reminded me that it turned out to be a blessing because here I am. You will get through this!

i am so sorry for you, good luck.

I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry.

Just checking in to see how you are doing- hope everything went well, i am so sorry for your loss.

How are you doing Lindsay,  Looks like you have alot of friends concerned and pulling for you.  Love and prayers from Ora

I've gone through something similar, it's never easy but with time becomes bearable.

Strangely enough, I found it upsetting to have the medical staff say words like "viable" and "tissue". I'd have rather them said "your baby".

{{hugs}}

I am sooooo sorry!

My heart aches for you. I just went through the same thing but for me there was no fetal pole at my 8 week ultrasound. Had my procedure on May 30th. The procedure was the easy part, the shock and heartache is the hard part - like I cannot believe this is happening to me :( PM me if you want to talk.