Satisfaction out of Reach?

Hey guys, awhile ago I posted on my obsession with excercise and doing 5 hours on the treadmill everyday plus several other things and I recieved a lot of great responses. It got me thinking that in order to see results, I know you have to change it up so thats what i started doing. Currently, I'm working out seven days a week doing the treadmill intensely for three days (3-4 hours) and continuing to strength train, kickbox, dance and yoga along with it. My question concerns my weight and size issue. I have gone up in weight to about 107 and I'm not happy with it. I've managed to stay in my size 0's, but everytime i see myself in the mirror i'm dissatisfied. I have great tone in my arms and legs, pretty good abs (flat but not six pack..yet) but i find myself striving to be 100 pounds. I'll be leaving for college soon, and i know that i cannot carry this "disorder" with me, and the worst part is that my family doesnt seem to be as concerned with my weight as they used to be (when i was 90 lbs) even though i "think" im still underweight for my age and height (5"3) Their lack of concern only makes me want to lose the weight again...any advice??

Their lack of concern only makes me want to lose the weight again...any advice??

You want thier attention, but the wrong kind of attention. Harming yourself isn't going to make them love or care for you more, so try and get their attention in a positive way. They are probably trying to give you space, because they think you are improving. Do you parents know that you are working out so much? If not.. Tell them! If they do, explain to them the severity of the situation and the feelings that you are having surrounding it. You are killing yourself. You have an excersizing disorder that needs to be fixed. You also have body image issues that need to be addressed before you are ever going to find yourself on a path to recovery. You need to stop excersizing so much, and the only person that can help you accept that fact is a proffesional. So my advice? Be COMPLETELY open with your family, get ahold of a doctor, and start going to therapy. Have your parents call and cancel one of your gym/ dance/ kick boxing memberships immidiatley.. you need to start slowly cutting them out.

You will not go to college with this disorder. You will be wasting you money, your life, and your potential. Do you really think you'll care about studying or doing homework when you haven't ran all day? No. You'll haul ass to the gym and start failing your courses. That's why this problem needs to be fixed now. You have to move on with your life and experience all this world has to offer without being trapped behind this disorder.

amberr, the problem is that i have seen a professional when the disorder began about a year ago. I've since been through two therapists and both have been a complete failure (long story) After that, I decided the only person i could rely on was myself. So i started eating more but couldnt seem to kick the workout routines. I slowly saw the weight creeping back on and in the beginning got sort of worried because i wasn't used to seeing myself normal again. I'm not gonna lie here- i like being skinny, especially the elated feeling you have knowing you worked so hard to achieve it. The latest meeting i had with my doctor and my mother sort of left the book open. He said that this disorder will follow me throughout my life and you can never beat it. Excessive exercise is something i'll have to live with basically. My parents are aware and thats part of why i'm feeling confused about their lack of care for me anymore. Is anyone in the same boat by chance? I guess i dont know where to go from here, all i know is that im not satisfied with my body right now...

Tbh i have never seen this before and well all i can say is your not fat or overweight exercising like that is crazy(unless your on the biggest loser) go to a therapist or something or tell a freind you need help since your family isnt concerend

fitnessguru,

in being the laziest person on this earth (i cannot understand how a human being could run 4 hours, oh man!) i will not claim to understand your disorder. however, i agree with amberrr. you need to see a doctor type person again, preferably one who is actually helpful. if the doctor does not make you feel better or give you a better option than just giving up (i cannot believe they told you you would have to live with this forever) you need a new one. keep looking until you find one that you relate to/one that is actually helpful. canadaleaf seems incredibly insensitive, BUT is right in that you should talk to your friends as well. they will be your support during the day seeing as youre around them all the time.

ALSO, maybe you should tell your parents that their lack of concern makes you want to lose it again, that should get their attention. no parent wants to watch their child wither away.

sorry for the long post, and best of luck

you will overcome this

Not all professionals are able to connect with each individual or to help them.  Exercise obsession is probably something that you will have to be aware of as a potential problem for the rest of your life but it is not necessarily something that you will do.  Go see another therapist, if that one doesn't work, try another one.  The sooner you can get help the better it will be for you in the long run as well.

I have never had an eating disorder or an exercise obsession, but I still get a lot more than the average person.  There are some days when I do up to 3.5 hours of martial arts and follow it with several hours of dancing.  For me that is an extreme day and I'm doing it because I enjoy the activities, to learn more in the martial art and the dancing I enjoy too much not to do it.  But I make sure on those days that I have protein bars handy and that I eat enough so I don't run out of steam.